Yuri Briar — Masterlist.

So I've been thinking about them:

Specifically I was wondering what the moment was (if there even was a specific moment) that cinched it for Twilight developing feelings for Yor.

[Spoiler warning: this post references manga chapters not yet animated]

I think for Yor it's pretty quick. Like, this moment here:

Not that Yor fell in love with Twilight then (ymmv) or that she's fully aware of her feelings, but it's explicit that she felt connected to him here and attached in meaningful ways.

But for Twilight, it wasn't so clear. For a while I'd kind of decided that it just came over him slowly (and I think there is something to that) and that there wasn't any singular moment which stood out. But that didn't feel quite right. The more I thought about it, the more I thought there were two stand-out moments, only one of which Twilight actually (semi-)clocks.

The first, which I think passes him by entirely, is this:

In my view, this laugh is an entirely authentic response. I think he is, despite himself, delighted by this woman who 1. just unexpectedly saved him from being stabbed, and 2. did it by sending the guy flying across an entire alleyway.

This is accentuated in the anime, I think, by the jaunty, puckish music that makes up the first part of their marriage theme song. I am dying for the reappearance of this music in some fashion, btw, it's so fun and cheeky and I'm hoping foreshadows their vibe after various revelations and particularly when they start working together as Agent Twilight and Thorn Princess:

The second moment for Twilight, I think, is more subtle for all it's more impactful. Or at least, the degree of its importance passed me by on initial read/watch, and I think it's deliberately downplayed by Twilight himself. Because he does actually clock it but if he looks more closely at it, well... then he might have to do something about it. And maybe that something won't comport with what the mission needs, and then what?

It happens when Twilight first bugs Yor, and then poses with Franky as SSS agents to test whether she knows Yuri is with the SSS.

It's clear in the lead up that Twilight recognises he has some feelings about/for Yor, and he doesn't want to spy on her; he doesn't want to mistrust her at all. He has to convince himself to take seriously that she may be a potential threat.

And even then, the convincing only sort of mostly works, because he hesitates again:

Which is, by the way, bananas. At this point, they've been a fake family for maybe a handful of weeks? Twilight is an experienced, accomplished spy with a finely honed and necessary sense of paranoia. Of course he should be suspicious. Her brother is an SSS agent! Canonically, the SSS are both Twilight- and SSS self-described as Twilight's greatest existential. It shouldn't be a question whether or not to verify Yor's knowledge here. And yet.

We all know how the rest plays out. He decides that listening in isn't enough, he needs to confront her insofar as he's able. I wrote previously about Twilight's relationship with Anya and the pivotal moment for him in how his view of his relationship with Anya changes based on Anya's (and Endo's) choices. I think a similar thing happens in this scene with Yor.

See, it would have been enough for Yor to continue to deny, continue to not call on Yuri's help, to prove she didn't know, and to put Twilight's mind at ease.

Endo takes it further.

Y'all: THIS IS ABSOLUTELY WILD. It borders on levels of impulsive foolhardiness that Twilight should actually take as a negative for the person playing his wife for Operation Strix. Yor even alludes later to the problems this could cause!

The SSS are indiscriminate; if Yor was facing down actual SSS agents, first assaulting and then threatening them would 100000% land her in custody. Were it not for Yuri, it may even get her disappeared, based on how casually and frequently Yuri references having people executed. It would absolutely put the Forgers at risk, in general and in the implicitly sexist Ostanian society, because if Mrs Forger behaves this way, how does Mr Forger behave? And why can't he control his wife? The Secret Police are not known for their leniency, their modesty, their discerning, their temperateness, their mercy. They are known for the exact opposite of those things. And due to being a spy, Twilight probably knows they're actually much worse than even their public reputation.

And here's Yor saying: you can question me but if you threaten my brother or my husband, I will fucking end you. Bodily.

Of course, it's entirely in keeping with her character, and it's an entirely revealing moment of who she is. And I think this is the moment for Twilight. He's already been trusting her bit by bit, as he says above, intuitively. I'd suggest that maybe even more than that though, Yor taps into something Twilight deeply wants: backup. Someone and somewhere safe. Maybe we could describe a person fulfilling that role in an adult relationship as a partner...?

It's because he doubts his intuition (his wants, his feelings, things he shouldn't be countenancing) that we get to this point where he (overzealously) tests her.

She blows his test right out of the water.

The SSS are basically the group he fears most; this is reiterated throughout the story. He doesn't trust them specifically because of who he is and also just generally. He doesn't trust their judgment. He doesn't share their values or their priorities. He doesn't like them around. He doesn't like them looking. He doesn't like being anywhere near them. (Also, he's right.)

And here's Yor. Not only standing up to them on his behalf but actually going on active defence on his behalf.

(I pause here to note 'on his behalf' is a bit, mm, tricky, since it's actually technically on Loid's behalf and I have Thoughts and Feelings about Twilight & Identity. But for the sake of the impact of this moment on Twilight, we'll take it as writ that in this moment there's no appreciable difference between Twilight and Loid.)

