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Chapter 10

Word count 2043

I know I said yesterday I’d only post a chapter a day but there’s no point leaving it when I’ve written a lot I’ll just post what I have and then update it when there’s an update ready

I hope everyone likes it so far there’s not really much trigger warnings for this one

Matty's POV

3 o'clock rolls around well quicker than I thought it would, I catch myself packing up and then Miss Conner's walks in holding a million folders and papers

"Would you like some help there miss ?"

"I've got it Matty , but thank you." She ends up placing the pile on the desk in-front of her and sits herself down at her computer "So Matty, have you had any other though about what might be causing you too feel like you need to escape!?".

Placing my rucksack back onto the floor I slouch back into the chair and start biting the skin around my nails "there's a lot really" this doesn't come out as confident as I felt it would , it was more of a mumble then anything else.

"Sorry?"

"I just said there's alot of things really that are bugging me", I pull my blazer around me tighter so I feel warmer "it's just a lot of anxiety about stuff I think"

"About anything in particular?"

"Just everything at this point, school , home , what I'm going do after school like I know what I want to do but I don't know if it's ever gunna happen", I'm talking with my hands being a little over dramatic my words as this is the only way I can concentrate right now.

"Is there anything that's upsetting you the most or giving you the most anxiety" , She's typing on her computer probably taking notes on this conversation for the school counsellor

"I don't really know what's bothering me most , it's just everything is changing, anytime anything gets to loud or something I just get overwhelmed and my ead start spinning it's like a constant ead ache", my heads in my hands again, I'm stressing even thinking about it, it hate all of this.

"So is it always just noise or is there other things that make you feel that way?"

"I don't know maybe crowds and when things get to much and I try to do a lot at once that kinda makes me ill."I'm resting my elbows on my knee at this point basically talking to the ground my leg is bouncing and I'm racking my hands together

"Does this usually happen when you get on edge or anxious", she's gesturing to what I'm doing

"Maybe , but I feel like it's something I've always done". Trying to make a conscious effort to not do it it's makes it arguably worse.

"Is there anything else you'd like to talk about right now?, is there anything you think would help with it?"

"My fiends are helping and my mum knows so she understands and she's trying her best to voice my opinions in a way I never knew I needed"

"Is that all you need" looking around I'm trying to think of anything else I might need but there's not really anything I can think of right now I just want everything to feel right.

"I don't think so, can I go now?, I've got stuff to do"

Smiling at me she checks the time and the end of school is approaching "yes , that will do for now, but I'll be having another catch up soon."

At that I thank her , pick up my rucksack and leave making my way down to the front gate to wait for Ross and Jamie. Sticking my headphones in , I scuff up the walls until the bell goes to let everyone out, George hasn't messaged back since out last conversation , I decide I'm gunna do something wild I open my phone and message him again.

"Your fit too" , I send the message with a picture of myself and I'm smiling my cheeks are red from the blush that overcame me when I wrote the reply. Risky again I'm not gay but he's different

The bell goes only a couple seconds after and just stuff my hands in my pocket along with my phone and just wait for them to come down. Shivering because although its May it's still freezing and I didn't bring a jacket. Once the majority of the school is out Ross and Jamie come sauntering down the path.

"Guys come on we ain't got all day", jumping around bouncing from each foot to keep my body heat up . When the boys reach me I notice Jamie isn't even wearing his jacket so I quickly steal it from him as he's always warm so I know it'll keep me warm.

"Oy Healy , what you doing?" . He starts running after me but I'm as quick as a fuckin race horse so I'm off in a flash

"Just cold out innit". I pull his jacket around me and get cosy, I can't remember the last time I felt someone else's body heat who wasn't my family, other than a quick pat on the back or arm round my shoulder. It's nice , in saying that I can't remember the last time I was able to get body heat I don't let people in anymore really. "It's warm can I have it till I get home, I'll bring it back tomorrow?"

"Don't you ave your own jacket Matty". He doesn't come back for it , he wasn't really bothered anyway "You can ave it for now, just remember to give it back"

"Thank you"

"What you doing tonight Matty ?", he's probably inkling to playing online with me once he's finished work which I'd be down for.

