Updated My Goals And Dates Because After I Hit The Pre-travel Goal And Went Overseas, I Completely Fucked

9:08am: noticing a common theme here that i get munchy about 2 hours after waking up. easier to say no for now though. endure.

10:30am: caved and snacked. 3/4s of a cookie, two bites of chicken, and some seaweed. probably about 100cal. gonna avoid food until i can make soup for dinner.

11:02am: not hungry but to keep myself as full as possible and avoid getting hungry, i'm going to have some sparkling water/propel on hand.

You dont need to eat. No one is forcing u to eat. U can eat later. Right now, just focus on gettin ur body in order. This doesnt mean that the food will disappear and u will never be able to eat it again. Come on, ure already so close to ur goal, so why give up now? Why eat something u have already tasted a million times... u already know what it tastes like, so u dont need it. You know how easy its to undo your successes, so just avoid eatin. Its not the end of the world. Tbh its disgusting that ure so obsessed with food. Think about something else for once.

Woo, resuming protocol.

9:14am: thought about food in that i wanted to start this post and i was like 'am i even thinking about food right now?' and uh. no. not in the slightest. gotta drink water tho

10:47am: got back from a decent walk with kimchi, and while i was able to push away temptation fairly quick, i can sense lunch will be hard. almost halfway there!

50 reasons to lose weight ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

so your s/o can pick you up effortlessly

free piggy back rides from your friends

so you don't have to worry about being too heavy when you sit in someone's lap

so people will lend you their clothes (and they'll be too big on you)

when people buy you clothes, they'll get the smallest size (and worry that a size S might be too big)

someone from a k-beauty youtube video said "losing weight makes you 10x prettier"

to fit into petite and aesthetic clothes (eg brandy melville)

so you don't have the gross feeling of your skin touching (thighs rubbing together, stomach rolls, etc)

to look effortlessly beautiful doing anything

you'll sweat less

to look good in tight clothes

to be able to wear revealing outfits and still look cute

you'll look cute and small in oversized clothes, instead of looking bigger

so you can wear a bikini

to feel more confident

people will treat you better

if you stick to it and work hard to lose the weight, then you'll be better than everyone who has failed to do so. you're willpower and self-control will be admired and envied by your peers

people will pay more attention to you

people will worry and care about you more

for the skinny/pretty privilege

to make people jealous of you

to prove that you can

to look good wearing anything, even if it isn't a good outfit

so you won't be anxious about being weighed at the doctor's

to look prettier in pictures

so you can go clothes shopping without being insecure

no more dressing room breakdowns

so your s/o can fit their fingers around your wrists and their hands around your thighs (or so you can do it yourself)

for the thigh gap (duh)

to be small enough to use your s/o as a bed

so your s/o can easily lift you with one hand

so your sh scars (if you have any) look more "aesthetic" (idrk how to explain it, but scars always look prettier on thinner limbs

to be desirable

you'll have a higher chance of people stopping you on the street for photographs/modeling scouts/etc

to be more attractive

you'll use less products (body wash, lotion) if there's less of you (so you'll end up saving money too!)

people will take you more seriously

you'll be able to move through crowds easier

to boost your self-esteem, feel better about yourself, and be happier

you can purchase the smallest size when shopping online and you won't have to worry about it being too small

to be able to shop at cute online shops that only carry smaller sizes (brandy, yesstyle, other asian stores)

to look good while eating, instead of like a fat, greedy pig...

to finally be in control

so you don't feel jealous/sad when you see other people's bodies/thinspo, because THEY'LL be envying YOU

to have your pics/bodychecks put in a thinspo compilation

to finally feel pretty

to take up less space

to be able to wear low rise bottoms

so you can talk about your weight and not feel ashamed

if you actually stick to it and restrict, your appetite/stomach will be a lot smaller once you reach your ugw, so you'll naturally eat less!!

oh this ones got a lil kick to it ..

Babe, it's not real. That's not real hunger, you know. You're just craving another blood sugar spike. Why give in to that? Just ride it out and you'll see how perfect your body is without you feeding it junk.

It’s like once I eat, and that door is open it invites all the food noise back…

Fasting is easier to maintain.. no taste no temptation.

trying something today. anytime i think about food, i'm going to edit this post and see if i can stop myself until at least 5pm. also will be a good log on when the cravings hit and how i feel.

8am: had a random spike of wanting some small food. going to finish water and try and wait until 11 for coffee.

edit: made it to 5:30PM with just a few slices of pepperoni and coffee! success. going to do this again for thursday

To break it down by month:

192 by December 184 by January 176 by February 168 by March 160 by April

on track for Feb requirements but am getting nervous about April.... time to once again restrict!!