Latest Posts by sarisleahsghost - Page 7

Witchy woodland animals on a vintage Halloween card

just took a “what jellycat are you?” quiz and

DEAN WINCHESTER in one random episode per day ‣ 219/327 14.19 JACK IN THE BOX

one thing about me i’m the leaver. i will leave

Barbra recording the soundtrack for Yentl

tumblr forcing new accounts to have the "for you" algorithm tab first rather than "following," so you constantly have to switch it, is the worst decision

Elvis: That's the Way It Is [1970]

“I am sad and angry and I want everyone to be alive again. I want more landmarks, less landmines. I want to be grateful but I’m having a hard time with it.”

— Richard Siken, Editor’s Pages: Black Telephone

OCTOBER 2023 (Life is very long and you, after all, shall live it)

Mine / Will Barnet / Albert Camus / Jihyun Yun / agoera / The Japanese House / The Wind Rises (2013) / Jenny Holzer / Hadestown / Garth Nix / Edith Magdalene / Rainer Maria Rilke / William Stafford / Jill Barklem / Ada Limón / Czesław Miłosz / Anne Sexton / Eva Harr / Deborah Landau / The Cranberries

i open up instagram (where i primarily go to see cute dogs, until recent days) and it's samantha woll's murder and it's posts like this and it's people just begging for other people to listen and to please not do and say these things indiscriminately and my heart is sick, i cannot articulate or bear to describe 90% of what i've seen happening these past two weeks, it is terrifying

appreciative of this

👻🎃 hi

becky!!! 🥰🦇✨🎃 i find i am frustrated with tumblr because i thought i followed you when i first set this up the other night, and hitting the button must not have worked, i realized today you were missing! hi!

The Atelier Couture

My beautiful smiling man…do you know you’ve changed my life? Made it better? Comforted me in the lowest moments? I hope you know. You are so special and loved. ❤️

Smallest bookworm 🐶💜

Insta: @britishbookreader

The lady in white. gif by Amber Maitrejean

The Dove of Peace - Pablo Picasso

yay walkies :D

"jessichat" is such a cute tag <3

thank you!!! ☺️ i was fretting about what to use and how to start a somewhat new tagging system, and a bright idea just popped into my head—-

💜

boo

EEK! A SPOOK!!! and i shall call it ghostie and it shall be mine and it shall be my ghostie!!! 💚👻💚👻💚

(supreme irony in that i now feel alienated and a bit melancholy to lose my ghost girl url, so thank you for this my love, i can keep a part of her represented with a cute badge!)

hi, jess!!!

I hope this blog becomes and stays a lovely little space for you to express yourself and your interests!! honored to be here with you for that journey!

here's some love to shower you (and the blog) in:

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍♥️💘💝💖💗💓💞💕💌💟❣️❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍♥️💘💝💖💗💓💞💕💌💟❣️❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍♥️💘💝💖💗💓💞💕💌💟❣️❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍♥️💘💝💖💗💓💞💕💌💟❣️❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍♥️💘💝💖💗💓💞💕💌💟❣️❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥💜❤️

(p.s. i am giving you a million hugs right now, you deserve everything nice in the world.)

hi my lovely!!! thank you so much, you are always such a warm presence and i'm very happy to have you here with me.

*hugs tight* twirling in all your confetti hearts! this made me really happy 🥰💗💖💞💕💝💕💞💖💗

playin catch

i don't want to be making this post, i know none of you probably want to have to read this post, but i feel like i need to embed it into the establishing of this blog, and why, despite everything i built and created and shared there, the sense of community i thought i had, my previous one became unsafe.

if you are here, i am making the baseline assumption that you understand that the slaughter and torture of innocent people is wrong, will always be wrong, should never be celebrated, justified, or upheld as righteous, no matter who they are or where they come from or who's murdering them. i assume, even if you don't understand an entire complex situation or thousands of years of history (something you can do some cursory research on if you feel so inclined and would rather not spread harmful misinformation and outright bigotry about anyone), that you would not suggest that infant children deserve to be eradicated because of the country they were born, that women being brutalized don't deserve it because of actions committed by their government (a government many of them oppose). i assume that you understand that a terrorist organization that has written in their charter that their entire goal is the elimination of a specific people - regionally and worldwide - and causes active oppression, harm, and death to their own innocent people because they are more hellbent on killing and destruction than advocating for anyone (much less human rights), is not a bastion of freedom and dignity, and that conflating them is not only detrimental, but racist. i assume you understand that a right wing authoritarian government does not mean its people deserve to be massacred in their homes.