"Nothing tonight , I'll be calling George later , but if you wanna go online later I'm down". The town is quiet for this time of day most of the kids arent wandering around like usual , the sky was pretty ,blue and grey but also looked like it might rain later. I like rain it's peaceful

"Yo Matty!!!" , I'm startled out of my trance by Rosses voice

"Sorry what ?". There both just stood looking at me. Like I'd missed something

"I said are you and George going steady" he winked at me like the pest that he is

"What are you talking about"

"I'm just kidding man"

"No serious though, I know you guys tell me everything so I know the answer anyway but have you guys ever met a guy and they've made you think you might not just like girls."I slow my walking down a bit so they could catch up with me because I really need to talk about this right now and I'd rather it not be shouted to the entire street

"What do you mean?". Just two and a half straight men walking about Manchester talking about men is not how I saw my Tuesday going

"I don't really know what I'm talking about, just asking if you've ever questioned if you were straight really". I don't really look at them while we walk just in case there looking at me like I'm a mad man

"Not me no , but I know McDonald here has a big man crush on a guy in 6th form". He shoves Ross into a fence next to us playfully then Ross comes running after him. I'm just trying to stay out the way but still laughing

"DONT TALK SHIT SQUIRE", Ross has somehow managed to get Jamie into a headlock and got him trapped

"Bro I ain't talking shit , I've seen the way you look at him." After struggling out of his hold Jamie comes back to me and wraps his arm around my shoulder "What we're you thinking about anyway Healy , what's got ya brain muddled or who should I say ?"

"Just asking really that's all" , I can't be telling them anything yet they'll just be taking everything way out of context and I'm not even sure myself.

"Have you got a thing for a lad like Matty?", Ross has joined us again after sorting himself out "we wouldn't judge you, you know , really we kinda thought you might be at least Bi?"

"I'm just voicing things man honestly , like I've never been with a guy , may have had a few turn my head but I didn't know if it was just a hormone thing or general curiosity or what"

"Would it really be any different though at the end of the day right , if your in a dark room and someone goes down on you would you really know the difference anyway!?" . Ever the philosopher is our Jamie

"I wouldn't mind that's all I'm saying". I try shrugging it off like it's no big deal but really if it wasn't a big deal it would be much easier to just say it "I'm just saying would it really matter , like if I might have a small thing for someone who wasn't a girl , like it's not all men it's just this one guy , there just different, what would that mean ?"

"We'll just give it a go lad , if you never shot you never know right", Using our own lyrics against me is just the right way to go , Ross has always got a way of helping me understand things "and it wouldn't matter to us"

"Thanks guys, I knew you'd help" we have now arrived at Jamie's house we watch him walk in so he's not mugged right at his front door , and we make our way to Ross' which isn't far from mine. I love Jamie but Ross is a lot better in these situations

"Honestly Matty , you know if you like a guy it's not a big deal I'd say go for it", Ross is my best mate we've been friends for years and he always knows what to say he's rummaging around in his pocket probably for gum before he goes home so I pass him mine

"So the guy in 6th form what's he like then ?" , I don't feel like I've spoken to him much recently so I never really knew about the guy "what's his name?"

"It's not really a thing we're friends he's in my Biochem class , but his names John and Jamie's not wrong I do find him really interesting , but it's just a little different to what I'm used too"

"I understand that", this makes me laugh quite a bit this is not how I saw things going. This is just not how things were with us

"So your guy , is it George?, I won't tell Jay it can just be our thing for now"

"I don't know anything about all of it right now , like hell he's attractive but I don't know all that much about him ?", Talking about him makes me blush even at the thought of him and I'm smiling

Ross must have noticed it "He must be attractive if he's making the mighty Matty blush , your like a little diva when it comes to finding relationships"

"Right the thing about that is , I fuck up like a lot so I tend to keep relationships online or to that extent and I just never really see them , I've found plenty of people attractive"

"I mean that's fair, why do you feel the need to keep people pushed away , I don't mean us guys and your family but like say when you meet people your just always sure your gunna mess up so you don't even let them be close". He stops for a second really asking the question, really thinking about what to say

"I don't know Ross , like you said I always just think I'll mess up so if I keep them at bay there not gunna be upset when I inevitably do mess up they won't care". Really thinking about it I've never very often been with people from around here , online relationships are just easier to deal with and when I mess up they don't feel that upset as it would if I messed up right in front of them.

"You know your far cooler and understanding than you let yourself believe just give yourself a try Matty honestly your an amazing guy trust me". Hugging me close before he goes into his , leaving me with his words of wisdom for the day "see ya later Matty"

"See ya Rosso" . I spend the rest of the journey home it's only about five minutes just thinking about what he said.

Also just a quick probably stupid question “how do you annotate a book” , I know that shit you learn in school but I never listened I only liked writing not so much reading , so if anyone can help me out that would be much appreciated

Just witnessed my friend doing The Cartlon to “Looking for Sombody (the love)”

NEVER KNEW I NEEDED IT TILL

i felt that

Chapter 33

Mention : I don’t really think there’s much (mention of food issues , weed and slight smut but I’m not sure if anything else I can’t remember)

Word count : 3.8K

I really enjoyed writing this omg , I really hope you guys enjoy it as much as I did we’ve all been waiting for it

Matty's POV

Matty: George got off the train no hassle , we're going to have a smoke then make our way back to the car

Tim: that's alright son , take your time.

