Oceanmaster:

Stuff like this is pretty livejournal but whateverrr. This is an art tumblr and if I'm not gonna post art I might as well complain about it WOO

I thought about it a lot more and realized that I AM shy. Not in general, I don't really have any social anxiety IRL, though sometimes people think I am shy (or a huge snob) because I'm super quiet or whatever. I am TOTALLY freakin shy about my art tho omg. I remember telling my mom that if I ever had my own gallery show I wouldn't be able to actually be there, ohmygod, a room full of people looking at my art with me THERE? NOPE I'm one of those assholes who won't let people look in my sketchbook. Its not like its a diary or anything but nope. nope.

I wasn't like this at ALL when I was small but when you're a hypersensitive hyperemotional weird kid you either learn to grow a thick skin (which everyone in the damn world insists sensitive people do, guess what, it's not always possible, this is how I am MADE) or you just make a container for youself deep inside and you don't share it with anybody. I am made almost entirely out of secrets. A two dimensional holographic projection, only one side visible. I feel like there is pressure to share my creative self on one hand and then on the other hand I'm supposed to just let the downsides of getting attention just slide off my back? When that stuff hits me way harder than it has any right to? I've been doing this long enough to have figured out what I can and can't handle. And YEAH it's honestly not much! I don't WANT to be this way but I've spent over 10 years trying to change and it didn't work so why should I feel ashamed anymore. Maybe someday things will change and I'll be in a safer place for all this. I'd like that because I believe I have a LOT to offer, everyone wants to make their mark in the world I guess. I have some ideas and plans for my life but I dunno if that'll be what makes the difference. MAYBE SOMEDAY I'll just be this unstoppable fountain of awesome creative works.

I'll keep striving to make that happen. It just hasn't yet. SHRUG.

wing posing test for the JUSTICE JETPACK gwaaaaad I'm excited materials: foamcore board for the wings. sintra, pvc pipe, shelf brackets, nuts, bolts, angst, and a waist cincher. backplate is designed to bear weight entirely on the hips because sore shoulders are the WORST

I knew I had to make Gerudo Chief Riju's hair the moment I saw it in #botw because Looooong. ;p Its an epic cosplay Athena (45") with an unbranded ebay lacefront spliced to it (I added a widows peak and sideburns again because Elf) some braiding hair (80" ebay kanekalon) and a pack of 35" wefts! There's a BUNCH of tubular crinoline (aliexpress) as filler so its really lightweight and I'm VERY PROUD! There's some progress pictures in highlights <3 The braid is a little sloppy BUT Im in a hurry :p (managing all the hair took soooo long and then styling took less than 2 days pffft) Later I will consider adding SOME more hair (its already too much guysssss this wig! is my height!) for smoother braid with more coverage cos there are a lot of gaps where I didnt stagger the wefts well and I crimped the hell out of it for volume of course. And I just want to make it more fancy in general. And THEN I want to make her headdress and probably a Thunderspear because its my favorite weapon in the game okurr This year is my first DragonCon I'm so excitedddd! Will I wear it EVERY DAY probably I worked very hard on it ok

Um. Some fuzzy fox people. Yup.

grabendolch said: Hey there, what’s that second tool panel just next to your taskbar? it looks like it’s from some art program but not a part of SAI

It's called Paint Dock, it's for slate PCs (samsung series 7 & asus eee slate) to make drawing programs actually useable. I have spent... a while... since getting my eee slate trying to basically work as something where I can be a couch potato digital artist :p WHICH REMINDS ME I did intend to properly review the computer. At least a little :p

Downside is that the harddrive is seriously 64GB. I bought a 120GB to replace it with but I'm not quite ready to bust open a $1k machine yet!! I did get a 128GB sd card for it though (yes they totally make those now!) which is enough to cram all my art-related stuff on so I'm good. The other downside is that the drivers are REALLY fussy and it took ages for me to get pressure sensitivity working properly and across different programs. I got it working in SAI and Photoshop, I haven't got it to work with Inkscape though I don't want to mess with it anymore. A few times I lost pressure sensitivity at the drop of a hat and the last time I spent FOUR HOURS uninstalling and reinstalling drivers to get it working again UGH. I was able to carefully write down all the steps I took this time so hopefully that will do the trick. The pressure curve utility makes it good enough for painting, it only has 250 levels of sensitivity compared to 2000+ on the intuous tablets but so far it's been good enough for me. My hand gets crampy a little more often due to having to press a bit harder (less sensitive means its harder to get really really light strokes) but I think with tweaking the settings a bit further I can get that a little better too!

