Pedro Salinas, tr. by Ruth Katz Crispin, from Memory in My Hands: The Love Poetry of Pedro Salinas; “The voice I owe to you”
[Text ID: “and the longing / to love, to love you, more.”]
and I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best my little dove...
absolute solitude: selected poems, dulce maria loynaz (tr. james o'connor) // the glass essay, anne carson // boyish, japanese breakfast // @uglyfruit // yves olade // hunger, harry styles // a not admitting of the wound, emily dickinson // no surprises, radiohead // fourth of july, sufjan stevens
LOVE AS VIOLENCE VS LOVE AS SOFTNESS
Ada Limon, The Good Fight // Mary Oliver, West Wind // Danez Smith, Bare // Sappho, Fragment 58.25-26 // Mitski, I Don’t Smoke // Ashe Vernon // Hozier, Cherry Wine // Shauna Barbosa, GPS // Richard Siken, Little Beast // Chen Chen, Summer [The sunflowers fall…] // Warsan Shire // Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous
night terrors by hannah green // how to cure a ghost by fariha róisín //writer in the dark - lorde // my mother & i - lucy dacus // take care: mothers, daughters, and inheriting self-hatred by ella wilson // lady bird (2017) // mother wound healing: why it’s crucial for women by bethany webster //don’t know // on earth we’re briefly gorgeous by ocean vuong // mother by maia baia
when margaret atwood said “i'm sorry there is so much pain in this story” and richard siken said “there is no other version of this story” and mary oliver said “you don’t want to hear the story of my life, and anyway, i don’t want to tell it”
2023
invitation, mary oliver // the unabridged journals, sylvia plath // happy xmas, john lennon // north country, mary oliver // i am running into a new year, lucille clifton // salt, nayyirah waheed // diaries of franz kafka // bird by bird, anne lamott // sunrise, louise glück
Mahmoud Darwish, from Unfortunately, It Was Paradise: Selected Poems; “The Flute Cried,”
the beast you made of me
The Truth and Grunewald, Juan Ramón Jiménez tr. W.S. Merwin | St. Michael, Luca Giordano | The Bear - Episode 1, Christopher Storer | Fallen Angel, Alexandre Cabanel | Fury, Yevgeny Yevtushenko | Dante et Virgile, William Bouguereau | The Terre Haute Planetarium Rejected My Proposal, Paige Lewis | Study of a Man, Thomas Couture
How much can you change and get away with it, before you turn into someone else, before it's some kind of murder?
The Complete Poems; “The Sickness Unto Death”, Anne Sexton//Jean Baudrillard//Absolute Solitude: Selected Poems, Dulce María Loynaz//Crime and Punishment, Fyodor Dostoevsky//Alex Venezia//La Femme de trente ans, Honoré de Balzac//War of the foxes, Richard Siken
“Good night, ladies; good night, sweet ladies; good night, good night. Follow her close; give her good watch, I pray you.”
“the tradition of the drowning woman in the background of ‘anna karenina’" - sydney schultze // the awakening - kate chopin // hamlet act IV scene VII - shakespeare // “ophelia” - friedrich wilhelm theodor heyser // “utonulá” - jakub schikaneder // the awakening - kate chopin // “la jeune martyre” - paul de la roche // “found drowned” - george frederic watts // david copperfield - charles dickens // the bridge of sighs - thomas hood // “past and present no.3” - augustus leopold egg
what i could never confess without some bravado by emily palermo // a song for a lover of long time ago - bon lver // lies about sea creatures by ada limón //cassandra: a novel and four essays by christa wolf // the next time we talk on facebook by clementine von radics // i bet on losing dogs - mitski // don’t know
“Love has something to do with the notion of being seen — the opposite of invisibility. The invisible, the unwitnessed, the unacknowledged, the isolated, the lonely — these are the unloved. Loving attention illuminates the unseen, escorting them from the frontiers of lovelessness into the observed world. To truly see someone — anyone — is an act that acknowledges and forgives our common and imperfect humanity. Love enacts a kind of vigilant perception — whether it is to a partner, a child, a co-worker, a neighbour, a fellow citizen, or any other person one may encounter in this life. Love says softly — I see you. I recognise you. You are human, as am I.”
