Op Stop Calling Out Everyone

I am so ready for therapy

Me, knowing I wont be ready to open up for therapy

i feel these needed to be compiled. feel free to add more genre related posts in the notes if you want

The irk of quirk

Yes, people with OCD are often preoccupied with fear, order and the pursuit of perfection. But please understand that the above is just the tip of the ice burg. Ocd can also look like intense shame, self-loathing and the worst of the worst…guilt. OCD forges a deep and habitual mistrust of one’s true intentions and causes to feelings of unworthiness. I have felt unworthy of my friends, family, self compassion and in the darkest times, of life. So if somebody tells you they have Ocd please don’t assume what that means based on stereotypes. OCD is not a quirk; it is a serious and debilitating illness.

you saw something didn’t you?🕯️

My game is out now!

re:curse is a surreal RPGmaker horror game inspired by the likes of OFF, Ib, LISA: The Painful RPG and Yume Nikki.

Play as distraction-prone researcher Linda Langley and explore as your laboratory distorts and degrades around you. Send emails. Grapple with your clown infestation. Face consequences. Maybe even survive!

This is a game about...

doors

screens

bitrot

self-fulfilling loops

computer viruses (not real ones)

trans-temporal communication software

gay subtext

surprises

secrets

re:curse was solo developed as a passion project, mostly between 2020-2021. I've returned to it and added the final touches necessary to make a finished game. Bundled with the game is a trove of bonus content for your perusal, including uncompressed source files, concept art, unreleased original music, 3d files, and more. I hope you enjoy!

Download for free on itch.io!

I wanna point out a thing that feels still so "off" to me about alt!Powder.

Homegirl is so quick to jump in and anxiously make everything seem okay.

(season 1) Jinx was obsessed with not appearing weak (as a means of obtaining love)

and alt!Powder seems to have a toxic trait of smoothing over other people's problems. That sort of, "everything's fine! we're fine! he's fine!" attitude that happens when someone is so afraid of the boat rocking that they ignore all conflict and with it all opportunities to grow and connect more deeply with those around them.

Her reaction to smooth it all over when alt!Benzo was confused by Ekko's reaction was so anxious. And she did this despite her own fear at the change in Ekko. When she goes "...did you just throw that?" she is so shocked she can't even understand what just happened. And yet, alt!Benzo walks in and expresses the same confusion she felt/is feeling but rather than confront Ekko and sharing her confusion with alt!Benzo, she jumps in to smooth things over. What are you talking about? Everything's fine! He's just having a little inventor moment, nothing to see here!

This is a girl who is used to "cleaning up everyone else's messes," probably for the same reason that Jinx was obsessed with not seeming weak: as a way to earn love.

(probably because her biggest mess ended up killing her sister, so for the rest of forever she will deal with that guilt by putting everyone else's emotional comfort above her own)

Alt!Powder may be more mentally stable than Jinx (by a longshot) but she is not emotionally healthy/secure in an objective sense. What probably works even worse against this toxic trait is that everyone around her is okay with her smoothing things over--she's praised for helping out Ekko and rescuing alt!Mylo. Everyone but alt!Vander is down with alt!Powder's coping mechanism for dealing with discomfort.

poor cutie.

So often we hear about how mental illness/neurodivergency makes people interesting, but here’s a shoutout to the people whose mental illness makes them boring.

Systems who dress at a middle ground of everyone’s style because dressing differently depending on who’s fronting may arouse suspicion. Systems who talk, write, and text the same regardless of who’s fronting for the same reason. System members who can’t do the things they want to do because their system only has the time and resources for so many hobbies.

People with OCD who spend so much time doing compulsions that they don’t have time for the things they want to do. People whose compulsions are mental so no one knows that they’re struggling. People who can’t do certain things because they would trigger them to the point that they couldn’t function.

People with OCPD who are told that they’re too ridged or not spontaneous enough. People whose entire personality, including hobbies and the things they like, are part of their disorder.

Autistic people who dress to avoid sensory bads. People who only eat a few foods. People who can’t go out and socialize.

Really just anyone with so much going on inside their head that they don’t have time for anything else. People who aren’t even capable of being on tumblr or any social media.

Neurodivergency isn’t always something that fits an aesthetic or makes people interesting. Some of us are just focused on surviving. Our symptoms aren’t something to be consumed by others. They’re personal. In the age of the internet it can seem like everyone is always performing, but I promise it is okay to just look after your mental health.

If anyone wants to add on with more mental illnesses/neurodivergencies please do!

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