i assume you would not advocate for more violent death under the guise of progressive values. i assume you would not think that myself and half of my own family, unconnected to this by anything but shared ancient ethnicity, deserve to be exterminated. i assume you would find that inhumane and distressing to suggest.

i assume. but this is no longer something i know.

there have been people - mutuals, friends, i communicated with - who, over the past two weeks proved that none of this holds true for them. there were people instantly celebrating these deaths (that, in fact, was how the news was broken to me - by mutuals' jubilation over mass murder on my dash). there were people immediately justifying that, calling it necessary, saying that even the brutal assault of women "just has to happen" (or didn't happen at all, this from proclaimed "believe women" feminists). there were people spreading openly genocidal rhetoric about how a specific group of people "deserves to be erased" or "i hope they're wiped off the earth," using slurs, praising or mocking or denying the holocaust, and this website's terms of service wouldn't classify that as hate speech worthy of termination. there were people intentionally sharing debunked infographics or misinformed headlines which were later corrected (but never reading the corrections) or outright lies that come directly from n*zi propaganda (wish i was kidding) to call for more violence. vive la revolucion! was used to defend people chanting things like "gas the jews!" right in front of me, every day. there were mutuals reblogging the most vile, hateful people on this website without vetting what they were saying at all (i have a list of them, if you ever need it. did you know, for example, that her*tageposts is a n*zi sympathizer and north korean regime defender under the guise of being "communist"? yeah). the dehumanization and bloodlust and hatred on my dash was unlike anything i've ever experienced online, and what's WORSE, what made it such an agonizing betrayal, was it came from people i thought were allies, people i'd stand beside, who i thought understood and cared about human rights enough to not lust for murder and harm and destruction. i was, it turns out, wrong. all they needed was a reason.

on the surface, i know i am very disconnected from the horrors of this - i have no family in the region, by strict definition this is only half of my heritage. though as my dad would say, whether to g-d or the n*zis and their ilk, "half" doesn't matter. you are who you are, enfolded all the same. i have always loved and been proud of that. even when i was harassed and bullied and threatened and assaulted in my first two years of high-school about it. i always thought it was a beautiful thing to be a part of. i never felt terror around it until these past two weeks. i was consciously aware, but never felt it viscerally in my bones and like a weight on my chest, that people would want me dead. or if they did, they would be condemned as terrible, as fringe extremists, as far-right agitators. except that's not where this was coming from - this was coming from my own ideological side. this was coming from "friends." i don't think i can describe what that betrayal feels like or how profoundly wounding it is. people far more affected than i, far more connected and impacted, reached out to me in their hurt and anxiety, afraid of their mutuals, afraid of saying anything even remotely empathetic out loud, afraid of being attacked.

i have had tough things going on in my direct daily life for the past two weeks, but because of all this, i've barely slept. i can't remember the last day i got more than a few hours. i haven't cried this much since angel died. i have never felt such a pervasive sense of fear and despair. i never had panic attacks simply logging into my blog.

so again i say, if you're here, i assume you wouldn't participate in this. i assume you'd understand why it's dangerous and painful. i assume if i expressed grief or concern over the horrific loss of any human life, you wouldn't tell me i deserved it too. but this is not a certainty. this is not something i'll ever again know for sure. and if you're not, if you disagree with me that quantifying innocent lives' value *anywhere* with, "yes, but-," you don't have to stay, and i won't hold it against you. and if you're here, i love you, and i can only hope you're a safe person for me to interact with and love. but thats's what these past days and this rhetoric has done to me. and it's going to take me some time to not feel like the walls are closing in and to heal from that, though i know i won't forget it. so i hope you understand if i'm a little sad and a little skittish. i hope you don't mind that my most basic principle is that living beings of all kinds have sanctity, and no one deserves to die.

— mirrorball, taylor alison swift (2020)

Take time for yourself 🧡

Jensen Ackles as Dean Winchester in 1.1 "Pilot" Supernatural (2005-2020)

John William Waterhouse, Psyche Entering Cupid’s Garden - 1904 

Jenny Holzer, “Marquees,” 1993 (from the collection of Don Shewey)

do you see no ghosts in me at all?

Sweetness! Just wanted this christen this blog with a lil bit of love. You’re wonderful and kind and I’m sending you a big hug tonight xo 🩵

乁[ ° ᴥ ° ]ㄏ

hi honey!!! thank you so much for your kindness, that is the very best blessing to start this blog with. you are lovely and a delight, and i'm really happy to have you here with me. hugging you and sending love back 😘💗💗💗🧸

Elvis Presley - If I Can Dream [Alternate Vocal Take 4] Recorded June 23, 1968