Signal boosting the Fuck out of this because HELP THIS POOR PERSON!!
i know that i haven’t made a personal post in a while, but i’m desperate and out of options. i am very scared.
there’s a person in my home that, two days ago, kept threatening me with violence. i’m 5′2 and he’s … much bigger and taller. he almost threw glass at me, at one point he pulled out a weapon on me because i took my mom’s room (that she offered) and he threatened to pay someone to beat me up
i can’t do this anymore. before i had the option of a gofundme or a youcaring or sharing my cash.me link i had a whole suicide note drawn up, but something in me told me to do this so i’m going for it and i really hope it works out because otherwise, i have no other options and i CANNOT do it for much longer.
i’ve been locked in my room for days. i only leave to drink water or go to the bathroom. i don’t even eat because he occupies the living room and i’d have to pass him to get to the kitchen, which is what pissed him off enough to send him on a rant threatening to end my life. nobody in my family likes the cops (for obvious reasons) and i need my laptop as that’s really one of the few material posessions i have and need for school.
my last meal was yesterday because my sister bought me food, but idk when i can be able to eat again and i’m scared because i haven’t been downstairs eating regularly since may and i’ve lost probably 20+ pounds
i need $900. I have $95. So, a little over 10% of the way there, but still not enough. i’d hope to get it by the end of this month, but as soon as possible. $900 would go towards the deposit and rent of an apartment i’d share with 2 friends, plus any other utility or moving costs. my scholarship and my job that starts August 6th will pay off the rest in august but i have to leave asap because i can’t do this much longer.
i hate tying my identity to this blog.
my cash.me link is cash.me/$yss1rhc
i have a youcaring link (takes paypal) and a gofundme link (takes 5% of all donations) that, if you ask for, i can pm to you to donate (because it does contain personal information, please only ask for it if you know you’re going to donate and you can’t pay with a card (i understand.)
otherwise, i’m content with the cash.me
if you can’t donate, please, i’m begging you to reblog because i don’t know what to do anymore. usually i draw and offer commissions but my mental health is completely shot and i can’t… do anything.
if you donate, i do believe in positive energy and i’ll find a way to pay it back + pay it forward because it warms me how much people have helped me so far.
i wouldn’t do this if i didn’t think it was absolutely necessary. my heart is breaking at the fact that i would ever have to do this.
i would rather sleep on a floor with boxes in an empty room than sleep in the same house as a person who’d rather risk throwing his life and son away because he hates me that much. thank you so much.
Honestly I should talk about the ace experience more. I don’t see enough. Like–obviously it’s dehumanizing to be repeatedly compared to robots or aliens but uh…sometimes it feels like that??
My husband will get all horny while I’m, I don’t know, changing out of sweaty gardening clothes. And I’ll be like, “But we have to make lunch?? I stink? Now is not a good time?? Logic?” And clearly it’s not about logic to him. He is experiencing the entire scenario very differently. And I’m here like,
Or the times where you realize that like, having an actual physiological reaction to attractive people is not some enculturated metaphor, and people are actually doing that all around you all the time, and you’re like, Ah, clearly my studies of human culture have been incomplete. I have missed a critical psychosocial component. Many things now appear in a different light. *takes notes on holopad*
Trying to prove a point to global warming
this looks delicious
gin
soda
sweet berry syrup
blackberries
rosemary
what @beaniebaneeine said
shout out to ace and aro kids who are constantly bombarded with the opinion that sex and romantic love are directly connected to living a happy life.
This is a thing that needs to show up on people’s dashboards so often that they start to see it in their dreams. I have a lot of “mental” illnesses (mental is in quotes because at first I was told it wasn’t real) and what @jordansjourneyto130 said is so true, I wasn’t diagnosed until after I tried to kill myself and, thankfully and luckily, failed. I was in middle school. No one would notice when I was hiding it and I didn’t even know that there was something REAL wrong inside my head. Don’t tell me that I just need to “Think Positive!” or to “Cheer Up, It’s All In Your Head And You Can Control It!” No I can’t just cheer up or control it, I AM SICK!
Don’t push this aside, it is real and needs to exist in the forefront of peoples minds. Thank you #brainbent for rebloging this, I don’t think I would have seen it otherwise.
Rex kept it on comms because he thinks it’s hilarious and just wanted to listen.
I am practicing the comic route as I continue to wish I knew how to write. Comics are a good medium but I get too detailed too quick. Thus! I promised myself this would be a quick comic (that the file tells me I worked on for 33h 6min) to intro a little AU that is essentially ‘Things would have been better if there had been more music playing’. And it turned out both great and agonizing because there are so many issues still but no. No more touching. I shall find my style in the lazy and it shall be good.
How do people comic?
This is also practice for drawing the armour and clones; and again, issues, but I shall continue to practice! You have now been warned of the oncoming content onslaught.
Enjoy!
I just have to share this, it is so true.
Of fucking course
What sick bastard doesn’t
wheres all the support for the emotional abuse victims
Hi, this was me!
can we just take a moment to recognise mentally ill people who are high functioning?
the ones that constantly question the validity of their illness(es) because they managed to get out of bed this morning/are keeping up with their classes/can still socially interact? because they can do the things that most neurotypicals can do, even if they find it very difficult?
the ones that are questioned by their loved ones on the existence of their disorders? that face constant ableist remarks of “but you can’t be depressed/ill/manic/psychotic/etc!” “you don’t look mentally ill!” “it’s just hormones!” “oh, have you tried yoga?” “you’re just on a journey of finding yourself.” “you’re too happy/too smart to be mentally ill!”
the ones who aren’t taken seriously by their therapists/doctors/psychiatrists because of how self aware they are and how well they can articulate their feelings and thoughts?
the ones that, on their bad days, are told that “others have it worse” just because they don’t outwardly show their symptoms all of the time? the ones that have their pain and their struggles constantly diminished until they don’t know what is real and what isn’t because of this?
the ones that don’t receive the treatments or correct diagnosis in a short matter of time (or at all) because “they’re not bad enough?”
the ones that end up suicidal or manic or psychotic in hospital with no warning because their illnesses aren’t taken seriously until its too late?
as a high functioning neurodivergent young person suffering from a myriad of different mental health issues, i see you and i hear you and i support you.
Reblog to trample Pong Krell with an AT-RT.