I Cannot Believe What I Am About To Say, But Radical Feminism Is Healing Me.

I cannot believe what I am about to say, but radical feminism is healing me.

I’ve been suffering from an eating disorder (an0rex1a) nearly all my life, my first worries about weight started when I was 9 years old and slightly chubby (and people made sure to point out that was bad).

More than a year ago, I reached my weight goal of 45kg at 175cm (99 lbs at 5’9"), and I thought I had made it. Finally, I became undeniably skinny, skinnier than most, the smallest I could be without dying, and therefore worthy.

Spending my days faintly, mostly sleeping, unable to work, study, or read, I thought that made me better. That my endless suffering meant I was worthy of true love, admiration, and all the better things in life.

Looking back, I am sad for my past self. For the first time in my life, I am making an effort to gain weight, to gain my life, my capacity, my abilities. I gained 7kg (15 pounds) in a year, but most of it came after reading (and taking it in—which took months) radical feminism theory, and now, being in this community.

Now, eating breakfast worth of calories of my full day back then, I feel freer. I am genuinely stopping equating my worth to my suffering, not just pretending I do in front of therapists and psychiatrists—but from within.

I cannot stress it enough. I had never been this free in my life, and throughout the endless years of treatment, I was sure I was never going to heal; some therapists even declined to work with me, for I was deemed a desperate case.

Therapy has flaws, as it focuses on the individual, on our own actions, while radical feminism points out the wider problem—systemic oppression.

The problem was never me.

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4 months ago

You guys… writing smut is such an embarrassing experience.

The difference between reading and having to type “her dripping core pulsed at the feel of his nervous touch” is astounding. God… like???? ahhhh what do you mean I have to write descriptive lewd words?? I feel so silly.

Maybe this is just embarrassing because my beta reader are my friends. No matter how much they praise me, it’s still so embarrassing that they know I wrote that. They know I’m weird, yet they still embrace me. Thanks you guys (if ur seeing this) ur real ones.

You Guys… Writing Smut Is Such An Embarrassing Experience.
You Guys… Writing Smut Is Such An Embarrassing Experience.
You Guys… Writing Smut Is Such An Embarrassing Experience.
3 months ago

so im not the only one who really wants to do this and just see how random people live

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3 months ago

and women who support christianity, remember that when you are being spoken to by a man, BE QUIET. and submit to what he says, even if you barely know him. you are not to speak.

women who support islam! I have a question for you: have you ever asked what does your father, brother or other male relatives think about islam? go ask them and respect their answers and adopt these opinions as yours. I think the least you could do is to respect your male relatives like islam teaches us.


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3 months ago

I'm making flyers to give out and posters to put up around my community. I'm trying to create a community of woymn to educate, and so that other womyn in my area will have other womyns support. After that, I'd like to expand outside my area, and grow.

Here's a draft of the flyer design.

Any advice on the design or how to organise this community is greatly appreciated!

I'm Making Flyers To Give Out And Posters To Put Up Around My Community. I'm Trying To Create A Community
I'm Making Flyers To Give Out And Posters To Put Up Around My Community. I'm Trying To Create A Community
4 months ago

I'll stop saying faggot when gay men stop saying "bitch" and "cunt" because they think their love of men somehow gives them proximity to women

4 months ago

reminders for today:

if you or someone you know might need it in the next few years, purchase plan b. the shelf life of plan b is 4 years, and we might not be able to access it as easily as we can now in the days ahead.

if you are larger/plus size: go online and purchase ella instead of plan b. plan b is less effective if you aren’t under 160 pounds.

if you can, purchase books that project 2025 is looking to ban.

mass deportations are starting. if you see ice vehicles or agents, yell ice raid and la migra as loud as you can.

if someone asks who you voted for, keep your mouth shut. they’re fishing for traitors.

if anyone, anyone at all asks about your neighbors or their legal status in the us, you know nothing. don’t be the reason that their family is separated.

if anyone asks about your religion or lack thereof, keep it vague. this administration will look for any excuse to persecute you.

your friends are trans or queer? for the next four years they’re not. don’t expose anyone’s status as a trans or queer person to anyone else, even if you think you can trust them.

did someone you know get an abortion? no, they didn’t. they were never pregnant.

in short, don’t be a snitch, and keep to yourself these next four years. we’ll make it through this even if it seems hopeless at times.

we can survive this. we’ve survived before, and we’ll survive again.

3 months ago

Yo, correct me if I am wrong please, but didn't Hitler rise to power because he promised to fix the German economy and people really liked that so they looked past everything else he was doing??? Like exactly what's happening in America right now???

So many people said they voted for Trump, put a truly evil person in power, because he said he'd fix the economy, and a little voice in my head is going, "Isn't that what happened with fucking Hitler??"

But I've seen no one point that out so maybe I'm miss remembering???????

4 months ago

that boyfriend wants to be violent towards her

thinking about how my friend was telling me it was so hot her boyfriend choked her, but he didn't even ask beforehand☹. and you think this is just normal?

3 months ago

i believe you MIGHT just be 5ish years late !! lmk if im wrong tho :)

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1 month ago

right like im 99% sure anyone with 'sensory issues' when it comes to hair is just fucking lying.

do women that comment “but it’s itchy🥺i don’t like the feeling of prickly hair😔” under anti-shaving posts and videos realise that the itchiness and prickliness is a result of shaving? if you don’t shave the hair is soft, you don’t feel it at all. have they forgotten what it feels like to be unshaven? have they ever experienced it?

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