More Feeling Like I Don't Belong Anywhere After My Treatments. Feeling Inadequate, Incompetent And So

I forget things too much.

i know they lacked compassion and empathy with you, but that does not mean you should do the same to yourself, okay?

Occasionally, it hits me that I can just disappear. I can be whoever I want to be. Whatever I've told people, whatever anyone knows of me can all be history. I can move on and become a totally different person if I wanted to. Anyone can. I think that's what's so scary.

Drawing using both my tablets today until I get better at using my tablet with a screen on it.

“I don’t hold on to anything anymore. Pain comes at me and I take it, chew it for a few minutes, and spit it back out. It’s just not my thing anymore.”

— Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

I wish I could keep myself from dissociating and thinking of everything that's happened and then obsessing. I didn't think I'd end up this way. It's hard to deal with and let go.

i don’t want to die. i want to live to see when it gets better.

“Because once you hear something, you can never return to the time before you heard it.”

— Jonathan Safran Foer // Everything Is Illuminated

“You never look good trying to make someone else look bad.”

— Unknown