Something Quick I Threw Together A While Ago When I Was Learning Ibispaint

Something about their lack of rizz amuses and entices me

Something about this man makes me feel safe in ways I didn't think possible. Like the flip from demon to kitty cat- stunning

I feel like vampires would be so excited to see their victims drinking water. How many people do you know that only drink like coffee, energy drinks, pop, or just completely super-sugary super-caffeinated things, and no water? Imagine how bad their blood tastes! Shit has to burn going down... And that's not even mentioning alcoholic beverages

I feel like if you drink water, vampires would just flock to you- full stop 😂

days off aren't long enough. you're telling me I have two days to do everything I can't do bc I work in two days? one of which I'm exhausted and mentally repairing myself, and the other I'm mentally preparing myself for the bullshit all over again???? ☹️

When I made a friend at work I was literally like:

and I regret nothing 😂

-VENT-

I grew up being told to hug family I didn't want to and was low-key treated like a doll to be dressed up/act however they wanted. No input from lil ol me.

I love cuddling but get overwhelmed really easily, so it's easier to just say I don't like being touched; but that's not true! I just don't want to push someone away and hurt their feelings so I just say I don't like it. I feel intrinsically guilty at expressing boundaries, but also know that they are important and have improved on doing it anyway. Physical affection and compliments are incredibly hard for me to accept and I get nauseated whenever being told positive things. It was always a manipulative tactic (and some people in my life are still like that). Now I have a very strict touching boundary. I'm proud I can do that for myself, but I do wish I could just cuddle on the couch with someone in a platonic way, and then get away from them without it being a big deal. I'm sensitive to smell, touch, lights, and sound like a LOT. So many people have gotten butthurt about me not liking their perfume or being uncomfortable when they get in my bubble. I give good eye contact, but responding to things is tough for me. I give a lot of thumbs up like 🙂👍 and some people think it's a disrespect thing. It ain't, I swear! If I don't know how to respond, I have no issue saying that! Like "I don't know how you want me to respond" or "Very nice".

It gets tiring constantly having to justify myself to myself, let alone to other people. Like yes, I don't wanna handshake, high-five, or hug. No, I actually don't know how to keep conversing with you or respond to your joke, I'm sorry. Especially since I work with customers all day, I get a lot of backward moments bc I can't always get the tone when someone is actually upset or joking, so I do a lot of head tilts or "very nice" and "no problem" And some people do NOT like that at all, others get embarrassed on my behalf. Doesn't help that I wear a mask, but I mask less when I'm wearing it (ironic I know)

Anyway, I'm good 😂

I was described as "in between the in-between" today and that is all I want to be referred to as from now on actually

Hate hugs, love cuddles... Crave affection but wanna throw up at any compliments. What is my life 😭

My body craves the stars while my bones crave the earth; my mind is torn between the interstitial and I just wanna ✨ v i b e ✨

The ace to bi to pan pipeline needs to be studied.

"Oh I don't really like anyone, so I guess I'm ace"

"Well, I like girls and boys romantically so I guess I'm bi?"

"I was wrong, everybody's hot 😭"