We're now sat in the smoking area , I'm sure George has his own smokes but as I'm taking mine out I offer him one from my carton , and offer him my lighter too. Again I'm sure he has his own but it's nice ain't it. He was shaking a little and I nudged him and gave him a knowing look.

"I'm nervous Matty, what if they don't like me?" , he brung the cigarette to his lips, inhaling a long drag and I watched his cheeks hollow out before he expelled the smoke. He then smiles at me and I tentatively take his hand in my mine again, hopefully not pushing any boundaries. His hand grows tighter around mine and he sits closer to me closing the mere centimetres that we're between us.

"Darlin, I'm sure everyones gunna love you" , I bring his hand up to my lips again and softly kiss his knuckles. "You're amazing , you're beautiful, you're funny , and you keep me sane man". I take another quick drag of my cigarette in unison with George, I can feel him looking at me "what's up darlin?"

"I don't want to be weird .....and you....you can say no....but can I kiss you?" , he looked like a deer in headlights as the words were slipping from his mouth and I couldn't help but smile at him and let out a little chuckle. "I mean ....I guess ...nevermi"

"Darlin , shush , yes you can, you can kiss me as much as you like" , with that being said I felt his hand leave mine and come up to my face as he pulled me into him softly and kissed me, he tasted like smoke and coffee and something that I feel like is just George you know. We stay like this for a couple minutes just separating to gain our breath back. "Your a good kisser", I can feel the blush on my cheeks radiating from me again and I chuckle.

"You are too" , the smile that was displayed on his face was most likely identical to mine , looking like love sick teenagers. I gave him another quick peck on the cheek then we both dropped out cigs, linked our hands and began to make our way back to the car, his grip on my hand got a little tighter as we reached the car park "Matty promise me it's gunna be okay"

"What's gunna be okay darlin ?"

"Me being there , I'm not gunna be in the way am I, I'm not gunna mess things up right?" , he pauses just before we properly reach the car and pulls me back a little the fear clear on his face.

"George I promise , everything will be amazing okay , I know it's easier to say then do but please stop worrying , I promise everything will be grand, just remember I'm always right there", I squeeze his hand sent a quick smile his way and slowly pull him to the car , my dad got out the driver seat and started greeting George "Hiya lad , how was your trip", I watched George shake my dads hand as I took his case and dropped it into the boot of the car

"It was alright thanks Mr Healy , wasn't too long" , as I leaned on the back of the car watching the interaction take place I couldn't help but think George looks so awkward trying to be formal with my dad it was kind of funny. " The train was delayed by like five minutes but it didn't really matter", my dad did eventually tell him that it was okay to just call him Tim, we all then just trundled into the car George and I in the back and my dad in the driver seat as we sped away.

"Hey Matty ?", George said as we'd been on the road for roughly five minutes.

"Yeh?"

"How long roughly till we get to yours?"

"25 minutes depending on the traffic , why ?, what's up?" , we'd both just been taking pictures of each other you know being cheesy and the smile on our faces hadn't left since we saw each other.

"Kinda really have to pee, but it's fine"

"Why didn't you go in the station , or on the train ,you melon?", I couldn't help the smirk on my face he really is a numpty.

"We'll you know public transport don't fancy that really , just can never trust those transport toilets" , he was laughing to himself as he said it "and well at the station I was a little preoccupied was I not ?"

"Yeh we were a little preoccupied BUT you have a pretty mouth there , that makes very good sounds you could have said" , I couldn't help staring at his lips while saying that they really are so pretty.

"Nah I was too busy , it's alright though", our hands met in the middle console of the car, " Is Lou excited ?"

"Aww man , he's actually buzzing , been asking all day, he was supposed to come with us but he fell asleep, he's expecting you to play with him when we get back so be prepared for that" , his grip on my hand got tighter as he smiled back at me .

"You know I'll play with him anytime he wants, but I wanna spend as much time as I can with you, what days are your Exams on?", I missed what he'd said it took me a second to process the words because I couldn't help but just get lost in his eyes, so pretty , deep brown , like chocolate cake. When I noticed him just staring at me with such a wacky smile on his face , I snapped out of my haze.

"Sorry ...uh I think... Wednesday morning ....Thursday afternoon and Friday afternoon aswell ....but there only a few hours each" , my cheeks where burning again because I was caught just staring at him again "sorry"

"Why you sorry love, you've got to do them and your going to do amazingly and you've got me , I can help you study, if you need me too" , he leans over and kisses my cheek , while whispering if my ear "obviously if there's time after all the other studying I'm going to be doing"

"George", I track my eyes from his face to my dad as if to say shush my dad can here you. "Not the place", I was still smiling either way.

"So....does it really matter Im sure he knows anyways", he adjusts himself again in the seat once pulling away from me.

