Today: 1/6/25

Ok. Long time since I've posted.

I had some great weeks working out three times a week. Awesome!

Not so great with house work and even got behind in school work. But, I'm caught back up and trying to maintain again.

Let's see how this week goes.

Woven Through Generations

Monica Zavala (Gabrielino/Tongva Nation, Acjachemen, and Mexican)

acrylic on canvas. 15” x 30”

When we engage in the art of hair braiding, we infuse it with the purity of our intentions, a gesture that takes on profound significance when it's the tresses of a beloved individual we weave. The act of braiding becomes a powerful symbol, as we intertwine three sections of hair, each one representing the mind, the body, and the spirit.

In my youth, my mother would lovingly braid my hair, creating cherished moments that have left an indelible mark on my heart. As the passage of time bestows maturity, I find myself continuing this timeless tradition by tenderly braiding her hair. In this cycle, we bridge the generations, preserving this beautiful connection that transcends both time and space. The hands that perform this act of love and tradition are mine, as I braid my mother's hair, perpetuating the legacy of our shared bond.

Today: 1/13/2025

Slept too little. Mentally drained after work. Not achieved step goal. Not achieved physical goal. Not achieved housework goal. Complete all assignments for school yesterday and steps.

Reflection: I need sleep. I don't work right when not sleeping. Even caffeine doesn't help. Sad about missing all targets for the day. Angry about people being closed minded at work. Confused on if I'm being closed minded. Lingering effects of not enough sleep. Booooooooo. Did manage some reading for school. Not sure I absorbed any of it. Tomorrow will tell.

Next day goals: 4000 steps. One load of dishes cleaned and put away. One load of laundry cleaned and put away. Draft discussion board post. Do the work things. Connect to the kids.

Emergency after emergency the last few weeks. Have I really not been paying attention?

1/15/2025

What is going on? I'm on my phone more. I'm not doing the steps. Sleep is lacking. I'm not getting into motion. Discipline is falling apart in my mind. My thoughts are not positive. Why? How? When?

It's too much again? But last week it wasn't.

Catch up:

Been consistent in achieving step goals and dishes. Not getting the help I've been requesting. But, that's ok. This is my journey and my goals. I cannot expect others to participate. 🙁

It makes me sad I'm not getting help. So, I have to strengthen my resolve to see them through. I'll allow myself the sadness here during reflection.

I have not been doing my homework. If I want to get that masters degree, I have to focus and dedicate time to the effort.

For today:

I've already cleaned the kitchen. Wiped all the walls down. I'll mop another time. I've enough clean clothes to make it through the week. So, focus is one homework. This modules assignments are due today. Once completed I'll do the work for my body.

I need to move past the regret of allowing my body to get weak. It's not easy for me. I'll work on that later. Right now, homework and body.

Was given a note from my partner today. I'm not sure how I'm feeling after reading it. I know what is being expressed but my knee jerk reaction wasn't to their desire. My reaction was self centered. I haven't spoken or seen them since reading it. I'll read it again at lunch and before I go home. Really need to consider what to do with this information and decide how/if I should respond.

What am I doing?

Today: 2/4/25

Week been consistent with work out and homework. Don't know why the melancholy has been at me lately. We're getting through it. Always seems like so much. There's always more to do. Always more to get done.