Coming Into A Fandom Late

The missing perspective

Studying in Undergrad

I started University in September of 2014. I was in the faculty of sciences and was undeclared because I knew I was not smart enough to get a high paying job doing research. Thankfully whether I was declared or undeclared it didn’t matter. First year sciences is the same for everyone.

This was how I studied for the first 2 years of uni.

1.) Study in a Comfortable Location

Most people find libraries to be a good place to study, however I do urge you to try unconventional places. For example inside a car or laundromats. The place that is chosen does not have to be aesthetically pleasing as long it works to keep you comfortable and focused. You might be pleasantly surprised where you find you concentrate the best.

The place I am most comfortable studying is in the living room while my family was watching TV. I got yelled at all the time to study elsewhere, but it was the living room that I found the most comfortable and where I concentrated the best.

2.) Set Deadlines

Most people know how to set deadlines or so they think. It’s important to know when everything is due and keep that in mind at all times to have a certain level of baseline tension (If that makes any sense). Most people don’t like to get stressed on a daily base, but it’s better to have a low level of daily stress than a high level of stress for a few days. 

I am a very anxious person, so once I know something is due I will do/start it that day even if the due date is 2 months away. I understand that this was very extreme and requires a lot of discipline, but this will prevent or lower the chances of part 3 from happening.

3.) Have Breakdowns (When due)

It’s normal to be overwhelmed by all the deadlines that are coming up, the bad grades, the uncertainty and everything that comes with being a student. It’s okay to be stressed to the point to having a breakdown, as long as you can recover. 

How I prepared for the impending feeling of doom was to have a good cry session. Set a time limit and only breakdown during specific circumstances. This is a good way to release all the negative emotions that has built up. 

4.) Study Hard

I’m not a naturally smart person, so there is no such thing as “studying smart.” I got through the first 2 years of undergrad by studying hard. This requires a lot of work and sacrifices. It’s not fun nor is it pretty. 

Being a full time student requires dedication, motivation and perseverance. Studying and getting good grades is one aspect of getting an education, however it is not the main. It’s important to study hard for the end goal of how you want your life to go.

“I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat”

- Sir Winston Churchill

WHAT DO YOU KNOW OF FEAR?

I SUPER LOVE TIM AND CASSANDRA BECAUSE:

they went from stranger (hell yeah Timothy avoid Cass because he felt intimidated by Cass’ assassin background) to friends 

Cass is always ready to rescue help Timothy

she took care of Tim and worried about him, not only because the big brood Bat told her so but she did it on her own accord too

while Tim took care of her too, they took care of each other and I love it so much

CASSANDRA IS TIM’S FAMILY. I REPEAT CASSANDRA IS ONE OF TIM’S PRECIOUS FAMILY

TIM WON’T LET GO, HE WON’T LET CASS GO. SHE’S FAMILY.

AND TIM IS A DEAR PERSON FOR CASSANDRA TOO. SHE EVEN ASKED TIM TO JOIN HER BECAUSE IT WAS HER DREAM. CASS WON’T LET TIM UNDER THE BAT BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT THE BAT WILL USE HIM LIKE HOW CAIN USED HER. CASSANDRA WILL MISS TIM

AND TIM WILL MISS HER TOO.

EVEN WHEN CASS BEING A VILLAIN (brainwashed by Deathstroke), TIM WON’T LET ANYONE HURT HER

AND AFTER SHE CAME BACK, TIM IS THE ONE WHO STILL TRUSTS HER AND DEFENDS HER, WHEN NIGHTWING CLEARLY SHOWS HIS DISTRUST.

EVEN THE BIG (A**HOLE) BROODING BAT DOUBTS HER WHEN SHE WENT MISSING, TIM STILL TRUSTS AND DEFENDS HER. TIM BELIEVE HER.

HAVE I SAID THAT TIM ALWAYS BELIEVE HER AND DEFEND HER? YES, I HAVE AND HE DOES. 

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, THE PEAK OF IT: CASS LEFT GOTHAM BUT TIM STILL REMINDS HER THAT SHE WILL ALWAYS BE HIS FAMILY, THAT HE ALWAYS GOT CASS’ BACK. HE GIVES HER HER NEW PERSONA (which the main reason I love Black Bat so much, because there is a beautiful history behind it).

THIS IS THE END OF MY ESSAY, PLEASE LOVE THEM.

$50,000 immediately dropped into my bank account wouldn't improve EVERYTHING but boy it sure would be a grand, sexy little start to a good, happy life path, don't you think

Akashi: I don’t have a favorite friend. How could you even think that? All of my friends are of totally equal importance and worth.

Midorima: It’s Kuroko, isn’t it?

