Biochemistry Struggles

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This is so true. I'm in my early twenties and all of my friends are moving away with different jobs and they are making new friends, I'm on a different job where I'm constantly feeling I'm not being able to connect with other people or myself properly. And when I reach out to them, they are busy (I'm not blaming them and absolutely in this pandemic no one have to take the responsibility of other people's struggles) but I'm just trying to reach out to them for casual conversation to know about their life, how they are coping with changes, is everything okay or not but they are kind of ignoring me. It hurts a lot to feel like unwanted. Its feels like there's no value to that friendship anymore.

I talked to my mum the other day, and she told me that when you’re in your 20’s, you feel everyone is better than you. You feel that everyone is smarter, they are better, they are doing more, they got it all handled. And then she told me, that as you get older, you learn that it was not true, it was never true. Everyone is not better than you. Everyone isn’t doing more than you, everyone isn’t smarter and everyone do not have it all handled. Now, I hope I get that into my head some day soon. And until then, I’m gonna work on that and talk about it, cause I’m not alone in feeling this. I hope we all learn this, no matter if you are in your 20’s, or younger or older. Don’t sell yourself short.

12.02.2022 -

This year till now has been so weird to me. I've already finished my masters and started pursuing my internship. New faces, new workload but one thing I'm struggling is habituating with the change. I just don't know why but I am whining everyday after each workday and counting time in my head for the week to end. I can't even read books or watch any movies or series with concentration anymore. Life is feeling so suffocating, so monotonous, I just want to cry everyday...just want to go back to those days when I was looking forward to everyday. I just do nothing no social media, no social interaction, nothing. I don't know why but I'm struggling so much and it's taking a toll on my health. By this week end my bestie is moving to another city ! I'm just so so missing her that it's physically hurting me. I just don't know. I want everything to end already :(

P.s: these are some pictures from my rooftop!

This is it! And people out there describing this as "mild criticism" is just being ignorant at this point.

i kind of don’t like Taylor describing what happened to her in 2016 as ‘getting cancelled’ because it definitely wasn’t. it was a whole different beast. getting ‘cancelled’ is people finding out something about you, talking about it for a week, causing you to take like 3 weeks off and then everyone just moves on. she had a grown man who was weirdly obsessed with her since she was 19 publicly discredit her art and sexualize her to the entire world, put her in a revenge-porn style music video with a wax figure depicting her naked body without her consent, had a crowd of tens of thousands of people say ‘fuck taylor swift’, had a mural painted of her death, and went into hiding for almost two years. ‘getting cancelled’ involves a few tweets and an apology note…. not years and years of therapy. 

karma is HER boyfriend🩵

Just Dandelion but Taylor's version

the ending of the european leg of the eras tour feels like something so grand.

i mean, we’ve had everything this leg. the fun with swift alert, brand new mashups each and every night, the new tortured poets addition - just to name a few. something about the ending this time feels important, like the start of the end is beginning to loom. which, in a way, it is. we’re advancing forth to the last leg of the entire tour: no more added dates, no more “where are the x dates”. sure, not exactly the end of the world, but this moment in all of our lives is soon coming to a close. millions of people having attended the eras tour themselves, watched the film, and even going as far as watching livestreams every single night. what an influence, right?

and it all ends in december. all the joy and positivity that has been spread across the world, all uniting to enjoy the artwork of such an incredible person. it’s just an incredibly unique sensation that something that has been ongoing for an amazing 18 months is finally coming to a close. it’s certainly beautiful in a melancholic way. however! i, in no way, imagine that the experience we’ve all had along this tour will end so soon, this will be something carried through the generations (not to sound dramatic) - in some ways, it already has! this will be the time people will say they wish they lived through; wished they were lucky enough to be alive during the feat that has been the eras tour.

“the night you danced like you knew our lives would never be the same” - taylor swift, 2010.

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ORIGINAL ART: "Veil" by (@ _k0tterl_)

I couldn’t care what invention you made me ‘cause I… I was meant to be yours 🍃

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