i'm like if jesse pinkman wrote emo poetry and reblogged random shit // any prns ★
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Sustainable fashion for the Solar Punk
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and i have such an obsession with making ppl happy with me. i just wanna be as helpful as i possibly can
does anyone have a torrent link for the memories of all humans past present and future i can't seem to find it myself
I love people who struggle with violent thoughts and urges
I love people with no empathy, who can't 'make up' for it in compassion
I love people who's dissociation makes them flakey and distant
I love people who's mood swings get in the way of making friends
I love people with anger issues, and psychosis, and hypersexuality, and everyone who's ever been seen as 'scary' for their diagnosis or symptoms
Lineup for my p5!boatem au that I'm trying to develop, they're here to steal hearts and costumers
my prev drawings on this au are here!
yknow what would be a fucked up phone feature
Green in Modernism
View from the studio window of the artist in Paris (1900) by Paula Modersohn Becker // George Moore in the Artist's Garden (1879) by Edouard Manet // Haystack in the evening light (1902) by Paula Modersohn Becker // Dance at the Moulin de la Galette (1890) by Ramon Casas // Promenade (1880) by Edouard Manet // Birch Trunk in front of Landscape (1903) by Paula Modersohn Becker
Can you make a post romanticising biology, chemistry and physics please?
staying up late finishing all your assignments and deadlines
living on caffeine and never more than 6 hours of sleep
desk cluttered with mugs, once filled with coffee and tea
an accurate hand, drawing and calculating all your thoughts and theories onto paper
running into class barely on time, hair in a state, outfit just-about put together
bag overflowing with papers and calculations
textbooks scattered with tabs and annotations
mail box filled, every notification receives your signature eye roll
your work is too important
living for your achievements, trying to find a way to the undiscovered lands
bookshelves lined with books detailing all your interests
reading Frankenstein every year
listening to chaotic classical music while you work, finding comfort in the changing notes
constantly thinking things through
ranting to your walls about your discoveries or theories
finding art in the exact, and finding the exact in art
Thank you for the ask! <3
the botany students
dozens of houseplants growing in your room
a pocket guide to local flora tucked in your backpack
studying the complex anatomy of plants
performing experiments to see how plants grow under different conditions
long walks, identifying the species you see along the way
detailed botanical diagrams
the humid air of a greenhouse
practicing sketches, working to accurately capture each leaf and petal
pressing samples beneath heavy textbooks
understanding the complex nature of ecosystems
wildflowers tucked into your hair
a crumbling stone wall, overgrown with moss and ivy
learning to distinguish edible and poisonous plants
watching a graft take hold
fingertips stained with chlorophyll and dirt
a cup of herbal tea, slowly growing cold as you study for an exam
the smell of earth just after a rainstorm
wandering through a forest, counting the types of trees you pass
knowing what plants to use for home remedies
tending to your garden
cool, foggy mornings, walking through dew covered grass
collecting samples for further study, handling the delicate specimens with care
a sense of awe at the huge variety in plant species
the rare elegance of flowers that bloom only once a decade
the bioengineering students
being fascinated by the complexities of life
seeing biology as a puzzle waiting to be untangled
diagrams of dna sketched in your notes
petri dishes and polished glassware
finding medical and environmental applications for your knowledge
studying CRISPR and other gene editing techniques
doodling in the margins of your lab notebook while you wait for a karyotype to finish
the satisfaction of a successful experiment
related: engineering, biology
Love yourself.
— written by yours truly
stupid tumblr quality
Starseed Ring (☆)
re:curse is a surreal RPGmaker horror game inspired by the likes of OFF, Ib, LISA: The Painful RPG and Yume Nikki.
Play as distraction-prone researcher Linda Langley and explore as your laboratory distorts and degrades around you. Send emails. Grapple with your clown infestation. Face consequences. Maybe even survive!
This is a game about...
doors
screens
bitrot
self-fulfilling loops
computer viruses (not real ones)
trans-temporal communication software
gay subtext
surprises
secrets
re:curse was solo developed as a passion project, mostly between 2020-2021. I've returned to it and added the final touches necessary to make a finished game. Bundled with the game is a trove of bonus content for your perusal, including uncompressed source files, concept art, unreleased original music, 3d files, and more. I hope you enjoy!
"the latent garden" - j (x)
Hush, my brave knight, and go to sleep. The grief is real, the sadness is real, and it's alright to feel the creeping edge of despair. Go to sleep, my brave knight. Let your heavy heart rest. We can mourn for the world and then move on to saving it. Kindness still remains, and there are soft fields yet full of yellow flowers that are still unmarred. Sleep soft, brave knight. Let your wounds ache as the flesh starts to knit itself back together. Sadness is real, but so is hope.
