I Have Never Been Forgiven for not Understanding
You Shall Know our Velocity!, Dave Eggers// @heartmush // "Outbreaks", Kitchen McKeown// "Cures for Shame", Rookiemag// The Allure of Shame, John Dalton// "Outbound", Hieu Minh Nguyen// Visual Overdose//
on love and devotion
unknown // richard siken, litany in which some things are crossed out // hera lindsay bird, I KNEW I LOVED YOU WHEN YOU SHOWED ME YOUR MINECRAFT WORLD // warsan shire // clementine von radics, the next time we talk on facebook // amal el-mohtar and max gladstone, this is how you lose the time war // k.c. cramm, christmas eve forever
{David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest/ Friedrich Nietzsche, from a letter to Malwida von Meysenbug wr. c. 1876/ Lemony Snicket, The Beatrice Letters/ IDK You Yet, Song by Alexander 23/ Robert Desnos/ Albert Camus, from a letter to María Casares written c. June 1944/ Emily Brontë, from The Collected Novels; "Wuthering Heights,"/ Caroline George, Dearest Josephine/ Srinivas Mishra/ Unknown/ Maria Casarès to Albert Camus, Correspondance, Christmas, 1948/ Unknown}
Let something happen. Something terrible, something bloody.
Sylvia Plath, Johnny Panic and The Bible of Dreams; from ‘Stone Boy with Dolphin’
the way you say soil sounds like soul // the way you say soil you make a poem out of every speck of dirt
[Galatée, Charles François Jalabert // soil, Irène P. Mathieu // Take Me to Church, Hozier // Quote, Jonathan Swift // The Triassic Cuddle, alissaurus_rex // Poem, Tanner Olson // Painting (detail), Josef Neugebauer // Work Song, Hozier // Wolfstar Microfic, tumblr user @mkaugust // Dreaming of Pomegranates, Felice Casorati]
on being seen and known and understood
Rachel Mennies, from "April 18, 2017", The Naomi Letters//Rick Riordan, Mark of Athena//picture: Mihaly Zichy "romantic encounter", quote: Micah Nemerever "These Violent Delights", edit @promqueendyke // Micah Nemerever, "These Violent Delights"//Marie Howe, "The Affliction"//Anne Carson, "Red Doc>"//NA//Taylor Swift, "Daylight"//Elizabeth Gilbert, "Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage"//Little Women (2019)
on self love
@girlroach // you're on your own, kid, taylor swift// mathilda, harry styles// ?// graceland too, phoebe bridgers// james baldwin// @guooey // liability, lorde// it's time to go, taylor swift// ?// @veinings// take me with you, andrea gibson// ?// @ babyspicegf // ?// i.b vyache
“the ending is always the same”
war of the foxes - richard silken / waterloo - ABBA / euripides’ medea - the little theatre / anne carson / the three fates - luca cambiaso / the oresteia - aeschylus / road to hell II - hadestown / when i met you - mira lightner / andersen’s fairy tale anthology
("I exist in two places: here and where you are")
Suzanne Buffam, "Vanishing Interior"
Sufjan Stevens, "The Only Thing"
Rene Ricard, "And Then I Tried"
“Accept this love I ask for. Accept the part of me that is you.”
Alejandra Pizarnik, from ‘On Your Anniversary’
“I am in your words, I know, as you are in all of mine.”
Edmond Jabés, A Foreigner Carrying in the Crook of His Arm A Tiny Book
“What I am giving you is nothing that belongs to me […] It is just yourself, you running through me throwing off sparks, your eyes blazing with fear, blazing with hope, I am giving you your own fire. All I do is breathe very gently on your night embers and handfuls of stars fly out.”
Hélène Cixous, The Book of Promethea
“losing through you what seemed myself, i find selves unimaginably mine”
e.e. cummings, ‘silently if,out of not knowable’
“He is more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same. If all else perished and he remained, I should still continue to be, and if all else remained, and we were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger. He’s always, always in my mind; not as a pleasure to myself, but as my own being.”
Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights
“When you seem to be listening to my words, they seem to be your words, with me listening.”
Antonio Porchia, Voices
“No, Hans, my love, I am not as generous as you think nor do I give myself to you freely–whatever you take from me you have already given me […] When I think of you, when I give myself to you, I feel I am going to meet myself, and this makes me stronger and more serene.. what a selfish kind of generosity!”
Andres Neuman, Traveller of the Century
“I meant that you should discover me so, by my faint indirections, And I, when I meet you, mean to discover you by the like in you
Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass
“I met myself in you.”
Adonis, ‘Transormations of the Lover’
While a house may hunger, it cannot starve. And so in fever and anger and loneliness, it may simply lie in wait. Doors open. Shades drawn. Hallways empty. Hungry.
