“At Some Point You Just Have To Let Go Of What You Thought Should Happen And Live In What Is Happening.”

it sucks because for a minute i was happy, for a minute i was getting better, for a minute i had hope, but in a minute i lost it all again

Something for an old friend I'm not sure I'm still on good terms with.

Drawing using both my tablets today until I get better at using my tablet with a screen on it.

do u ever miss your own energy. like damn what happened to me

I talked about my past again but this time to my Free Company in FFXIV and I'm nervous because I'm afraid I killed the chat or made people not want to respond or talk to me at all.

Ain't nothing like getting back to yourself after going through some shit.

When you accuse loved ones of not caring about you, you may not realize it, but it’s hurtful.

I say this as someone who has been on both sides of this. I get the insecurity. I really do. But having now been on the other side of it, it is hurtful to be told that I don’t care about someone when I’ve been exerting energy to be there for them. I understand it’s from their own insecurity but it still hurts.

If you’re feeling insecure, it’s valid but this isn’t an okay way to deal with it. And it can actively damage your relationships and create self-fulfilling prophecies. Try to self-soothe. And if you can’t, it’s okay, but please seek out reassurance in a healthy way.