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transformers fans when Starscream appears for literally three frames in the trailer

Run rabbit, run rabbit, run, run, run.

thinking about white rabbit being shown to be good with kids.... if not for the tragedy he'd be such a family man...........

Guys this is cannon I am one of Charles necklaces

NOW WHY WOULD YOU WRITE THIS

Did Charles commit suicide?

What if he didn’t go north... What if he left for good? (A soul-crushing headcanon about Charles Smith)

What if Charles took his own life? Yes, yes, just like that — what if he left, not north, but FOR GOOD. I keep thinking about this more and more. Because so much about him screams — “I can’t do this anymore.”

Everyone says: he went to Canada. Oh sure, sure. But maybe it’s time to stop repeating that comforting bedtime story. Canada was mentioned once, barely, like a breath. But in another dialogue — he says he wants to go to INDOCHINA. Can you imagine? Indochina! Where is that, and where’s Canada, and where is he? He’s lost. He’s torn. He doesn’t know where to go. Because he feels at home NOWHERE. And all of this — it’s not a plan. It’s emptiness. It’s pain wrapped in scraps of fantasy.

And when he tells John: “What does your family need an old gunslinger for?” — that’s NOT A JOKE. That’s a scream. A plea. A wound masked as a smile. Because he’s the outsider among friends. He’s the extra. He’s just... there. But he’s not part of it. And he knows that. Feels it in his bones. In his heart.

He doesn’t even sleep in the house. Doesn’t sleep on the property. Wanders into the woods. Into the dark. Into solitude. Some would say — it’s just habit, right? He’s used to the wild. Used to isolation. Bullshit. It’s not habit. It’s escape. Because being close — hurts. Watching Abigail, watching John, watching their child — it’s like a blade across the soul. Their dream came true. And him? Who is he? He’s — no one. Once, he was an outcast among outcasts. Now he’s just... the only one left. Alone among the joyful.

And the doubts he voices to John — “Will this life be enough for you?” — that’s not about John. That’s about himself. He’s asking himself. He doesn’t believe happiness is possible for him. That he deserves it. That he’s even capable of feeling something other than this tight, choking loneliness.

And that talk about going north, starting a family, finding a woman... I DON’T BELIEVE IT. NOT A SINGLE WORD. It sounds like a script. A rehearsed line. A mask. A way to say something so they’ll stop asking. He has no plan. No place. No direction. He says it himself. “I don’t know where.”

Not Canada. Not Wapiti. He could’ve gone back there a hundred times. In eight years. But he didn’t. Because he never saw it as home. It was something lost, something nostalgic — not a place he was needed.

And just finding a woman? Really? This is Charles. A man who lets NO ONE in. He’s built like a fortress. In his mind. In his soul. In his silence. And if he lets someone in — it’s forever. And if he doesn’t — no one gets close. This isn’t about “settling down.” This is about finding a soul that moves him. And those are rare. Maybe one. Maybe none.

He says: “These last eight years, I’ve come to accept the things I can’t change.” Is that supposed to be hope? It’s not acceptance. It’s surrender. That’s not light at the end of the tunnel — it’s the tunnel closing in. It’s numbness. It’s emptiness.

And John, dear John… tells him: “You’re the strongest man I know.” I HATE THAT PHRASE. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE SAY IT ABOUT HIM. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE SAY IT ABOUT ME. It’s NOT strength. It’s survival. It’s when life beats you so hard, all you learn is not to fall. It’s not a choice. It’s endurance. He’s not strong. He’s exhausted. He’s shattered. He’s lonely, he’s silent, and he’s so, so tired.

Even if he met “the one” — would she love him? The real him? The broken one? The quiet one? The distant one? Or would she fall for the mask — for the “I’ve made peace with the past” lie? And if she never sees the real Charles — how could he ever be happy with her? He doesn’t do halfway. Not him.

Abigail and John are different. She knew his pain. All of it. His monsters. His sorrow. She accepted it. Who would accept Charles? Who even knows who he became?

