I Genuinely Actually Need To Know What Happened PLEASE

fear

they will take me apart and pick out all the little pieces they want to see

different shards of me glean in the spotlight as materials for art

if everyone perceives me this way, who’s to say the figure in the painting isn’t what i am?

i am only what the world views, after all.

(and i am scared, god, i am scared. i am scared that all my world amounts to is plastered over a canvas.)

a base to paint over

it won’t be long until i change into something else entirely

soon, i will be dead

that has never felt more terrifying than now.

hey have you heard of this brand new aa trend that totally just came out

Also did a painted version of this drawing. Basically just as a way to learn how to paint digitally since I never did that before.

TS!Underswap Ruthless spoilers: (at least this time I put it under the cut)

(This moment was so sad.)

Y'know, I fully expected Sans to be unkillable in any route, so this really came as sort of a surprise??? When the cardboard Crossbones got slashed at the end of the Ruthless fight, I was like "heh, yeah, fully expected that" until you meet Papyrus on the bridge and realize that, actually, Sans is really really gone???

And this is a shot-out to Sans' Neutral Evacuation battle where Sans gets us accounted with, ahem, "just a little guy, a little man" (translation: very ugly cardboard crossbones) an he starts talking about what would happen if that little man fell down? Since he was talking past tense, I thought Sans was exclusively talking about Crossbones: after all, in the neutral evacuation run, Crossbones is gone and only Sans remains. But isn't he actually warning us? Sans doesn't pull out the "pitch-black eyes" schtick during the neutral evacuation battle except during that line of dialogue, which is pretty good indication that he's threatening us: ("spreading words of your deeds, and making sure nobody forgets about what you did.") (((also this rhymed I found it super cool)))

Plus ugly cardboard crossbones fell over in the Evacuation run the same way pretty cardboard crossbones falls over in Ruthless. The whole Neutral Evacuation run is more of a warning than anything else: Really hit me when I first played it, because in my mind Sans was risking his life and warning us about how we planned on making the fight end... I came to the evacuation Neutral fight with the intent to betray kill Sans, but actually the WHOLE THING was SO HEARTFELT I definetly couldn't have dealt the killing blow even if that had been an option. (In contrast, Ruthless's Sans fight is just as (if not more) frustrating than its undertale counterpart. Not only because we're "Getting tired of this" (only after the 300th try, in my case!!!) but also because Crossbones is absolutely right about our questionable motives and the fact there's a thousand things we could be doing right now that would be better than this. When it's time to choose fight or spare, we're just glad the fight is ending.)

To go back to the topic of the Evacuation Neutral, I always found it weird that there was an animation that showed the fallen cardboard becoming smaller and smaller. But if fallen cardboards is Sans' euphemism for death, then he's showing us what'll happen if we go past him without changing our ways. People around us are gonna fall over and decrease in number, until there's gonna be next to none of them left.

Also, Team Switch... ARE ALL RUTHLESS BOSSES GONNA BE AS HARD AS ASGORE AND SANS???? (I fully expect them to be harder and this S C A R E S me.) I died over 1000 times during that game already, and I'm not even exaggerating. Unfortunately. I sort of refused to touch the "decrease difficulty" button 'cause that wouldn't really be fair to the characters, but that doesn't change anything to the fact I suck at gaming. Just like crossbones so nicely pointed out during that famous race...

I rambled much longer than expected. Anyway, my idea for the drawing was that maybe the reason why Crossbones doesn't fight with his gadgets is because he forgot all of them (which, seeing the context, is understandable, even if using weird gadgets seems like a good way of stalling), and Papyrus, fully expecting to face the human with his aforementioned super-brother, stuffed all sorts of weird gadgets in his pockets in a hurry in case they ended up being of use.

They didn't.

and this is how i usually color.

Ruined sleep schedule was absolutely worth it.

“I DON’T KNOW.”

this is honestly just an excuse to draw baby papyrus!! i personally like the headcanon that papyrus and sans are very close in age, as i think (?) that they were supposed to be twins or left ambiguous (but had to be changed for japanese localization). howeverr, i made some creative liberties in this animation so. here, have parental sibling sans.

i’d like to imagine that if baby papyrus had a gaster blaster, it would have round jaws (like bby papy’s widely spread fanon design) and be crying (due to a desperate want to not kill). him not having arms like monster kid is such a silly idea to me and i honestly love the concept of child monsters slowly growing arms over time!! (also i don’t wanna draw his hands and arms 😓) this video is kinda up for interpretation to what it means. could it have a connection to gaster? does papyrus know something? does sans know something? are we in deltarune or undertale? is there no deeper meaning at all? i have no idea either!!! use your imagination!!!!!

a close sun and distant star

more drawings of my interpretation of baby papyrus

maybe some people would think that it’s sad that his only friend is himself, but hey, he makes some great company!!

also uhhh this was kinda to showcase papy’s height growth - basically, baby papyrus is up to the shoulder of adult sans, adult sans is up to the shoulder of adult papyrus, and papyrus is tall but not too tall.

is this some weird time travel thing? alternate universe hopping? ut papyrus meeting a theorized dt papyrus? use that super cool brain juice that i know you’ve got in you to think something up

Small world. 🌎👻

based on @sircle-water's theory that I have accepted as canon.

“i didn’t want to end up as just friends” KILL ME OH MY GOD

i didn’t want to end up as just friends (my tears that you don’t see are swallowed up by the sky)

can i ask what this was all about