Akashi: I can’t help it, he has those “love me tender” eyes and I’m weak.

Nie Mingjue will regret this in the morning.

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I saw your meta on Shen Jiu and Yue Qingyuan's relationship - it was fantastic, by the way - and was wondering if you'd read the Shen Jiu and Yue Qingyuan extras and what you thought about them.

Hi!

I actually didn’t know there were extras on them until you mentioned them…I wish I had known about them before writing my initial response on their relationship. Thank you for your compliment about my meta btw!

Overall, after reading those extras, there’s only a few major tweaks I would make to my thoughts on Shen Jiu and Yue Qingyuan’s relationship. Delving more deeply into Shen Jiu’s perspective was essential to gain a keener sense of just how cynical and self-loathing he is…and just how attached he actually was to Yue Qingyuan until the very end. 

For starters, when it comes to Shen Jiu himself, what’s emphasized throughout his origin story, is that he arguably hates himself most of all. Be it as “Shen Jiu” or as “Shen Qingqiu”, his hatred of both his names is symbolic of his deep-seated self-loathing. He hates his past as Shen Jiu because he was a poor, abused slave. And he hates his present as Shen Qingqiu because he wound up inheriting both a name that’s the same as the family who caused him so much pain AND a disposition that’s similar to Qiu Jianluo’s, the man he hated most. 

Shen Jiu’s experiences made him see everything through jade-coloured glasses. The few occasions he tried to do something positive, he always wound up suffering. He tried to help Yue Qingyuan save Shi Wu, but only got betrayed and captured. He put all his hopes into being rescued by Qi-Ge to the point of enduring abuse for years, but that came too late and with no explanation. And here’s where we get to the part from the extra that changes a bit what was presented in the main story. Initially, from what was shown to Shen Yuan, Shen Jiu’s attachment to Yue Qingyuan seemed severed after he burned down the Qiu household and left with Wu Yanzi. But we see that’s not true here. Shen Jiu obviously still cared for Yue Qingyuan and tried to think of excuses for him not being able to save him until the latter’s inability to communicate honestly when they met again made him think that he was simply abandoned. 

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Post-canon sect gatherings are about to be wild. Listen. Jin guangyao is dead, lan xichen is in seclusion, jin ling is jin ling, and we haven’t met any other competent sect leader ever. Post-canon sect gatherings are p much all on jiang cheng and huaisang to manage. And sure huaisang could help but. He’s a little shit. If it ain’t a qinghe nie problem, he’s not here for it!!! The second sect leader yao opens his mouth, huaisang is halfway out the door! He has no reputation to save and hasn’t slept in over 10 years!!! He doesn’t care! And jiang cheng! Is Jiang Cheng!

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jiang cheng: and where do you think you’re going?!

nie huaisang, leaving the meeting: stress is bad for the baby

jiang cheng: what baby?

nie huaisang: me. I’m baby

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jiang cheng: are you taking shots?!

nie huaisang: yeah want some?

jiang cheng: ………..yes give it here

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nie huaisang: this is the best way to go about this

other leaders: we don’t believe you

nie huaisang, really doesn’t care what they do anymore this meeting has been going on for 5 hours: that sounds like a you problem

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nie huaisang seeing off those sect leaders who refused to listen to him: bye! I trust in your ability to handle this your way!!!

nie huaisang: there’s a 30% chance they’re all gonna die

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jiang cheng: slices a table in half

jiang cheng, throwing some money at the broken table: I’ll pay for that

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other sect leaders: is this… a liability waiver?

nie huaisang: yeah I had some written up after sect leader jiang broke that guy’s legs last meeting? anyways everyone sign one before going in please

other sect leader: maybe…. sect leader jiang could stop injuring people at meetings instead?

nie huaisang: hahaha No. don’t forget to date your signature.

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jiang cheng: either we start agreeing or I’m gonna get the whip

nie huaisang: diplomacy at its finest

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nie huaisang: everyone, welcome to the banquet! the unclean realms welcomes all its allies!

jiang cheng: wei wuxian is sucking face with lan wangji right behind you

nie huaisang: this ain’t about them

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nie huaisang: sorry I’m late. I ran into a problem on the way

jiang cheng: what problem?

nie huaisang: not wanting to come

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nie huaisang: we need to do something about your temper. how about you just do what I do?

jiang cheng: which is?

nie huaisang: every time sect leader yao talks I imagine shoving my fist down his throat and watching him choke on it slowly, clutching at his neck, as his face turns blue and he dies.

nie huaisang: really puts me in a much better mood :)

jiang cheng: …. noted

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jiang cheng vividly imagining killing sect leader yao: oh hey

nie huaisang: what did I tell you?