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"June 1984 - September 1984

Red wine for breakfast, I walk the sidewalks barefoot at night, I do not understand anything and I do not mind. Life is rushing too quickly for me to understand anything, seldom sober, rarely alone. Red nails and crowded ashtrays, Eva Strawberry Bar – For God’s sake, in what theatre have I ended up? What is this strange performance? And what role do I play in it? Amid the chaos I begin shooting. And photographs work as a mirror, as a return ticket to a normal, normalized life."

Killer Summer. Libuse Jarcovjakova.

i'm somewhere in between healing and being the most evil person you've met in your entire life

♡ My Fav Madison Beer lines from 'Silence Between Songs' ♡ :

• "Just close your eyes, I know you're so tired" / "Just kids, you and I. I know it's hard sometimes, but you'll be alright. We'll be alright."

- Ryder

• "Is it too late now, to slow down?" / "All my life, I've never had the chance to stop and smell the flowers" / "No memories, like black and white TV. And everybody says it'll be okay, like life is just a game, but I don't wanna play."

- 17

• "I pop a pill to try to numb the pain, when it's just me and my brain. / I can't be alone with my thoughts when the music's off. I can't turn them down, tune them out, don't know how."

- Silence Between Songs

• "And sometimes I still hate myself, the way you made me hate myself. It hurts to know I hurt the ones who love me at my worst. I'm sorry I don't trust myself, enough to trust somebody else."

- At Your Worst

• "Say you hate me, it's okay boy you're not the only one. / Another year, we're still here."

- Home To Another

• "I'm stuck at the beginning, and I'm in pain" / "I woke up, fell back to sleep,'cause I'd rather live in my dreams" / "The world has stopped spinnin', the lights are all dimmin'."

- Spinnin'

Divider Credits: @benkeibear

I've been meaning to post this the week the album came out 😭- it's been in my drafts forever lol

lowkey obsessed with my own blog. it has all my favorite things and all the opinions i agree with. best place on the internet maybe ever

cries

felipe castañeda, "untitled," n.d., marble

Idc if we’ve kissed 1748543638 times I WANT ANOTHER KISS

TENDER IS THE NIGHT

tonight's crying is dedicated to all the people i gradually lost touch with

Belladonna of Sadness, dir. Eiichi Yamamoto, 1973

Anaïs Nin, The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1923–1927

late night diary pages :3 spilling my guts out in here makes me feel more sane than i really am . i cringe at these most of the time bcs theyree sooo old but im learning to not be ashamed of them ( and also no one knows me here :3)

Betty Boop on a Motorbike

I’m ok. I’m gonna be ok. I’m gonna live a beautiful life and I’ll get to know beautiful people. I will create things of beauty and be surrounded by flowers. And I’ll love myself, and I’ll be soft, I’ll be kind. And I’ll be ok.

nobody who has ever made me feel small and unwanted has possessed a heart or a life that i admired

people who don't experience hyperfixation don't know what it feels like to hyperfixate so much on something that it becomes not only your subject of obsession but also your source of happiness and literally the main reason why you still keep going; literal source of strength and life.

shoutout to my favorite fictional characters, favorite people, favorite ships, favorite movies, favorite tv shows, fanfics and archive of our own

I think it’s time I do everything I ever wanted

i love bad bitches and that really is my fucking problem

thank you spongebob

Me Core 🐛

Cut Deeply 💔

i need to have my ribs cracked open and my heart bitten into and yes it is a sex thing obviously

Vivienne Westwood: Multi Orb Bas Relief Cigarette Case (2007)

i’m such an asshole but i’m also a very kind-hearted person who likes making ppl happy and if i love u i will love u with all my heart and all my soul but then i’m also such an asshole

Mother-daughter relationships are like throwing a dart at a wheel where the only two options are “I love you” and “I never want to speak to you again” every 5 minutes for your entire life

do you ever wake up and just crave intimacy? Like you’d give anything to have woken up with someone’s arms around you and to be able to feel their breath on your neck? Idk i’m lame