“There Is No Greater Agony Than Bearing An Untold Story Inside You.”

“It eventually gets better, without any sort of explanation; you just wake up one morning and you’re not as upset anymore.”

— Unknown

Schizophrenic people aren't evil!

We cannot help who we are. We experience a lot of horrifying things, and sometimes react in ways people don't understand. We don't always have control over our own actions. It isn't our fault.

Considering I spent the last 3 years getting wrecked by life, I don't feel much like drawing right now. Much less do I feel capable of greater forethought than only a few moments in advance before I forget stuff. I'm going to focus on my health and recovery 2024.

“I don’t hold on to anything anymore. Pain comes at me and I take it, chew it for a few minutes, and spit it back out. It’s just not my thing anymore.”

— Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

Even if the abuse didn’t “feel bad” at the time, it was still abuse. And you are still allowed to feel whatever you feel about it. 

Back from another mental health crisis that lasted a month.

it sucks because for a minute i was happy, for a minute i was getting better, for a minute i had hope, but in a minute i lost it all again

I'm definitely not the same person I used to be. I'm so different I can't explain it.