The other other downside is that the MSRP is $1000 but for the most part it's only available for $1400, I got super lucky and it was $1k at the microsoft store but it's not anymore last I checked (plus getting it thru them it came with win7 ultimate and no bloatware!). It's definitely worth it at that price... at the higher price ehhhh, I'D still have bought it but that is what being a couch potato digital artist is worth to me XD becase it's basically a laptop w/o a keyboard it is a TRUE digital sketchbook that is fast enough to run photoshop! So yeah. it's awesome.

LED STOCKINGS made with materials from Adafruit and firewalkers circuit and code :D I intended to record better video, make gifs, whatever, but that takes away time from making more blinky stuff! So that's been unacceptable ;p I HAVE been documenting all my cosplay and crafty blinkybeepy things so that I have the OPTION to make writeups buuuut I have a functionally infinite project list while I slowly work on the skills to make the light and sound and animatronic costumes of my dreams 83

I swear I didn't know this existed until I decided to googlehunt tablet pcs with wacom digitizers, and it's as glorious as it sounds. It's not without drawbacks (windows7 has very decent tablet pc tools, but I'm having a hell of a time trying to get pressure sensitivity AND multitouch working at the same time) but I'm just so happy to have a computer again asshdjkashdjahsd I CAN COLOR AGAIN

Heya! How are you holding up? Still a huge fan! May I ask what you're planning on going into for school? Thanks

ty for checking up on me, its so kind xD Ive been doing better emotionally (thx to the wonders of pharmaceuticals), which is really all I needed to be better overall. Its still too hard for me to balance work/school and I had to drop some classes but Im still doing well in the ones Im still in I guess!!I'm studying electrical engineering because I love technology and GADGETS. Im really glad that its not boring for me lol, manipulating electricity is cool ;p Of course I just want to apply what I learn twd fancier art projectseventually... tbh I cant art at all, Im fried. When I have free time I dont have any juice left so I have been playing overwatch. A lot. Im so addicted to overwatchhelp

tomorrowland was all of the things i love!!!!! retrofuturism! saving the world thru SCIENCE! athena's wendy dress (seriously LOOK AT THIS DRESS)! Antique interdimensional rocketships! Hugh Laurie dressed like a crotchety mayor of the emerald city of Oz! murderous yet quirky robot people! directed by brad bird!!! this review sums up how I feel pretty well. I really needed this movie xD

Worldbuilding = the best topic in the history of mankind. I'm kind of obsessed with making races and cultures and such. My question for you is do you think there's a limit on how many different races/cultures you can have in one world without making it busy? Whenever I make a new race I tend to shove it into the same world with all the rest. Those two small-ish continents and random islands seem rather... packed. Do you think it's a better idea to have different small worlds with a handful of races each or a giant world with lots of land but also lots of different cultures and races running around all over the place?

I totally think its a matter of personal taste, but MY personal taste is to avoid having too many because then you'll never have time to show them all off! In which case the only solution would be to revisit your world in lots and lots of unrelated stories... which is a totally awesome thing to do too though.

So I have... seven races in my fantasy? And sometimes that feels like too many because my story is alll about elves. And then I feel almost as if I tossed the other races in there instead of bothering to add more culture and history to the world, or just an excuse to make crowds in the background have more interesting shapes and faces. It might be helpful to figure out what evolutionary niche your races fill, and if there are a bunch in direct competition with each other, to consider combining them into a new race that has all your favorite aspects, or moving some to a new headworld? That's just my thoughts though.

As for my other stories they just feature regular humans with the occassional demon, alien, or robot, so I don't think that really counts.