You Don’t Understand. How Much Pain Someone Must Be In To Drag A Blade Across Their Own Skin Until

Doing this as of today!

An apology

I'm sorry if I help fuel your ed

I'm sorry if this account is one of the reasons you have an ed

In sorry if you looked on my page out of curiosity then stumbled down the tabitha hole

I'm sorry if my page influenced your ed in anyway

But let me say something

It might be too late for those people but please I'm BEGGING you if you don't have an ed and are at the "curiosity" stage let me tell you the saying "Curiousity Killed the Cat" has never rang more true, so LEAVE. I'm not asking you nicely I'm telling you FUCKING LEAVE.

I don't care if I seem rude to you, get the fuck off tumblr RIGHT NOW. I ignored these when I saw them and I regret it this disorder is one of the WORST things that happened to me, you know anorexia is the most deadly mental illness ? If you don't recover you will DIE.

I want to scream through my phone, I am so fucking angry, I don't want to influence any eating disorders !!!

As the sister of a recovered anorexic being their family member is horrible, seeing someone slowly deteriorate, hearing the fights escalate, not knowing when you would see them for the last time, wondering why they won't eat this. When I was 8, my parents FORBADE ME FROM WAKING MY BIG SISTER UP IN FEAR I WOULD SEE HER DEAD BODY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?! THEY THOUGHT A CHILD, A BABY, WOULD SEE THE PERSON SHE LOOKS UP TO DEAD.

THIS ILLNESS IS NO JOKE, NOT A SKINNY DISNEY FAST PASS, NOT A CUTE QUIRK, IT'S DEADLY.

And as an anorexic let me tell you, it's even worse. You will cry in front of the mirror, pinch your "fat" until it's red, shower in the dark, the scale will be your best friend and worse enemy, you will hate yourself so much more, you will MISS FOOD, you will miss being able to eat fries or pizza or spring rolls or crisps or potatoes, you may be thinking "I'll still let myself eat them from time to time" NO YOU WON'T, you will probably have a breakdown when you have them on your plate, you might purge, you might starve for the next day or more. Your personality will dissolve, you will be constantly angry and irritable.

Oh and also, if you have siblings or cousins I would like to inform you that people are more likely to have an ed if a family member had one and I KNOW you care about your family. (I am not accusing any one of purposefully influencing family members it's just for information)

If you have an already existing ed you can stay, if not then get the FUCK OFF MY PAGE YOU BEAUTIFUL PERFECT HUMAN BEING AND GO HAVE A SNACK. This illness is not beautiful and aesthetic, it's torture.

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ala speaks on: *sigh* losing weight 🏃🏿‍♀️🥗

Disclaimer: There is no shortcut. If you have more to lose you will have to change your lifestyle drastically. If you only need to lose a couple of pounds you will still need to make some changes. Unless you have a very fast metabolism (which, if you are actively trying to lose weight, you most likely don’t) you will not lose 10 kg in 2 weeks. I am not creating this post as a weight loss programme, it is a guide to help you in making decisions on how you want to lose weight.You need to do this for yourself.

Bad Habits that Make You Put on Weight

Mindless snacking: if you are going to eat snacks take a look at the serving sizes and stick to that. If you have a bag of popcorn actually weigh out the stated portion size into a bowl and only eat that. If you are dieting I would suggest not snacking or sticking to one snack a day.

Low levels of activity, this is bad habit most people picked up during lockdown. People count steps for a reason - it is healthy to walk 10,000 steps a day and if you are trying to lose weight walking 10,000 - 15,000 will help a lot.

Takeaways. It is okay to get a fast food takeaway once or twice a week. A problem arises when people order takeaways almost everyday. I don’t have to tell you why that is not healthy. If you seriously want to lose weight stick to one takeaway a week or none at all. If you do buy takeaway make sure to purchase from the children’s menu as the portion sizes are smaller.

Lack of sleep. I am the biggest culprit of this, but you must get at least 8 hours of sleep a day. The negative effects lack of sleep has on your body seep into every aspect of your life. Turn off your phone at 10 pm and get some quality sleep

Not drinking enough water. Anyone successful weight loss journey involves a person up-ing their water intake. You should be drinking a minimum (and I mean bare minimum) of 2 litres of water everyday but when I am losing weight I like to up my intake to 3 litres +. On the opposite end of the spectrum don’t drink too much water (I know, contradictory right?). Drinking too much water is very dangerous so I would say slowly raise your uptake and never drink over 4 litres a day.

