This Book Is Older Than Me.

Coffees I consumed throughout July. Became addicted to hot Vanilla Latte.

Sometimes we need poetry to endure our most painful moments for it makes everything beautiful

The Beloved.

It's always been you, these days. The brittle heart of mine can only fit you in there without breaking to pieces. The happiness you infused into my veins, making my whole body throbbing feverishly. Hence, it's your presence alone that can calm me down from the adrenaline rush, just like a pill Xanax.

I am aware of the tenuous string we both trying to hold on, but it wouldn't be a sin to wish that this string can last for a longer time, so that we don't have to say goodbye to each other.

October 24th 2024

The Secret History by Donna Tartt

I liked Henry. It was happened rather naturally due to the tendency of mine to like cold and mysterious characters. The book synopsis on the book, will not giving you anything rather than a thought of 'ah this book is about students who discovered about the lost history from Ancient Greek and the fact is they're going to change the world with their discovery'. Mind you, I wasn't a Penguin Publisher collector/reader type of girl. Rather, I am more like 'I read what I want and what my heart desired, whenever I want'. So to be frank, this was my very first 500+ pages English novel that I could finish. Which is surprising cause I remember I bought this book only for the aesthetic.

The beginning of the book was so brutal, with the fact that someone has died, not just died but murdered. What a start, isn't it? But it's classic, it ought to be mysterious and made you uncomfortable to sleep without knowing what happen next. The thing about this type of book (modern classic), you'll know that this is a masterpiece when the first sentence of the book was about death.

I lost my words, to be honest. But me, here, right after finishing the book, not for criticizing the book, but only to stay sane. The thing that solely going through my mind is how furious I am yet I feel so empty cause this book is just end like that. Not giving me enough closure that I need!

I almost hate everyone in this book, even with Bunny. But then, by the end of the book, I pity myself. I pity myself for even mad at them all.

Bring back my sanity. I pity myself for not even mad at their wrong-doings to Bunny

March to April: Caffeine's Gallery.

Crazy how this bitter liquid (although not all of them are) helped me cope with everything.

1980's edition of Bumi Manusia and Anak Semua Bangsa by Pramoedya Ananta Toer.

𝔞𝔣𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔫𝔬𝔬𝔫 𝔠𝔬𝔣𝔣𝔢𝔢 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔰𝔦𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔢 ☕️

Introduction.

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⋅ Isabelle Amanda Hennschen is the name. You may call me with Isa ⋅ A Taurus through, and through. ⋅ Languages spoken are English, Indonesian, High Valyrian (ˢᵒ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ), German (ˢᵒ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ) ⋅ Choosing dark/light academia as her aesthetic used avatar: Emily Carey, Kim Dami

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⠀⠀⁀➴ HOBBIES

⋆ Reading ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I love to read, mostly classics and essays. Not to mention, Indonesian historical fiction too. These are my favorite books from all time: The Secret History, Tetralogi Pulau Buru, I, 1984, The Stranger, Homage to Catalonia, Animal Farm, The Jakarta Method, The Universe of Us, A Song of Ice and Fire, and Gadis Pantai.

⋆ Musics ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Genre: RnB, Lo-Fi, Classics, K-Pop, Pop, Folk Artist(s): BTS, Claude Debussy, Keshi, New Jeans, Novo Amor, SZA, Summer Walker, The Weeknd, Franz Gordon, KIOF, Rini, Niki, Thuy, Nadin Amizah, etc.

⋆ Writing and Journaling ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ As for me, writing and reading come in the same package. The more I read, the more dying I am to write my abundance amount of thoughts. My writing mostly about yearning, devotion, and infinite sums of adoration toward people or fictional character I fancy. Journaling is one thing, yet book commentary is another thing I did beside pouring down thoughts about life and universe in general.

Lucerys wip that I desperately need to finish/edit