And in that last ride... he says: “I’m heading north.” Turns down Sadie’s offer to work together. Says it’s time to move on. But what if he wasn’t moving forward. What if he was moving toward the end.

(Another powerful and unwavering argument for me: we all remember how Charles and John ride out to save Uncle in the epilogue — and how Charles, with a chilling steadiness, says that if the uncle’s wounds are too severe, the only mercy left would be to help him cross over. He speaks of killing — not driven by hatred, not poisoned by cruelty — but as a final act of love, a broken, desperate kindness to release a soul from agony. And I ask: was it only uncle’s suffering Charles wished to end? Or was he, too, reaching for a way to quiet his own howling grief? I believe he was. I believe he desperately was.)

What if that was his way of saying goodbye. Softly. Quietly. Not “farewell.” Just — gone. So they could keep living, believing he’s somewhere out there. Alive. Just... far. But in truth — he had already made peace. He had written his ending.

Not to the north. Not to Wapiti. Not to a woman. But to the place where nothing hurts anymore.

And if that’s what happened... if he really left...

...maybe, finally, he found peace.

More Rdr2 modern AU thoughts no "criminality" in this. I just can imagine them living in some sort of commune centered around a ranch. (this was inspired by Dutch talking about the Paris commune) I changed a few ages so it fits more modern society and like most of them don't really have exact ages. Some aren't as fleshed out as the others but it's not cuz I like them less or more.

Hosea(55) : was the one who bought the ranch with Bessie then slowly Dutch, Arthur and John came to live here too. When she sadly passed away he was glad they were here. Him and Bessie were a foster home, which is how Arthur and John met them. He sees Abigail as the daughter he and Bessie would have had and therefore think of Jack as his grandson. Bessie and him were teachers in primary school.

Dutch (45): got elected mayor of the commune somehow, it doesn't actually do anything but feeds his need of power so it's cool. He is the one talking to the law and intruder most of the time if there's a problem, can't deny he has a way with word. Has like 3 accusations of starting a cult. It is unsure how he and Hosea met and when, everyone gets lost with all the stories they tell.

Arthur(36): lived here almost his whole life but can spend months away on some weird roadtrip and then comeback. Learned many different job to help around. Spend his free time either drawing or enjoying nature. Likes shooting competition too. He's chronically ill/ disabled because of tuberculosis, he's doing better than a year ago but the sequel will follow him all his life.

John (26): hated living here at some point, couldn't find anything he was "good enough" at. After taking a self discovery journey (and fleeing the responsibility of being a father this young) he found out he liked herding the cows or sheep. I can't really imagine him and Abigail still being together in a society that doesn't push women to find men like in 1899. I think there would be tension at first but they'd end up sharing "custody" of Jack, after all they live in the same "town" (and Hosea would kill John if he didn't take care of that kid)

Abigail (24): arrived here with luck, mother of Jack she would have probably aborted if she didn't have a pregnancy denial cuz she feels she's too young to be a mother (which she was, she finished high school only a year or two before!) Hosea loves teaching her the rope of the ranch, she is family after all.

Uncle (67): Came at some point, acted like he belonged and never left. Nobody can tell how he arrived. He usually goes into nearby town to buy or sell or... Well avoid work at the commune.

Susan (49): She knew Dutch for a while now and after some health related issues he decided to offer her to live at the ranch, she greatly helped with setting up everything that the commune became.

Bill (31): after getting discharged by the army he couldn't find any places that wanted him, struggled with homelessness for a while until he joined the commune. He's very helpful when it comes to muscle jobs which they clearly lacked when he joined. He probably works on the day outside the commune to make himself some money, it's mostly helping with manual task.

Javier (26): just like in the OG story he got taken in by Dutch, Trelawny somehow managed to help him get documents so he could be legal. He's an aspiring musician.

Karen (24): She was on a roadtrip when she discovered the commune, she stayed for a while before leaving and then returned a year or so later as she couldn't find anything to please her way of living in the rest of society.

Mary-Beth (23): Met Arthur in one of his roadtrip and absolutely fell in love with the stories he told her, she asked if she could join the commune in hope of finding inspiration for her books.