Diet

When dieting, of course, calorie control is a major factor but it has to be a healthy restriction. I would say never go below 1,500 calories. Highly restrictive diets (<1,500) are unsustainable, unhealthy, dangerous and just an overall bad idea.

Here are some of my diet “hacks” that have helped me when losing weight:

Drink soups. Creamy, fibrous, vegetable-filled soups that are warm and full of nutrition (can you tell I love soup). Soups are great for diets because they are generally healthy, full of a lot of vitamins and nutrients and they are easier to digest. I find when I drink soups I have no bloating and I never get that overly-full feeling. Have it with a slice or two of French baguette for a light dinner.

Eat five mini-meals throughout the day. If you limit your calories to 1,500 you can eat five 300-calorie meals evenly spread throughout the day

If you stock up on vegetables and fruits you can eat more for less calories e.g. eat one 250-calorie muffin or a large banana, bowl of grapes and a box of raisins (230 calories)

Try and get your sources of nutrients from more low fat options. Instead of getting your calcium from full fat whole milk opt for skimmed milk, yogurts, sardines, beans and lentils

Cut down or carbs. Not completely but you should try not to eat more than 2 slices of bread a day. Try not to eat more than 2 bowls of rice a day (opt for brown rice it has more nutrition).

Cut out juices, fizzy drinks and other unnecessary sources of sugar

Meal-prep so you can make well thought-out decisions on what you want to eat

Here is an example of the way I ate during my diet:

6:00 - a large banana and oatmeal with soya milk

9:00 - a bowl of grapes and ½ a sardine sandwich (1 slice of brown bread)

12:00 - a bowl of white rice with stir-fry chicken breast and vegetables

15:00 - celery, cucumber and carrot sticks with hummus and grilled salmon

18:00 - carrot soup with coconut milk and a slice of French baguette

Exercise

The bane of my existence. Sorry, I’m not coming on here with gym tips and how to dead-lift your way to a six-pack. I don’t know how. All I can say is if you want to lose weight cardio helps a lot (in my experience).

Plain and simple, get in some cardio everyday. Here are just a few examples:

Swimming (30 minutes)

Walking (10,000+ steps)

Jogging (30 minutes)

Jumping rope (15 minutes)

Elliptical (30 minutes)

Exercise bike (30 minutes)

Rowing (20 minutes)

Sprinting intervals (30 minutes)

HIIT, high-intensity interval training

The way I lost most of my weight is by jogging and rowing, I used to go on 30 to 60 minute-long jogs 3 times a week and go to rowing club twice a week. Remember everyone’s weight loss journey and body are different. Find what works for you.

The key point is try and introduce cardio workouts for at least 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week and if you can increase the frequency and length of workouts.

General Tips

Like I said your journey is your journey. Don’t compare your weight loss to others and don’t try and rush the process. 

Think of it as a lifestyle change. A way to reset all the unhealthy habits you’ve built up since birth. Let that motivate you.

Buy a goal outfit you hope to fit in to and try it on periodically as you lose weight

This is going to be controversial. Weigh yourself once a month. Trust me. When you see that number drop after a month of hard work you will feel so much better. People who weigh themselves daily can end up basing their diet and emotions off of the number on the scale each day when weight loss is a combination of many days and weeks of concerted effort

Be easy on yourself; allow yourself to slip up and just start again. You need to give yourself love not hate and harsh words. Like you would tell a child who fell off of a bike that it is okay and to try again, you need to offer yourself that same grace and understanding

Join a weight loss support group or neighbourhood walking group - having support can be very encouraging and you can make some friends

Keep busy. When you’re busy you aren’t snacking The way I maintain my weight loss and not slip into bad habits is by keeping busy. Horse-riding, ballet, reading, bowling, gardening, working. Do anything, just don’t be idle and you will unconsciously increase your activity and not end up mindlessly eating

- ala 👸🏿

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