"You doing alright there ?", I smirk up at him after I compose myself

"Yeh all good", he pulls the camera up on his phone and asks me to get in shot with him and we take a picture with us both in it , first one of many in the week to come. "See you're gorgeous Matty"

"No , I think your possibly looking at yourself there darlin" ,

After another five minutes , my dad pulls up outside the house and I tell George where here , I also tell him that the door should be open so just make his way upstairs I'll get his bags in

"My rooms upstairs second door on the left and I've got the en-suite so just go ahead"

"Thank fuck", he jumps out of his side and make his way in as I wander off to the boot pulling his suitcase out as I watch him run inside, I'm not to far behind him after thanking my dad for driving us and then also make my way upstairs I spot George standing at my door with it wide open and he looks a little pale

"The toilets just there", I point to the other door at the corner off my room , but I see him just shake his head as I step into my room and pull his suitcase onto my bed "George what's up "

"What is that" , I follow his line of sight over to where he's looking and I then realise he looking at my snake enclosure

"It's okay George shes just my snake" , I leap up from my bed and walk over to the enclosure and wait for her to slither up my arm and tentatively walk over to George "Don't be scared , she won't hurt you, I promise, come say Hi"

He doesn't move an inch just frozen on the spot with his mouth agape, "uh , I don't think that'll be happening Matty , Snakes are scary as fuck man", He moves around the door and slips into the bathroom. "I'll be back in a second"

I put the snake back into the enclosure and flop down onto my bed while I wait for George to come back , which only take a minute or so , I hear the door click as it opens and George comes bouldering over and jumps onto the bed grappling me into a hug and kisses all over my face. "Hi there love"

"Hiya darlin , you feel better now ?" , I roll us over and I'm straddling his hips as I play with his hair sighing as I do , twisting a few strand through my fingers .

"I'm alright love , but for the love of everything that is holy , please don't come anywhere near me with that snake , I know it's the most irrational thing ever but snakes are scary" , he looked genuinely scared when I saw him stood at the door so he's probably not kidding and I'm not going to push it, so I just smile at him nodding

"I won't don't worry handsome , if she scares you that much I'll just keep her in there" , he pulls me into him softly with one of his hands on my hip as the other travel to my back kissing me softly on the lips , something I could get used too. I place my hands on either side of his cheeks rubbing my thumbs softly as we get lost in each other.

We're lost in each other for what feel like five minutes , then we here a light tap on the door and it opens slowly " Maffu is Geor...." , Louis doesn't finish his sentence as he lays eyes in George and comes running over and jumps into the bed "Hiya Georgie"

"Hi lad" , George sits up properly and I climb off of him so Louis can give him a hug, "did you have a good nap, it looks like you did ay", he ruffles his hair a little trying to flatten it , I watch on with amazement as I watch my two favourite boys get on.

"It was good but I'm awake now so I can play, you can play right ?", I do want us to hang out all together but I also do just want to nap next to George for a while because 1 hour of sleep in like the last day and a half is starting to get to me.

"Hey kiddo , do you think it would be okay if we played after dinner , because we're a little tired and we're going to have a little nap"

"Aww but you said we could play when George comes" he turns around on George's knee to look at me

"I know kiddo , I'm sorry , it shouldn't be too long, just after dinner"

"Pinky promise!" , we link our pinkies together as way of a promise because I can't even break a promise and Louis knows this, he then hugs George one last time and slides from the bed, running out of the room again. George looks at me with those damn pretty eyes of him "you tired babe ?"

"Little bit yeh"

He sticks his arms out and makes grabby hands at me as he lays back down again , I lay down next to him resting my head on he's chest and he wrap his arms around me "get some sleep yeh , you've gotta be shattered you didn't sleep last night"

"Can you play with my hair , it'll help"

"You know I will handsome",  his hands star slowly running through my hair as I hold him tightly feeling my eyes drops "sleep tight handsome" , before I drift off I feel George plant a kiss on my head.

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George's POV

While Matty slept I decided to post the photo of us that I'd taken onto my story captioning it "I'm in Manchester for the week , seeing this cutie" , then decide to text Adam for a bit while Matty sleeps

George : alright Hann , I made it okay

Adam: that's great lad , how is it

George : he's actually so cute Ad like seriously , and from what I've seen his dad seems chill , his little brother is just as excited to see me , I think it's going to be great

Adam: that's amazin, so I know you've only been there like an hour or so but anything fun to tell me yet

George : Jesus Hann , we just kissed that's all but uh yeh I think I might actually wanna be with him yanno , like I knew that anyway , but he's so pretty Hann

Adam: so when can I meet him , to make sure he's right for my best mate

George : maybe next time ??

Adam: have you guys made any plans for the week or just winging it ??

George : I don't actually know yet , I know I'll be going to see his mates Ross and Jamie at some point I don't know anything else , we didn't really plan anything , or if he has , he ain't said .

