"this Too Shall Pass" Well Can It Fucking Get On With It

You are valid if you have trauma from dealing with online abuse.

“Don’t allow someone to make you feel that you’re not good enough.”

— Unknown

I'm alone but maybe one day I won't be. After suffering from schizophrenia for 5 years and multiple hospitalizations and ruining all my friendships I hope I can find something or somebody to talk to and relate to. I hope one day I can do something with my art. I am scared and have been canceled before. I have made so many mistakes in life and left places feeling less than. But I hope it will be okay one day and the pain will go away.

I really needed this right now...

“There are things we don’t want to happen but have to accept; things we don’t want to know but have to learn; and people we can’t live without but have to let go.”

— Jennifer Jareau

"you need to let it go" that would be really cool, unfortunately I'll take it with me to the grave

Even if the abuse didn’t “feel bad” at the time, it was still abuse. And you are still allowed to feel whatever you feel about it. 

To avoid disappointment, stop seeing the good in people and start seeing exactly what they’ve shown you.