might be a bit odd or a stretch and written poorly by me (sorry if its rambly basically) but mithrun has such interesting but devastating symbolism and importance for a message in dunmeshi.
(TW SA/ABUSE MENTIONS)
the goat (demon) being an abusive relationship that to you who is in it only sees a nice perfect person doing anything for you, only for things to slowly get worse and worse… leading to SA (it’s not actual SA but the imagery has subtle implications of it) and other forms of physical and psychological abuse.
this leaving mithrun in an intense state of depression, ptsd and other issues like getting mana sickness really easily, which is also connected to the physical disabilities he got from said abuse. and due to these states he finds he can not desire anything anymore, he can only feel empty, not even a desire to get help and only feels a strong anger to the person and tries to prevent anyone else from going through the same.
but he’s not a lost cause.
“so.. even vegetable scraps have their uses, huh?”
he blames himself for his trauma, he sees himself as worthless and not one to be desired anymore because of what he went through. and realizing this, realizing that he actually has grown a desire to BE desired even just in a simple way to be needed (helping with falin) he finally can crack through that depression. the ptsd is still there, the physical disabilities are still there, but through surrounding himself with community of people with different views and trauma has helped him realize he is not broken and shouldn’t be blaming himself for something that was out of his control.
he wants to do new things, he wants to live now and it’s so beautiful to see.
plus, as kabru says here how the desires being eaten is not what it seems like is such an interesting fact. sure the demon ate his desires he had in that moment, making him believe he could never desire again but in fact he could get new desires (change/grow/heal) plus, traveling with kabru, he did show desires whether they be small or not.
in this moment he showed full horror about this memory. now if he was loss of desire, then he shouldn’t even desire to feel fear about this right? shouldn’t he only feel anger due to the revenge? which once again, shows his whole healing journey.
he’s such a great character with so much representation, and in turn is also a character that can show hope for someone like thistle who now is going through similar things and is practically hospitalized.
there is hope, you will heal, you are gonna be okay and your trauma is real but it does not shape you as a person, you are safe now.
dunmeshi is such a great depiction of that
You know who should have had more interaction with Mithrun? Chilchuck
Dadchuck would have activated so fast.
Mr. Know-Your-Worth Tims who hangs out with Mr. Take-Care-of-Yourself Senshi all the time would have had that self-esteem up in no time.
[gently slides this ask into your inbox] may i have 1 margarita. or perhaps 1 nemesis. th choice is yours. 🐌
a choice? when have I ever made one of those…okay now this is epic
honestly if the only person i was somewhat friends with for FIFTEEN YEARS was franziska von karma i would also think "miles edgeworth chooses death" was an acceptable way of announcing your temporary leave. mia was in phoenix's head saying "you can do this phoenix... turn your thinking around" while franziska was in edgeworth's head saying "vell zere will be no body!! vat else could zey think" or something
“OOH CHRISTOPHER PIERRE” (a Ghost and Pals fanfiction)
Hi guys this is literally the worst thing I’ve ever drawn
playing with the leftovers is your fate!! (♪)
wanted to do a more up 2 date comparison between living rat and dead rat………
once i get the motivation i want to actually draw up the full TD cast urrgghh
"never lonely prosecution king"
I wanna do this just bc I've watched AAI and AAI2
Kay : Agent Lang.
La : . . It's 2 am here, Kay.
K : Mr. Edgeworth is abducted again. Mind coming here–
La : Not fucking again.
self indulgent death note au where everything is the same execpt Lights a fucking loser. Everything is the same except hes literally just tomoko from watamote. overthinks everything. everyone thinks hes this cool suave guy but in his head hes just like “god DAMMIT ohhm y god no. noX I FORGOT MY FUCKING COFFEE ORDER THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING AND PATHETIC I NEED TO KILL MY SELF NOW???3” while the barista’s looking at him sighing dreamily. (plot twist: the barista is misa and her coworker is L. they both have very different opinions on light. misa just looks at him and thinks “what a guy.” and L’s only opinion on him is “wow what a loser he looks like hes in a constant state of sopping wet cat. (affectionate) ) Light is in crises half the time and people DO hate him but not for the reason he thinks. instead its because in his trying to always be perfect and get to places on time, he runs to places a lot and accidentally pushes people. so. much. atp theres a support group for people that Light Yagami has accidentally pushed in his hurry. anyways sorry for rambling i love light a lot but i think they should have internally made him a loser because come on. he has sad wet cat material and they wasted it on sad religious imagery of a teenage boy yearning to be something more. jk i love him :3 i just think he could have been more tragic in a radiohead/alex g way instead of a mitski way if u understand what that means.
mithrun's desire to live in a world where he has no enemies or people who'd harm him makes me so incredibly upset, but it's a very important piece of the puzzle. the guy clearly was plagued by paranoia and/or anxiety to such unhealthy degree that his biggest desire was… to not have it? i mean, pretty much every bit of extra material confirms that he had troubles with being vulnerable and could never truly trust others, of course, but if it truly was his biggest wish? (if the translation is correct, i mean). it's just. heartbreaking.
because obviously the demon was gonna use it, play the games with him: one day everything is fine and you feel secure and the next day something is starting to feel off. the paranoia would never stop. he'd build hidden passages everywhere in his home just to have safe places. he'd get rid of everyone in his life. turning his partner into a chimera who'd protect him (literally his own words), but still not trusting them enough to be in his bed. and after all these twisted games, after all these defenses were built, the demon couldn't care less of them, it just… intruded into his bedroom and ate right through his body, the last protection he had.