29/09/21

you coulda been gettin' down to this sick beat!

Rant of a PCOS Girlie

I am so angry at the society that failed me as a human being. I hate being a woman. Why our reproductive system and complications are so understudied. Why do we and our health come out at the end of the barrel when the whole population depends on us. For my whole life, I have suffered so much because of my periods. In my teenage days, I cried so many nights, days, and evenings because of abdominal cramps; it was so painful, I felt like I might pass out. And the irony is among all these I had to study, attend my classes and expect to get good grades, cause come on, it's just periods, no big deal!. I literally had to sit in my washroom because it was so painful, uncomfortable.

I am so angry at my parents, too. When I used to cry, bleed out, my mother used to say it's normal, everybody has pain. No! it's not normal to feel like you might pass out, lightheaded, or bleed for days after days. Never did they think that it might be something else. Because of it's periods, it's regarding a woman's reproductive health, a specific organ, and because nobody in society bothers to do proper research about it. Oh, you have menstruation issues- here either go on hormonal tablets or take a contraceptive pill.

Now, being in my late twenties and diagnosed with severe PCOS and having to flip out my lifestyle, diets, and food preferences just to undo years and years of negligence, makes me feel that it's so unfair to me. I was a child, they should have researched and taken care of me.

I know it is their first time being parents too, and I tell myself every day. But it's so unfair and unjust to me, I didn't sign for this. I have my uterus, I have it so much. I hate that society to not live up to us. If men had uterus, there would never be so much unfairness regarding their treatment.

I am so tired.

"I have discovered I am able to endure an incredible amount of punishment and misfortune as long as I am occasionally allowed a few quite moments to myself - time to restore my spirits, to lick my wounds, to regroup. A little me time and I can deal with anything the world throws my way"

———Beau Taplin // Me time

I love that Mashima stated on live that Lucy is wearing Natsu's shirt, which he rarely uses. Mashima also said that Natsu isn't the type to wear them. LIKE HOW CAN I FUCKING SLEEP KNOWING THIS SHIT? I'M ALREADY FUCKING SURE THEY DID THE DEED.

And my boi looks so flustered that he had to grip the back couch?

And the said shirt looks like a mf button down shirt? Who are we kidding? This is straight outta those spicy ff that I've read. You can't fucking convince me that Mashima didn't read those sheet gripping toe curling Nalu smut and giggling like a teenager.

Sad girl autumn era?

No, it's maroon at midnights era.

Track 2: Red ( Red Taylor's version)

Track 2: Maroon ( Midnights)

surviving uni tips

so I recently started my uni and it’s online classes and they are putting too much  pressure on us.  I made some new plans to ace through uni grades and I thought i should share them even though they are not much.  1.  read and make notes on the topic the day you learn and if you think you will wait for the weekend then you are doing it wrong.  Let’s go back to elementary days and finish your studying and homework day to day. It helps a lot in lessening the burden before the exams.  2. watch YouTube videos and understand the concepts better because it’s all about applying the concepts.   3.  Make questions while you read and wrote them down on a piece of paper or in a word document.  4. Create questions or ask a friend to create them and schedule a time in each week and take the exam with limited time. It will help with the speed.  5. create minimum 3 goals for the coming day and achieve them by creating a reward.  6. try pomodoro  technique but use 60 min as study time and 15 min as a break.  7. use white noises.  This is my plan for the coming exam which is on 8th October. Hopefully this will work. 

I don't care if people ship Jonsa, but stop stealing content from Jonrya and somehow making it about Sansa when it's actually about Arya. And stop lying about Jon and Sansa's importance to each other.

Jon and Sansa rarely think about one another. Sansa thinks about Jon one time while pretending to be a bastard, and that was only after someone else brought him up. And that was the first time she thought about him since AGoT.

Jon, on the other hand, hardly thinks about Sansa either. It's Arya that he misses even more than Robb, and Arya who misses Jon the most out of all her siblings.

Jon compares Ygritte to Arya, not Sansa.

Jon wants to kill Ramsay for being betrothed to Arya, not Sansa.

Jon sends Mance to find the grey girl on a dying horse which was supposed to be Arya, not Sansa.

Jon was willing to forsake his vows to the Night's Watch for Arya, not Sansa.

Jon's favorite person in the world is Arya, and Arya's favorite person is Jon.

It’s the only way. If I don’t do it, they will. 

- Naomi Alderman, The Power

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