Ok. Long Time Since I've Posted.

Was given a note from my partner today. I'm not sure how I'm feeling after reading it. I know what is being expressed but my knee jerk reaction wasn't to their desire. My reaction was self centered. I haven't spoken or seen them since reading it. I'll read it again at lunch and before I go home. Really need to consider what to do with this information and decide how/if I should respond.

Today: 1/25/2025

I'm up. Calf cramping like hell. It's ok.

Plan:

Dishes,

Laundry,

Trash out,

Workout,

Fishing.

I want something fun today.

by ryanresatka

Indigenous People's Day

I am an immigrant to the land of the Tongva, aka the Gabrieleno Band of Mission Indians.

Californians know this area as Los Angeles County, Orange County and the Channel Islands.

There's many photos and videos teaching and sharing their history and traditions on the website linked above. Here's one.

“A look back to the 1964 Navajo Nation Fair ❤ The Navajo Nation Fair was initially started in 1937 as an opportunity for our Diné people to unite and gather for a couple of days to socialize, race horses, compare each other’s harvest, have something positive and enjoyable to do rather than just dealing with the Depression, stock reduction, unemployment and having their children hauled off to boarding school. Be proud to be Diné!”, Southern Navajo Nation Fair

part 1/3

I forgot, I am playing in a Greyhawk game, got a Barbarian Drow named Rhaez’Varyntha (Rayz-VAH-rin-thah) "Wrath Weaver" of Selvetarm 🖤🖤🖤

Today: 1/4/2025

For the first time in my life I rented a drained snake. Amateur plumbing. My body is tired. I've gotten way too fat and weak. The laundry room was backing up into the house. The kitchen sink was backing up into the house. I'm filthy and need a shower.

Reflection: Apart from money, I don't know why I put this off for 2 weeks. I feel accomplished. My body hurts and I feel weak. I feel relieved that this task is done. I feel encouraged to do something else. It might not be today but I have to do something else in the house. The list of things I have to do is way too long. And my body is so weak.

Lesson learned: Just do the things. Take 20 minutes everyday and do something for your body. 20 minutes everyday, something to make your body better.

1/15/2025

What is going on? I'm on my phone more. I'm not doing the steps. Sleep is lacking. I'm not getting into motion. Discipline is falling apart in my mind. My thoughts are not positive. Why? How? When?

It's too much again? But last week it wasn't.

Today: 1/8/25

Rough day. I didn't walk before work. I did achieve my step goal. I didn't do any physical activity apart from walking. I drove home but drove right back to Austin. It's probably going to freeze tonight at home but not in Austin and I need to be at the clinic to conduct training. I'm staying in a hotel over night. Hopefully, I can get back into routine tomorrow. Didn't do homework. Going to bed soon. Able to assign someone else to do dishes and laundry.

Reflection:

I feel meh. Excited to sleep in a little and have slow morning with coffee and easy roll to work. Not going to be at myself up over not achieving as much as I wanted. Not sure if laundry or dishes complete. Should have checked.

Tomorrow's plan:

Get up, have coffee, walk around hotel before work. Finish training and start drive home. I can work from home Friday, so I'll stay up later to finish responses for class. Do one load of dishes and put away. Do one load of dishes and laundry. Do step goal. Do 20 mins of physical activity.