Tilly (21): She got to be in the commune thanks to foster care after losing both her parents. She sort of grew up with John and loves going into the city and meet people, she spends lots of time with Mary-Beth discussing their respective lives. She probably does tik tok videos to explain how they live in the commune. Her, Karen and Mary-Beth probably take Arthur with them when going to protest march and even tho he's not fond of crowds he always come if they ask.

Molly (27): A rich girl who discovered the commune through Tilly's videos. She decided to live there as a way to rebel against her family. Despite her upbringing she loves the place and the people but never shows it.

Lenny (19): studying in the university in the biggest city near the commune, Dutch met him the day he initially got rejected from uni, he said he could use a guy like him once he'd graduate and somehow found a way to have Lenny accepted. Comes in the commune when he's on holidays or to study before exams.

Sadie (30): After losing her husband in a fire she tried to kill herself, thankfully Dutch and Arthur saw her and stopped her. They took her to the commune, she still suffer from depression but is starting to feel like living again. Spend a lot of her time with the animals. She used to live in the ranch her husband inherited.

Charles (28): When he was only a few years old he was separated from his mother, remembering very little of her and her heritage. He was given to his father who became an alcoholic as time passed. He visited a lot of tribe to try and find his heritage, when passing in the region of the commune he met Arthur and they talked for a while as Arthur guided him to the local tribe. He comes from time to time, stay for a while. It's like a second home.

Sean(24): tried to rob them in order to feed himself when Arthur caught him and brought him to Dutch the latter decided Sean could be forgiven by working around in the commune, he hasn't left since then.

Kieran (28): after an incident in the ranch he worked at, Kieran tried to find a new place to live. He first found a job with the O'Driscoll but didn't like it. He accidentally entered the commune and they thought he was a robber. After he explained his situation they let him go and he decided to stay there.

Pearson (38): he takes care of the general store but it isn't really a general store it's more like where everything is centered to make it more accessible to the rest of the commune. He arrived here after hearing about it in a nearby city, thought it might reminds him of his time in the navy.

Swanson (47): Pretty much like in the game Swanson went through a lot and lost his faith, Hosea and Dutch took pity of him and offered to help him find peace again in the commune. After he got better and decided to serve as the clergyman of the group.

Strauss (53): I think that the canon version still work quite well for him, I can see his family being Austrian immigrants in a big city and deciding he should live in a more rural place and that's how he ends up in the commune. He takes care of everything that falls under bookkeeping (be it money, materials or food)

Trelawny (41): doesn't actually live in the commune but he's a long time friend so he comes by often.

Jack (5): everyone's favorite boy, spent his two first years living with Abigail (who was kindly helped by Hosea and sometime Arthur) right now John and Abigail found an agreement and he spent half his time with Abi and the other half with John. They do some activities all together too.

There's probably lots of inaccuraty since I don't live in the US and like unless it's disrespectful I don't really care lol

Javier Escuella HC's (SFW)

A/N: This has bonus modern!au hc's at the end!

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ˋ°•*⁀➷ Personality:

Starting this off with a fun fact: most outlaws/cowboys in the Wild West Era were closeted queer people/POC/etc. Because of this, I feel like ALMOST everyone in camp would be accepting of gay people/disabled people/etc. It's my PERSONAL hc/belief. This does NOT mean you have to agree with it xx

Because of his past in Mexico as a revolutionary, he has a very strong sense of justice.

He stands by his morals/beliefs firmly. This will lead to him getting into arguments/debates with camp members (Micah/Bill mainly) quite often.

Despite English not being his first language, he is very well spoken and eloquent when he speaks it.

If someone does him a favor, he's the type of person to feel indebted to that person. It doesn't matter if they say "no worries" or "don't worry about it". He will worry about it. He WILL repay you.

BUT! At the same time...he doesn't like it when people do favors for him. He grew up very independent and isn't used to things like that. And, especially being an outlaw, he's always suspicious of charitable acts.

He doesn't have anger issues, but when he gets angry...he gets ANGRY.