Anatomy (2016), Kitty Horrorshow // @briscoepark // The House is Alive and The House is Hungry, The Paper Chase // P.T. // Anatomy (2016), Kitty Horrorshow // This House Has People In It (2016) dir. Alan Resnick // The House That Dripped Blood, The Mountain Goats // “a journey into ai generated rooms” by float // Anatomy (2016), Kitty Horrorshow
— Love, Paruyr Sevak
[text ID: You have become so delicate / And vulnerable, / As if you're living without a skin. / - That's Love.
text ID: Քնքշացել ես այնքա՜ն / Ու խոցելի՛ դարձել,, / Կարծես թե ապրում ես առանց մաշկի։ / -Սերն է։]
the tragic hero attains something like divine completeness, except that for human beings completeness is death.
(NOT BASED OFF ANY CURRENT EXPERIENCES)
Jeanette Winterson / Ashe Vernon / Clementine von Radics, "In a Dream You Saw a Way to Survive" / P.D, "there is no absolution for the fallen, only dying" / Sky Ferreia, "Sad Dreams" / ? / Lidia Yuknavitch, "The Chronology of Water: a Memoir" / ?
the name of the person you love is more than language
Patti Smith, Yusef Komunyakaa, Nicki Lantz, Claude McKay, Pablo Neruda, Marina Tsvetaeva, Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Tennessee Williams, James Joyce
buy me a coffee
the maids, jean genet (trans. bernard frechtman) // elektra, sophokles (trans. anne carson).
Cathy Linh Che, from Go Forget your father//Friedrich Nietzsche// Richey Edwards// // Moss Angel, Girldirt Angelfog// Rainer Maria Rilke, Fragment of an Elegy,// Leila Miccolis, till death do us part.
on women haunting the narrative, wearing a dead girl's dress, ill-fated love stories, a wavering border between life and death. ft. victoria winters & josette dupres, elizabeth swann & esmeralda de sevilla, mrs. de winter & rebecca de winter.
dark shadows 233 / dark shadows 5 / curse of the black pearl (2003) / rebecca (1940) / dark shadows 233 / "road to hell (reprise)" hadestown / dark shadows 157 / curse of the black pearl (2003) / the oresteia, t: anne carson / curse of the black pearl, deleted scenes / dark shadows 285 / dark shadows 214 / curse of the black pearl (2003) / at world's end (2007) / curse of the black pearl (2003) / dark shadows 245 / curse of the black pearl (2003) / the price of freedom, a.c. crispin / dark shadows 494 / rebecca (1940) / dark shadows 70 / rebecca (1940) / dark shadows 280 / curse of the black pearl (2003) / dark shadows 281 / dark shadows 425 / rebecca (1940) / curse of the black pearl (2003) / curse of the black pearl (2003) / rebecca (1940) / dark shadows 15
to the person in the bell jar...
Sylvia Plath, from ‘The Unabridged Journals Of Sylvia Plath’ / Vilhelm Hammershøi / Nicole Krauss, from ‘The History of Love’ / Ramon Casas / Joy Harjo, from ‘Speaking Tree’ / D S (saatchiart) / Fyodor Dostoevsky, from ‘The Idiot’ / Aleardo Terzi / Sylvia Plath, from ‘The Bell Jar’
buy me a coffee
“I am the hurting kind. I keep searching for proof. […] Love ends. But what if it doesn’t?”
— Ada Limon, from “The Hurting Kind,” The Hurting Kind: Poems (Milkweed Editions, 2022)
when arctic monkeys sang “I wanna be your vacuum cleaner, breathing in your dust” and when the lumineers sang “damn your wife, I’d be your mistress just to have you around” and when hozier sang “if I was born as a blackthorn tree, I’d wanna be felled by you, held by you” and when son lux sang “if you need to, you can break me too, please just take me with you” and when of monsters and men sang “I’ll be the blood if you’ll be the bones, I’m giving you all” and
But an unquenchable love for you has never left me...
{Quotes: Alejandra Pizarnik, Approximations/Simone de Beauvoir, from Diary of a Philosophy Student: Volume 2, 1928-9; Sunday, October 7/chen chen, nature poem in ‘when i grow up i want to be a list of further possibilities’/sue zhao/ Sylvia path / Maggie Nelson, Bluets/Richard siken/Ingeborg Bachmann, In the Storm of Roses from ‘The Poem for the Reader’, tr. Mark Anderson ,paintings: pinterest}
Katherine Larson, from Radial Symmetry; “Lake of little birds”
[Text ID: “We touch each other briefly / and depart. As if memory / wasn’t a wound to bear.”]
THE LIVING HAUNTED HOUSE
The Haunting of Hill House, Shirley Jackson (1959) / House by the Railroad, Edward Hopper (1925) / The Fall of the House of Usher, Edgar Allan Poe (1839) / Haunted House, Paris Painting, Thomas Flint (2015) / Wuthering Heights, John Frederic Greenwood (c. 1924) / Flowers in the Attic, V.C. Andrews (1979) / Flowers in the Attic dir. Jeffrey Bloom (1987) / Flowers in the Attic: The Origin dir. Declan O'Dwyer & Robin Sheppard (2022) / Guillermo del Toro on Crimson Peak in W Magazine / Crimson Peak dir. Guillermo del Toro (2015) / Guillermo del Toro on Crimson Peak in The Sydney Morning Herald