Adam: we'll I'll leave you too it , but keep me updated yeh , and you know I'm here if things get weird or whatever

George: thanks lad , I'll talk to you later.

I drop my phone back onto the bed , slip from Matty's grasp making my way to the suitcase and pull out a present I had gotten for him, place it on the bottom of the bed. The wrapping paper is black and have geometric white boxes all over it. I pull a hoodie on over my shirt and slip into some joggers. Once I'm changed I take a quick look around his room , my eyes instantly falling on his drum kit a silver "Yamaha Rydeen" set in the corner of his room , where he had a few acoustic guitars set up on the stands around it and two Electronic Guitars up on the racks on the wall , one in bubblegum pink and the other Race-car red as well as a banjo on his dresser, every single part of his room was covered in band posters , movie posters scattered all over the place. I take a seat on the small drumming stool behind the kit at first I feel like a giant on the chair my knees basically nearly touching my chest so I adjust it , it squeaks loudly it makes me cringe as I watch Matty slightly stir in his sleep but he doesn't wake which is okay. I search for some drum sticks the brush type so that it's not to loud. He also had the covers on them. I just spend some time mucking about on them , not using the kick drum felt forgein while still using the snares but I don't want to wake him.

I spend about an hour just messing about on the drums and a while on the banjo which in turn accidentally wake Matty "Georgie , what are you doing?", his voice sound gravelly and he's rubbing his eyes and he sits up. So pretty

"Sorry did I wake you?" , I place the sticks back were I found them and make my way back over to Matty "I'm sorry if I did handsome"

"Nah you didn't wake me , I just don't sleep for very long you know", he stretches his arms out and inviting me in for a hug so I just pull him into a tight hug.

"Did you sleep okay?" , I pull the ringlets of his hair on the nape of his neck and let it spring back into place "you're so cute with that just woken up face you know?"

He buries his fave in my chest as he shakes his head a little , his hair falling over his eyes "what we're you doing ?"

"Just checking out your instruments , you've got some pretty cool gear there", I pointed up to the pink guitar in the wall that I'd been pulled to a few times since noticing it but didn't move it because I don't want to accidentally break it. "That one's pretty cool , when did you get that".

"The pink one ?, I got that myself a few months ago, I saw in a music shop in town and I thought it was really awesome, and the guy in the shop let me play it for a while and it just sounded amazing" , he took a hold of my hand that was pointing at the guitar and pulled it to his lips and kissed my knuckles, "that fight you had must have been a really hard one darling , your hands are still bruised from it" , he kisses each knuckle individually "are ....you...okay ....what ....about ....the others kid" each word punctuated with a kiss.

The blush that had been on my face continued to burn my cheeks " I broke his nose, I always forget I'm stronger than I feel sometimes , but that lad deserved it like, I don't know what he expected" , I turn to Matty with my free hand on his jaw and kiss his lips. "I'm fine though and I'm sure he is too" , We break from the kiss and I see the present on the bed "Oh I got you a present" , I break away from his hold so I can reach for it, I place it in his lap and we both sit cross legged across from each other and our knees press together "there only little but I thought you'd like them".

He marvelled at the wrapping paper for a second before tearing into it, "You didn't have to you know?", the first thing he pulled out was a grey "Santa Cruz" hoodie and his eyes lite up when he pulled it out "Man this is so cool , and Jesus it's soft" , he immediately pulled it over his head and I may have picked a size to big because he was drowning in it but by Christ does he looks cute, the next thing where the two hats I'd picked, I had bought one and my mum had made the other , a grey and greeen "Land Rover" hat but the words had been rearranged and some missing so it looked like it said "Lover" and the other was a little white and black rabbit hat. "George this is so cute , who made this", he pulled the bunny hat (the sincerity hat) on slightly squint on his head, his curls where still noticeable under it.

"My mum makes them, my little sister wanted one , but I also thought it would be something you might like so I asked her to make you one", Matty surges forward throwing his arms around me as we fall back against the bed mumbling “Thank you” over and over into the crook of my neck.

“It’s okay love honestly , I’m glad you like them”

“I love them George seriously, wait hold on” , he gets up quickly and makes his way over to his wardrobe and pulls out a few things , “I didn’t get you anything but I did say you could have a few of my hoodie if you like so uh yeh , here picks the ones you like” , there was the fluffy cardigan that he always wears and I know there’s a story behind that and he’ll struggle to part with that , along with a red , yellow and red striped sweater , a few band hoodies and a worn blue Nike hoodie that looks like it would also drown him out, I’m immediately drawn the the Nike one since it looks to be quite worn meaning he wears it a lot so I reach out to grab it but I’m still looking at the fluffy cardigan. “ You can have the cardigan you know darling if you would really like it , as well as the hoodie , I don’t mind”

“The cardigan is special to you , I know you and I see how you are with it” , I look up at him stood at the end of the bed and his hoodie sleeves are resting over his hands and one hand is in his mouth as he’s biting on his nails. Something he does when he’s nervous.