— Nick Cave, The Red Hand Files Issue #103
i want to fill my mouth with your name
Pablo Neruda, Katrien De Blauwer, Marina Tsvetaeva, Anne Magill, Nick Lantz, Anne Magill, Nick Lantz, Anne Magill, Nick Lantz, Anne Magill, Nick Lantz, Ashley Walters, Erika Meitner, Katrien De Blauwer, Ocean Vuong, Anne Magill, Nick Lantz
buy me a coffee
Der Astralmensch (The Astral Man), Sascha Schneider The Language of the Birds, Richard Siken
The Haunting of Bly Manor (2020), Mike Flanagan//Crimson Peak, Guillermo del Toro//Ocean Vuong//Fear Street part 3: 1666 (2021), Leigh Janiak//Could you ever live without, David Jones//Invisible Monsters: Vision, Horror, and Contemporary Culture, Jeffrey Weinstock//Midnight Mass (2021), Mike Flanagan//Black Telephone, Richard Siken//The Haunting of Hill House (2018), Mike Flanagan//The Haunting of Bly Manor (2020), Mike Flanagan
Andalusia - Lisa Marie Basile / Sharp Objects - Gillian Flynn / Runs in the Family - Amanda Palmer / unknown / Hate To Feel - Alice In Chains / The Lion In Winter - James Goldman / Letter To My Rage: An Evolution - Lidia Yuknavitch / Rupi Kaur / The Unbearable Lightness of Being - Milan Kundera / Amanda Palmer / Easier Than Lying - Halsey / Playing God - Paramore / Nancy Lee / On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous - Ocean Vuong / Enough - Suzanne Buffam / Antigone (Sophocles / trans. Anne Carson) / Untitled, Jasmin R. / When Doves Cry - Prince / I AM ANGRY BECAUSE OF MY FATHER - Halsey / Courtney Love prays to Oregon - Clementine Von Radics / unknown
All of us like stairs, one step after another, going up, going down, but always going the same way.
Letter to My Rage: An Evolution - Lidia Yuknavitch / Lady Snowblood / Autumn Sonata (x) / The Unbearable Lightness of Being - Milan Kundera / On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous - Ocean Vuong / Milk and Honey - Rupi Kaur / The Joy Luck Club / Enough - Suzanne Buffam / x / The Chronology of Water - Lidia Yuknavitch / Lake Mungo / Family Tree (Intro) - Ethel Cain
hares on the mountain, traditional folk song // art by jen mazza
sparrow for a heart, abigal lappell // art by barbara bokoto-tomala
newcastle, traditional folk song // artist unknown
if i was a painter, lisa o'neill // art by claudia barbu
ashamed, deer tick // art by nicolas samori
i wish my baby was born, traditional folk song // artist unknown
hard wired, shakey graves // art by miles johnston
on tragedy, fate, and inevitability.
oresteia, robert icke // theatre of the oppressed, augusto boal // song of achilles, madeline miller // the book thief, markus zusak // antigone, jean anouilh // revisiting mockingjay ahead of the hunger games prequel, entertainment weekly // romeo and juliet, shakespeare // h of h playbook, anne carson // war of the foxes, richard siken // the road to hell (reprise), hadestown // planet of love, richard siken // they both die at the end, adam silvera
i think my body is falling in pieces i think my blood is passing me by
Micah Nemerever These Violent Delights / I.B. Vyache Excerpt 07.01.21 / Silas Denver Melvin excerpt from Grit: A Poetry Collection / Christa Wolf excerpt from Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays / Ethel Cain Family Tree (Intro) / unknown / Fiona Apple Left Alone / Richard Siken The Worm King's Lullaby / Gwen Benaway Holy Wild
i. Micah Nemerever, These Violent Nights
[ "I don't think you've ever felt anything that didn't hurt you. / We've found each other, out of everyone else in the world. Does that hurt, too?" ]
ii. I.B. Vyache, Excerpt 07.01.21
[ "It's time to forgive my hands for being hands. I'm going to hate myself a little less tomorrow. I'm going to hate myself a little less tomorrow." ]
iii. unknown
[ "have you shot a gun? is your blood authentic? is your blood authentic? is your blood authentic? can you prove it to me?" ]
iv. Christa Wolf, Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays
[ "You looked at me / (did you still see me?)" ]
v. Ethel Cain, Family Tree (Intro)
[ "The fate's already fucked me sideways / Swinging by my neck from the family tree / He'll laugh and say, 'You know I raised you better than this' / Then leave me hanging so they all can laugh at me" ]
vi. unknown
[ "I fight. I resist. It doesn't even matter what I resist; there is simply something in me that tends to resist things as they are. I have been fighting since I was very small." ]
vii. Fiona Apple, Left Alone
[ "[Chorus] / How can I ask anyone to love me / When all I do is beg to be left alone?" ]
viii. Richard Siken, The Worm King's Lullaby
[ "Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story." ]
ix. Gwen Benaway, Holy Wild
[ "I am tired of explaining the fire, / it burns because it must." ]
richard siken, portrait of fryderyk in shifting light | unknown | john, darnielle, wolf in white van | russian doll, 01x07 | haruki murakami | richard siken, planet of love | @nephrosoupp x2 | @ibvyache | sylvia plath, the unabridged letters of sylvia plath | dan deacon, when i was done dying | ocean vuong, on earth we’re briefly gorgeous