does it bring you more or less peace? there's the answer
The world is less scary and chaotic if you lie down on the floor
Noticing different kinds of light (stars, candles, sunshine or city lights) can bring back the feeling of wonder and hope
If you can’t shower, washing your hands and face will help you feel better and cleaner
If you can’t clean anything else, changing and/or washing your bedsheets can do wonders
Fresh air and being outside in general can help with depersonalisation
Spending time around animals can help you recognise what’s important and calm anxious thought cycles
Techniques for emotional regulation in children can really help adults too
Putting random asortment of food on a plate without creating an actual dish still counts as a meal
Drink something warm
Delete that app
Treat yourself as if you were a kid. Buy yourself a toy, play around, learn about cool new things
Fast paced life isn’t morally better and it’s not good for everyone
There is no good reason to keep yourself hungry
Singing to your full lung capacity can be a great way to let out built up emotion
Tension in the face can cause headaches. Try to massage your face regularly
Nothing is as important as your health
You are a whole person on your own, you don’t need someone else to be there to deserve love and attention. Your life can be full as long as you are present
You should cry things out whenever you feel like it
Slow walks are still movement and they do count
It’s never as bad as you imagine it
Try changing your toothpaste flavor if you hate brushing your teeth
Anything can be a stim toy - one of my favourites is a heavy dragon necklace that has a complicated surfice. It’s fun to touch and hold and it’s not even “actual” stim toy
Procrastinating and feeling bad about it is true waste of time. Learn to truly rest. It takes the same amount of time but it is useful
Sometimes you have to force yourself to do the things that make you feel better
Don’t trust the thoughts you have after not sleeping for a while
Friendships don’t have to be forever to mean something
ならぶんです。 太鼓の達人 (bandai)
@nosebleedclub // nov. #9
MEN WITH BIG NOSES
YOU AGREE. REBLOG.
Guy who says uwaah! & guy who says tsk peak dynamic
TW!!!!!
OCD! AUTISM! DEPRESSION! ANXIETY! TRAUMA! SA!!!!! all in very specific feeling terms which are important to differentiate between triggers like numbers and calories this is a very specifically ocd rant poem!!!!!!!! morality ocd is big and scary!
today i drape over the school bathroom toilet
i am scared that my poetry no longer feels
like i am simply expelling the sickest
most
still most poems
fear is in the way
i'll get there
(how to breathe| how to think |
happy code |code to feel better
||bad behavior|
| good behavior. |
how to be sick cat |..|
how to be | ... |
| healthy cat? |
how to speak in the tone
of someone who is fine |
|.... .... ..||||..|.|~|
how to become fine.
(why me why me why me)
what is real?
I am wrong
i am wrong i am broken
nothing nothing nothing at all
emptiness is better than death
in me.
i cannot find it anymore
in that porcelain
cup of shadows
i can only find
her
not her, or her, or her or her
(though,
yes,
her
her
her
her
her
him.
him.
him. but not.)
...
its me .
i
am
finding
..
.... ..
!!
⭐️CAT!!!🐈⬛🐈⬛✨✨🥧
WHY
am i
still
so fucking
wrong
my secretion isn't on the sides of the bowl because pieces are in her. she still keeps it.
i hope she does. i do.
and him. he will never rid himself of the guilt. i hope he learns to ..
to just ..
to .
..... ... ...........
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
Fuck you for what you did to me.
fuck you for being fine.
fuck you for being proud
of a goddamn lesbian
sucking your cock and fuck you
for talking about it
fuck you for breaking me to the point where i had to become something else
fuck you for reminding me that what i feel is not normal
fuck you
...... ...
............ .. .... ....
for being the filthy hierophant
i see in every man
who has touched me
why is it you that stays? who gave you such a power?
but
isn't that the point? that i can be
broken?
from him?
until the day i wasn't —
when i was her
and then
her
and her.... ( there are no
colors in this time
except the ones that return
to me.
when i am..... )
🪄🪄🧠🤓🐈⬛🏛️🎨🎭🖼️🏴☠️👩🏻🎤🕷️🕷️🕷️🕷️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️🕸️❤️✨⭐️🌠🌃🌌🔭🔭🔭🔭🔭
me !!!!!!!!!!!
💕💖💗💞💓💐🌸🌺💓💘💝💝💐💘🌸💐🎀🌷💝🎀🌷🌷🐷💝🧞♀️🎀🎀🦩🩰👚🎟️
from the deep pit
of my stomach
why do the painful things make her louder?
why
the
fuck.
has it been nine goddamn years of this?
nine?
3 6 9 three six nine i know what the numbers are
i know why they are there
grandma
(mother of grandma) teaches me of
grandma
(mother of grandma)
when i couldnt see it you
knight of wands told me how to
keep going
you tell me that it is okay to live for more than my body
even if the thoughts never leave?
even if the thoughts never leave.
even if i
stay the same? you will still be lovable
it hurts to turn back into
a newly traumatized
confused cat self
she is yellow she is happy go lucky
she has a light she yearns
will not go out
when she gets
"better"
my thoughts about her don't feel that way
learned to live in an angry mind
in the same spot theres something else
block has vanished
all too fast
is this what hope feels like?
i am wise )
i am learning learning learning
when the fog is there and when it isn't
because i want to
i will learn
how to love
how to feel
how to understand and listen and observe the way i always have
you are right
it is better to speak than it is to die
( you speak to me through wisdom of the greats
never will i let go of
my intellect!
TRUE
intellect)
it is better to exist than it is not to cry
from the kind of pedestal
i have grown so weary of in others /
in myself)
there is intelligence in creating
is the birth of passion from knowledge?
connection ?
am i doing this
that terribly wrong?
but isnt the love
something?
Où étais-je ?
Chlorophyll || Rem Mars
Sam Winchester (preseries)
that ocd compulsion where its like
“i MUST trigger myself because if i’m not constantly thinking about every terrible possibility and outcome then i am being purposefully negligent and unprepared for the horrors of this world and when the Bad Thing Happens it will be MY FAULT”