“It was Janey’s , I stole it from her once upon a time I said I’d give it back and just never did, but eventually even she agreed I suited better , but I REALLY want to give it to you , so you can feel just as good as I do when I wear it , feel the security I guess” , he climbed back onto the bed and passed it to me “like seriously , It’s okay”

“I promise I’ll look after it” , I gently pull him back onto my lap , kiss his face, each cheek and then his lips. “I promise to look after you too handsome”

Matty’s head was swiftly back in the crook of my neck, his hair tickling my face and I feel his teeth graze my neck sending a shiver down my spine “Is this okay George” , I nod and slide my hand up to tangle in his hair to keep him there and he begins to nibble and suck into the sweet spot on my neck. I pull his hair lightly so I don’t hurt him just to pull him off me.

“Don’t start something if we can’t start something love”

“Who says we can’t , I can lock the door”

“Is that really the first impression , we want to give your parents IVE only been max four hours love” , my hand in his hair is still playing with his girls and he’s leaning into and his eyes and falling closed again.

“It’s okay , honestly, we don’t have to though if you don’t want to obviously”, I could feel myself growing hard with him on my lap and I could see it in his eyes he wanted too.

“We don’t have to go all the way right now , right ?”

“No darlin, what did you have in mind instead”, I pretend to think for a while because really I know exactly what I’d like but the back and forth is very fun too.

My hand wanders under the hoodie he’s wearing and I slightly pull in the waist band of his jeans to bring him even closer to me “head sounds good to me”

“George you’re as good as me darlin”

I just had the stupidest but best idea everrrr

Heart Out is my absolute fave song rn I just gives me the tingles and makes me feel twirly 🤷🏻‍♂️

And I have a 75 tattoo dedicated to a few of my other fave songs but Heart Out ain’t on it cuz I wanted one specifically for Heart Out and I’m tryna decide how to go about it

And my brain just goes “well after your top surgery you can get “push your lack of chest out” on your collor bone” and idk why but that was too funny to me

Is that stupid or funny 😂😂😂

Chapter 18

Word Count : 2796

Warnings : Smut in this one , it’s cringe and weird maybe a little awkward but there we go

George's POV

The moment I read Matty's text, I jump up from my place on the couch and basically bomb through to my room nearly taking the door off the hinges as I go, I physically feel like a 12 year old girl right now when there first proper boyfriend give them even the slightest bit of attention, it's so lame but I can't help it. I set up my laptop on my desk and get comfy in my chair and use the reflection in the screen to make sure I don't look a state. I tie my hair up in a small man bun and pull my hood over it , it definitely looks better like this less wild I suppose. That's when I finally open the app to call him, I listen through the dial tone while my heart races, hearing his voice is like home for me already. His face appears on my screen in full and he's smiling already his eyes are shining and he looks amazing . We sit in a comfortable silence for a couple of seconds just eyeballing each other until I speak up "hey there love"

"Hello Darlin", there I go already melting into a puddle on the floor, wow, his voice is like warm honey tea when your sick it just opens everything up. Makes me feel alive "are you okay darlin".

"I'm alright now that your here , I can see you now and watch over you", I'd watch him all day, doing even menial tasks, watching him work through things watching his face contourt into a crooked smile that he does when he's thinking of things that make him happy, or when he's confused. Getting to know his body and his tell tale signs that he might need me. "How are you doing my love?"

"I'm happy your here now, was school okay , what did you do ?", I didn't do much at school I think I only went to my first lesson I skipped my other lessons just spent a lot of time in the music rooms getting more demos fixed, can't let him know I'm not going to tell him I didn't go though

"It was alright nothing important happened today just did the usual stuff, what happened today then can you tell me about it ?", I lean forward in my seat, leaning on my elbows just watching him think of the right words to say. "You can just say it how it is you know, you don't need to spare any details for me"

"It was just a tricky day G, talked a lot about how I'm feeling, everyone was fussing about me, It just drained me, I know it was talking , but it made me think didn't it" , he's just talking away deep in thought , I'm just listening he's so animated when he talks even when it's not a happy topic.

"You don't like people fussing ?", I'd fuss over him anyway any day , give him everything he needs, work a great job to make the money so he could have anything he could ever want. Take him places , show him thing he's never seen. "Jesus G why you thinking like that your not even a thing" I berate myself in my own head. I always think way to quickly into things.

"It just makes everything feel too real now that everyone knows that's all". His hair is so fluffy , I wanna play with it, I wonder if he's smooth under those clothes and I wonder how much he likes it when people play with his hair. He does it a lot himself I wonder if it's different for him when others do it "you're staring Georgie" he breaks me out of my day dream, my face heats up I swear I've gone scarlet and scratch the bag of my head.

