Erm Uh Notes Thing Because I Just Saw A Notes Thing And I Need Some Motivation Rn

I'm going to state an opinion that is probably very unpopular, and I will probably get hate for it, but that's okay.

I think that it's okay for a teacher, regardless of said teacher's gender, to say they love and care about a student(regardless of student's gender), even if it's unprofessional. They are kids, after all. As long as it's not romantic, inappropriate, or ill-mannered, then it's okay. Some kids need affection from teachers that they might not get at home. So, even if it's unprofessional, it's not necessarily a bad thing.

Once, a paraprofessional(who wanted to be a teacher), had said, 'I have a sharp thing in my hand-' and, to me, it felt like a threat. The feelings didn't process/sink in till later, when I got home. The next day, 5th hour, I mentioned to my English teacher(who is in the same room as the paraprofessional). The para himself had left to go put their snacks in the new high school. While he was gone, I went over to my English teacher after I finished all my Study Skills assignments(I had a few late papers, plus that day's work), I told her about what he said and told her it hurt. I couldn't help but cry. She offered me a hug, and I reluctantly took it(despite my dislike of hugs). She told me he didn't mean it, told me that he had a rough day the day before, because a kid had been saying rude things to them(I think), and it made him a bad mood. She told me he 'loved' me, et cetera. I can't remember all that she said, but she said that he thinks I'm talented, regardless if that's true or not. She said he would never want to hurt me. When he came back, she asked him to come over by her. Me, I was just fidgeting with my Rubik's Cube, trying to do my usual thing of 'pretending I'm fine, nothing is wrong here' thing. My English teacher tried to get me to tell him how I felt, but I repeated, 'I can't,' several times, and then started crying again. I hated myself for that. I hate crying for stupid reasons, especially in front of people. Anyways. He said, 'I feel bad just because you're upset,' not exactly the same way he said it probably, i don't remember, but it gets the point across. My English teacher tried to get me to say it, but I couldn't, she she told him for me. At some point, he muttered something about the kid. I think it was about the things he said. Can't blame him. After it was explained to me, I understood. I understood where he was coming from. But what he said still hurt. I thought he wanted to hurt me because of the serious tone he had. I think... it hurt that bad only because I like him. Technically, he's a paraprofessional, but he pretty much teaches a class, so I always viewed him as a teacher. If I do it like that, you could say he's my favorite 'teacher'. The English teacher is a lot easier to talk to, more understanding, less dismissive, and caring. The para, on the other hand... I mean, regardless of it all, I still think he's cool. It's hard being drawn to someone who seems like he cares less about you with how dismissive he can be. There was this one kid(also the same kid who said those rude things to the para and English teacher) that started calling me a weirdo and a bunch of other things. I don't know him... not really. It was only a tad bit, very little, and I think it's odd how I cared less about the things he said but cared more when the para said something hurtful. Also my English teacher said, in front of the para, that I was one of his favorites and he x

'corrected' her, saying I was his favorite, not just one of them. I don't know if he actually meant that, or he just said that to make me stop being upset.

One time in class he said they aren't supposed to have favorites so he won't tell people that someone is his favorite and the first thing I said was like, 'you probably wouldn't mean it anyway,' and he denied what I said. If he won't tell other students who his favorites are, why would he tell me I'm his favorite? To get me to shut up and stop being so emotional over something stupid?

I have regrets, too. When I was home the day it happened, after I had processed my feelings, I cried awhile(hate it so much), and then I wrote a hateful letter to him. I wouldn't actually give it to him, it's like, 'write letters to the people who hurt you,' type thing. But after the next day, the day he apologized, I regretted it so bad. I feel guilty for it.

Also once time in class he said he moved schools 4 times before coming to our school when he was a kid and I asked why he moved so much but then I said, 'I don't care,' and he paused weirdly. After that, I felt guilty. Still do. I considered asking him why he moved so many times when he was in school before going to our school tomorrow in class. I don't want to feel guilty anymore, and I'm genuinely curious. Is that a bad idea?

are you autistic and gay?

lesbian and autistic perhaps?

an autistic pan or bisexual?

asexual and autistic?

trans or non binary and autistic?

any autistic member of the LGBTQ+ community?

well guess what...

you're fucken great and I love you

Decided to draw in @peppermint-moss 's style. This is my first time trying to draw without a full black outline, so it might look funky 😅

Children of Dionysus have sharp teeth. Either Alastor or Charlie type teeth. Dez and her twin brother have these and black wings. Their mother, Roxanne, is a child of Thanatos. Since he's a minor god, monsters are less attracted to her, so she never knew, but the black wings were in her genes. Roxanne did not have them, though.

They also have horns, pointy ears, and grapevines that randomly grown in their hair and around their body when they feel an extreme emotion they can't handle very well. Yeah, they're good actors, but it's chaos when they get extremely happy or mad. Or express any emotion that deeply affects them. And maybe strawberry vines. They pull a Charlie Morningstar when they're mad; horns grow, eyes light up in anger, wings grow in size. They hide most of their traits if possible. They can hide their wings, but it takes up too much energy to do that. The only times they need to is when they're leaving camp, the likely chance they'll need their powers. Hiding their wings doesn't take up too much energy, but if they use their powers while hiding wings, it drains twice as fast. They don't hide em' at camp. They don't leave camp much, so they don't worry about it too bad. Until they have to leave. They choose not to hide them, and cover em' up with a jacket or something and hope no mortal notices. They are definitely obsessed with Maximum Ride and hawks.

Their cabin marvel person is Wolverine. They claim Deadpool, but Apollo cabin and the rest of the cabins agreed that Deadpool is off limits but, much like their father, they're not a stickler for rules and off-limits things. Like certain nymphs... and Deadpool.

Dez thing. There will be more parts since Tumblr has limits to the amount of photos each post.

reblog to bonk the person you reblogged it from with a hollow cardboard tube

Yeah!

Heloooo

Hi!

reblog if you think aros and aces (or anyone on the aroace spectrum) are queer

trying to prove something to my mother ^^

About Me

Basic Info

Name: Violet[not IRL name]

Birthday: February 24th

Pronouns: They/Them

Sexuality: unsure yet

Interests

Reading & Writing

Dungeons and Dragons

Greek Mythology

Theatre

Baking:]

Video Games[I am NOT good at them nor played a lot since my folk don't want to pay for expensive stuff. But I did join eSports at my school! I do Overwatch. I suck lol].

Ongoing book and fanfic reads:

Harry Potter

Percy Jackson[The Sun and The Star, Trials of Apollo, The Chalice of the Gods, and Wrath of the Triple Goddess]

FNAF

Warrior Cats

Dungeon Academy

Hold on to Happiness[fanfic, made by shatteredangel04 on ao3]

Fates-Made Soldiers are GodBorne Children[fanfic, made by Batdiangelo on ao3]

Lore Olympus

Dungeon Club

Wings of Fire

The 10th Kingdom

The Adventure Zone - The Crystal Kingdom

Fandoms:

Bungo Stray Dogs

Riordanverse

Epic the Musical

Hamilton

PJO Musical['specially Another Terrible Day]

The Greatest Showman

Wings of Fire

Creepypasta

Harry Potter

Spy x Family

The Promised Neverland

The Case Study of Vanitas

Fruits Basket

Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel

FNAF

PJO

Anything Deadpool/Marvel

Warrior Cats

Poppy Playtime

Agatha All Along[low-key favorite character? Billy. OK, maybe high-key. He looks so cool!!]

reblog to pet his bald head