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Sorry, I’m back.

I’ve been offline for awhile due to school and my emotional state but I’m back now and a lot has happened sense last time i was online so I’ve got a lot on my mind to share. 

To start school is back in as you know and I think I’m already failing.  It’s only been three weeks but I’ve been gone for almost 1/3 of it; not even bringing up my missing homework.  I also am known to procrastinate a lot so my homework for tomorrow isn’t even done yet.  I am trying harder than last year so hopefully I can bring up my grades before the end of this nine weeks.

secondly as you guys know I have a boyfriend.  I told you guys earlier on I said no when he asked me to date him but I later changed my mind. I’ve been crushing on this guy for awhile now and now that I’m dating him I’m realizing how differently him and I do relationships.  I really like him though, any advice?

Third.  I’ve been a lot more down lately and I’m struggling to be happy. I feel like it is this brick that I carry around with me all the time.  I feel so alone in real life because I’m never anybody's first option.  I’m always the person people pick last, nothing has changed there sense kindergarten.  I wanna fit in and have friends but I don't know how. 

That’s just some of the stuff that’s really bugging me right now, maybe I’ll share more later.  I’m sorry for being gone so long, it was so strange not posting for such a long time.  I really didn’t like it.  Hopefully I’ll be back to my normal routine soon.  ~Anon

Sat, Dec 24th - 17:44

Here I am again,  hope everyone is having a good Christmas eve.  If you are doing good I recommend to just unfollow me here because these blog post are going to probably get sadder from here on out.

My family has been doing horrible, I’ve brought it up before.  Although now its worse.  My mom and dad are getting a divorce.  My mother said she is unhappy and my father is done with her complaining so this is it.  My mom says shes leaving him right after Christmas.  I’ve already told my dad I’m going with him so I’ll have to switch back to my old school most likely unless my dad moves into town which I doubt will happen.  My family has been extremely sad lately and even I have gotten pulled into it.  I have spent most my time in bed lately yelling at myself and planning things.

I’ve been wanting to cut again and I’m skipping meals.  I don’t know why, I try not to but i keep almost crying every time I go to get food so I just end up back in my bed. 

Last night was good.  I was sad because my mom was talking about my dad again so i went to my room and took 5 sleeping pills although i still couldn't sleep,  my mind was to much of a mess and I was like that until A.M came in and we spent the night on his top bunk and watched marble hornets until about 1 am when my mom came to yell at us.  I actually had fun though.  It was nice.

I was watching Dan and Phil today so I decided to go watch it in my moms room and that's when she told me about the divorce.  she said she won’t be here tomorrow because shes tired of my dad.  Shes leaving early and shes going to get a hotel.  She asked me to come with her but I said no,  hopefully I can stay with my brother considering hes the only sibling I have that has their life somewhat together.

My mom said its to the point shes done with her kids, we are to much for her to handle.  That hurts a lot, I try to be good.  I’ve changed so much to make her love me.  Yet I’m still not good enough for her.  If you aren’t good enough for your own mom who are you good enough for?

No one in my family understands love or they mess it up.  Not ONE person in my family can have a relationship without messing it up.  No one here is made for it so I’m just going to save myself the drama and heart break.  It's not even worth it when you know its going to fail.

That feeling you get when you break up with someone that you get in your chest.  The one that feels like its a black hole and it seems to be creating a giant empty mass in your chest has been eating at me for the past week and its getting worse.  I’m tired of leaving bed,  I’m tired of eating,  I tired of interacting with others, and I’m tired of being let down.  More that tired, I’m scared of all of these and honestly I’m okay with that now,

I’m so, so, sorry.

~Anon

Things will get better ❤

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(I didn't tell him. I should have or I should at least set the alarm, but I can't. I'm uncapable. I'm unstable. I'm thinking diffrently. I want to do something but I can't. I'm not ready for tomorrow. Everything drops from here. There's no coming back from here. I can't chose one of them and I can't let go of both without letting go of everything and I can't do that. I'm uncapable. I'm sorry. )

Tim's Red Robin run is just him becoming like Bruce right after Jason's death.

Like Tim is more aggressive, and he's taking fights that he knows he most likely won't win, and he's practically suicidal. Tim lost himself to the same grief Bruce did.

Out of all the Batkids, Tim is the most likely Bruce. However, because he saw Bruce, he was able to set himself up with an actual support system.

But straight up, Tim didn't expect to survive any of it. His one job was to find Bruce and maybe die when Ra's shoves him out the window or when he protected Tam or when the Widower stabbed him.

Tim doesn't know, but he wasn't trying to live. He wasn't trying to die either. If he did, just blame it on circumstance. If he didn't, he didn't.

Tim was passively suicidal. He wasn't trying to die, but he wasn't not trying either.