"No I wasn't ....I was just listening to you is all". I don't know who I was trying to convince him or myself , he's just looking at me now with the goofy smile of his. I feel a little hot under the colour and uncomfortable under his gaze

"What we're you thinking about Darlin?", God he can't know that would be weird right if I just told him I wanna see all of him, I want to know all of him. How interesting and tantalising I find him. I'm still blushing and I don't think it's going to subside anytime soon. He just does that to me "Come on Darlin tell me?" , I can do it I'm a big boy this is how people flirt ain't it

"I was thinking about you" . Wow , way to make it weird George well done, now you have to say more words to make it less weird "like not like in a weird way but like just" here I go tripping over my words like a moron come on get it together G , Jesus

"Like what?", Shit why's he gotta be such a menace , he's smiling at me leaning on one of his elbows , closer to the camera, while his other hands plays with his hair

"Just uh , just maybe , I was just thinking that I'd like to kiss you...no that's weird sorry um , I just wanna be there with you" , he's just sat there watching me trip over my words looking like a complete flake and giggling about it, this is no reason for him to be like this right now , yes I'm making an arse of myself but nope that's just mean.

"If it helps , I'd really like to kiss you too" , he's blushing now too "I've wanted to kiss you since I first saw your face a few days ago , I've never really been with a guy in that way so I didn't think it meant anything but you've earwormed youre way into my head and it's all I want to do"

"You've never been with a guy?, Really ?" , that's a weird thought he seems like someone who'd have at least tried it, like he doesn't seem like he'd be scared to let himself be with a guy.

"Nah never been with a guy , I haven't really accepted that I'd liked guys as well as girls until like last year but never had anyone that's made me want to try stuff, like of course I've like done stuff.....to the thought of guys but never with one". He's getting a little shy and awkward now and if I didn't already think he was cute I'd surely think it now. His little flustered looks and his scrunched up face is everything. I'm now a lot less nervous, I don't have to be anything other than myself right, that should make things a lot easier

"We'll that's makes me somewhat happier, If you let me I can be your guide". Smiling at each other then we break into giggling messes "tell me about the first time you did something to a guy", I know that that's maybe a weird question but I want to know what he likes and what he's into "like what did he look like or what did you imagine , like , I don't know what did you want to do with him"

"Well there was this guy in school he was on the football team , I think I was maybe 15 at the time , I just thought he was pretty, tall as all hell , black hair , he was kinda emo in a way. We were friends for a while and that summer we'd spent a-lot of time with each other and I think I developed a little fascination with him, We were playing football one night and it was really fuckin hot and he was just running around shirtless and that night after he left stuff happened, just got a little busy with myself in the shower", Matty in the shower is an image that i wouldnt mind ingraining in my brain forever. The image of that floating around in my brain leaves a stiffness between my legs and it causes me to shift in my chair uncomfortably. I see a glimmer in his eyes like he knows what’s up “you okay there darlin?”

“Mhm , all good”, I know for a fact that he knows I’m lying. The air in the room is getting warmer stifling you may say and I can feel the redness in my cheeks become more prominent. I lean back in my chair and try to adjust my jeans discreetly so there’s less friction. Matty is literally just staring me down which is not making my situation any easier “seriously love I’m all good, anyway, so uh what happened after that ?”, this isn’t going to help my situation either but I began this so I’ve got to keep going right ?.

“Nothing really, we were still friends for a while but he moved, I mean there was still obviously time throughout the friendship that I’d have time to myself thinking about him but it wasn’t a thing I made a big deal of you know ….” , at that point he stands up removing his shirt and I swear I’m trying to look anywhere but at my screen “although in saying that we did play a game of spin the bottle at this party one time, and ALOT of kissing happened that night, ended up with the biggest hard-on of my life, Jesus trying to hide that from a house party full of teenagers was a nightmare….”, he’s putting so many images in my head right now seriously I’m about to go into overdrive. I’m not even going to try speak because I know I’ll just not get a single word right. He’s got his work shirt on now and he’s sat back in his seat and I’m trying not to let on that I’m actually about to die. “You look a little warm there darlin , you sure your doing alright there?”, that cocky smile he’s got plastered in his face right now tells me everything I need to know that he’s just trying to wind me up. I rolls my eyes and let out and over exasperated sigh like I’m not bothered by what’s going on.

“I told you I’m fine Matthew” , I know he told me that he only gets called that when he’s in trouble or someone’s pissed off at him but I’ve got to show him that I’m not spiralling in my head “Anyway , what time do you have to go to work”.

“I have to leave in ten minutes, why ?, do you have urgent business that needs attending too”, little fucker is really trying this right now , I can hold on ten minutes I’m not a horny teenager that has to be right at it but I swear if he keeps up like this I don’t know what’s going to happen.