Just because he's an outlaw doesn't mean he can't take care of himself. He bathes every other day (when possible). Whether he goes into a town to bathe, whether it's simply in a river, he WILL bathe as often as possible. He hates feeling dirty.

When he gets frustrated he'll start cursing/rambling in Spanish.

In my opinion, he's a huge supporter of activism (though, I feel like most of the camp members are).

He's super romantic, but can also be distant at times. Don't blame him, though. He tries his best. He's just scared/nervous.

Even though he doesn't sound harmless, he is VERY dangerous. He isn't a stranger to killing someone.

ˋ°•*⁀➷ Hobbies:

Obviously, one of his favorite hobbies is fishing. He journals/documents every type of fish he finds and then compares his findings to a fishing book he has.

Makes his own fishing lures/hooks/bait.

Secretly stargazes when he has guard duty at night. Sometimes he'll get so focused on the sky that he loses balance and falls back on the ground.

Yes, he can speak English pretty well, but that doesn't mean he's completely fluent in it. So, he practices pronunciation of some words every now and then. Not really a hobby, but still something he does in his free time.

Reads penny dreadfuls every once in a while. Usually it's right before he's about to go to bed.

Singing/playing guitar is another one of his favorite hobbies. Especially in his native tongue. It reminds him of home and comforts him. Since he knows it's dangerous for him to go back, at least he can keep a part of his home with him.

He absolutely loves playing Five Finger Fillet. And he's an absolute GOD at it. His hand moves so fast that it's mind boggling.

If he's in a relationship with you/interested in you...he'll show off his skills to try and impress you...

ˋ°•*⁀➷ Random:

He reminds me of a coyote a lot. His mannerisms/facial structure/etc. Am I the only one? Anyways, they are his favorite animal. Whenever he sees one in the wild, he stops whatever he's doing and just stares at it. Mesmerized.

Loves the smell of the fresh air in the morning/firewood/oranges/and vanilla.

He won't really admit it, but he loves bugs. Sometimes, a camp member will catch him looking through the grass/bushes/dirt for them. He documents them just like he documents fish.

He loves moths/praying mantises a lot. His favorites are the Rosy Maple Moth and Orchid Mantis.

The reason he loves moths/mantises/bugs so much is because he didn't see as many in Mexico. They fascinate him.

ˋ°•*⁀➷ Random Things He'd Say/Do:

(Finds a ladybug on branch of a tree) "¡Oye! These are good luck, aren't they?"

(Robbing a stagecoach with some other members of the gang.) "Easy there, chico rico. Give us all you've got—yeah?—and you get to live. Sounds like a pretty good deal, eh?"

(Reeling in a very large fish) "¡Mierda! Fucker's got some fight in him!"

(Micah has pissed off Javier by calling him a slur (no one is surprised)) "¿Con quién carajo te crees que estás hablando? ¿Eh? ¡Te destriparé como a un pez y te daré de comer a Caín! ¡Maldito cabrón! ¡Vete a la mierda! ¡Ratita sucia!"

ˋ°•*⁀➷ Random Modern!AU HC's:

He'd DEFINITELY be a metal head with some punk thrown in there.

Dyed his bangs red once.

Also dyed deep purple streaks into his hair as well. He really liked them and does it again every once in a while.

Works as a commercial fisherman and sells his catch at farmers markets sometimes.

Huge gamer. Specifically, he's obsessed with survival horror games. He would have an entire gaming PC set up.

The type of guy to bully kids in COD lobbies but then IMMEDIATELY say "Sorry. I know you're like a fetus or something."

Smokes cigarettes, but is also a huge pothead. This man is an entire Sublime album.

I fully believe he would have snake bite piercings (with rings instead of studs). He'd also have a right eyebrow piercing and both of his ears pierced.

He got a Halo Of The Sun tattoo on his chest when he was really drunk, but he absolutely loves it. He doesn't regret it at all. (It's a little smaller than the size of his palm)

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He was just a child when it happened. I think we need to fix this silly chronos mix up