“No , no , I was just inquiring that’s all”

“Oh you were , were you?”, he’s a fuckin menace quite literally but I wouldn’t have him any other way. He’s beutiful inside and out , even with the cockiness, he seems to have calmed a little bit

“Yes I was, are you going to be okay at work love ?” , he didn’t go to school again, I know school and work are very different and now that I’ve seen his work attire I now know that he works at Caffè Nero that can be quite busy sometimes “it’s nearly 5 it’s coming up to dinner time it’s not going to be too busy is it ?”

“I’ll be fine darlin , it’s only a few hours, I don’t work long hours now , few hours at a time, I’m only in till 9 , four hours” , he’s smiling at me while pulling strands of his hair and letting the curls spring back in place. Arghh imagine pulling on that and letting my hands wrack through it. I whimper a little at the thought. Stop it G, just calm down Jesus, I place my head in one hand just resting on my chin and my other hand goes under my desks clasping on my thigh to stop me from touching anything else “I’m going to go now darlin just to be there in time okay” he winks at me slightly as he gets up “don’t forget to send me pictures”, I know exactly what he meant by that. We say our goodbyes and my screen goes black. I then let out a sigh of relief and lean back in my chair spinning around slightly so I’m facing the inside of my room “wow”, I do however have to get rid of this before I go see my family. I rise from my chair removing my hoodie and draping it over the back of the chair I quickly go to lock my door and I close my curtain on the way I lay back on the bed and pick my phone up and a message from Matty appears on the front screen I open it instantly

“Hey Darlin, did that make you uncomfortable if so I’m sorry”

“No I just got a little busy downstairs 😂”

“I had noticed, would I be allowed to see”

I lay down fully on my bed and pull my shirt up a little bit a strip of the skin on my stomach was visible and the band of my boxers. I slide my hands down my body a little it’s resting next to the very visible bulge in my jeans I quickly snap a picture and send it off to him with a little “is this okay?” , I palm myself through my jeans for a while giving me some realise and I’m so thankful for it because fuck me do I need this. My hands are tingling and itching to open my button but I want to wait a while and give myself some time. A message come back through from Matty

“What a beautiful boy, can I see more? x”

I continue palming myself and a soft moan escapes my lips, I then finally loosen the button and slide my jeans down my thighs now just revealing my bulge in my boxers , I then slide my hand into my boxers and wrap my hand around my dick squeezing lightly, with my other hands I snap a picture of the sight I front of me and just send it off without a caption because I’m not sure what to say and with this I just place my phone beside me and bring my hand up to my mouth to cover it so my family can’t hear what I’m up too. At this I begin moving my hand up and down my dick now gaining the pressure I needed, at this I release a moan only heard to my ears. It’s all a bit dry but I have no lube, I let myself go and lick my hand for a slicker movement to be made gross I know but what else am I supposed to do. I bring my hand back down to my dick and start jerking again. I close my eyes and the image of Matty in the shower pleasuring himself quickly comes to the for front of my mind “fuckkk” , I take my hand away from my mouth for a second and my lips part with that it goes to my hair which I pull on for a while imaging that my hands are Matty’s for a moment this causes my back to arch off of the bed as Precum starts to leak from my dick. I continue on with what I’m doing and I’m not imaging Matty whispering in my ear “what a gorgeous boy , doing so well for me” , This mixed with the image of Matty in the shower whisper sweet nothings causes the tightness in my stomach to start forming as mr hands gets faster I bring my other hand back to my mouth and I bite on my knuckles, “you want to be loud for me don’t you baby” there it goes again the image of him leaning over me to whisper into my ears. My release comes quicker than I’d have liked , I release all over my hand and my stomach and I breath loudly out of my nose as I finish “That was amazing fuck me”, I wait till I come down to reality again and pick up my phone to see another message from Matty

“I bet that would look great in my hand 😉”

I wipe myself down with a tissue from the box that was beside my bed and quickly go to but it in the bin in the corner of my room, I pull my boxers and trousers back up and button them back up

“If only it was”

I know I already posted this but I’ve just realised this it’s not very common thing but why are they ALL lefties 😂

This is so ADHD Matty Coded and I love it , everyone else just tryna work and Matty like 🕺🏻🕺🏻🕺🏻 if this is how school was for him I’d have loved to be in his class 😂😂

i was showing my auntie and uncle videos of The 1975 yesterday and my auntie wasn’t to impressed she was like “idk wtf he’s saying , good tunes but dk what he’s saying”, my uncle loves the songs anyway , but then today when it was just me and my uncle my uncle was like “i’m not gay but he is an extremely good looking lad” and i’m just like “YUP BOSS YOU GOT IT, You’ve been hit by the Matty curse” , and then he was like “i just let my feminine side out ig 😂