I think from here on out, it's incredibly difficult for Twilight to ever doubt or distrust Yor. He perceives her as firmly in his corner, that if the chips are down — if his worst enemy and his worst fear come knocking — she'll be on his team, unflinchingly. He may not think there will be much she can do (heh.) or much she can offer given the power of the SSS and her civilian status (I reiterate: heh.), but it matters that he believes that she'll be by his side.

And you know what? He's right. She will be.

That isn't something he's had since he was a little boy. Even WISE doesn't seem to offer that to its agents, given Nightfall's thought here:

Twilight's had to rely on himself for decades and now here's this astonishing woman who will threaten the Secret Police for his sake. Of course he trusts Yor. Of course this moment widens the cracks in his barriers. And further: of course those cracks start to reach into those walls deep, deep inside that protect his heart. This is all before getting to other moments, like when he reflects on how Yor is creating a better world in ways he (thinks he) can never aspire to do himself. That she loves Anya openly, freely, with such dedication, to the point of sacrificing her own needs. That she just never gives up, she persists and persists and persists, always doing her best. That she reminds him it's okay to accept peace and to rest. That she wants and tries to take care of him... On and on and on.

Of course we get to this point:

I'm particularly taken with his body language a little later in the scene. He manages to get himself to sitting but he's still sprawled, open, even as he can't wrap his mind around what exactly is happening or why, and he's feeling vulnerable for all that. But at the same time, this is Yor. And she's safe.

In my view, if the Mole Arc hadn't happened immediately between this moment and the earlier where Yor declares herself unhappy, it would have been clearer how much stress he felt specifically due to Yor's apparent sudden unhappiness with their arrangement. The stress got subsumed (conveniently, ahem, Endo) into the stress and violence of the Mole Arc, but I think it rattled him pretty profoundly. It's also additionally why her warm greeting hit him as hard as it did: relief across multiple lines, such that he had to remind himself not to relax, despite Yor's apparent return to normal.

And there may be added layers to Twilight's reactions to Yor's bad moods due to his familial history, as pointed out by @unhappy-sometimes in this post; the inverse, of course, is that Yor's general good-naturedness would add layers to Twilight's sense of security with her. And the apparent loss of that, all the more devastating.

Rounding out the original moment though, I think this in many ways demonstrates the point:

Twilight throws away the bug. That is also wild. It isn't like that bug could only be used on Yor; it wasn't somehow modified to only respond to her person. It was a device that could be used and reused on different targets, on people who actually are worthy of being bugged, etc. But instead of pocketing it for later use, Twilight throws it away.

Actually: he not only throws it away, he crushes it first. Perhaps because he couldn't stand to have that particular device around, the device he used when he doubted Yor?

Seems kind of irrational, Twilight.

Seems kind of telling.

I mentioned my last Twilight meta about his relationship with Anya: in that, I suggest Twilight recognised entering into a compact with Anya, which subtly modifies, for him, the motivations around Strix. I think something like that happens here, too. If Yor is willing to go to such apparent extremes to protect him, he'll do his utmost to protect her.

I've had this meta in my drafts for a while, but I'm chuffed by this panel from the most recent chapter, as it kind of underscores all this by Yor's positioning of herself:

(Of course the point is there isn't a dichotomy: they'll protect each other, as indicated by Yor's if I had to choose: she won't have to choose.)

Back to Twilight, at this point, he can still justify all this as being within mission parameters. Of course he should protect Yor: she is an innocent civilian and if anything happens to her it would threaten Strix. But if/when this line is tested, if/when there comes a point where protecting Yor is actually the option that may put Strix at risk or put him somehow in opposition to WISE, then we'll see.

And more importantly, Twilight will see, too.

cuties ‼️💕

Quick sketch!

dayum, i just read the new chapter with Yor and Yuri, it was quite sweet, but also bitter, if i have to be honest.

Yuri, i love you, but mannn 😭

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"The incest part of spy x family ruins it" SHUT UP, your wrong, Yuri Briar is a complex character and to put it as a "weird incest thing" is wrong.

First, Yuri has never implied he wanted any sexual relations with his sister, the most he has said is he loves her and wants to marry her, and that isnt weird if you put in the context that Yuri and Yor are both children who suffered from the war. They didnt have parents to take care of them, that burden was put onto Yor as the older sibling. Yuri looks up to her for that and wants to prove to Yor that he can protect them too. Yuri doesnt understand the complexities of love because he was never taught it, he loves his sister and wants to protect her and has gotten his feelings confused for wanting to marry her. "but hes so weird around loid" IN HIS CHILDHOOD IT WAS ONLY HIM AND HIS SISTER HE IS GOING TO HAVE TROUBLE TRUSTING OTHERS.

They grew up in a war, A WAR. Thats going to have a mental toll on your character, Yuri has taken this by wanting to protect who he loves. Yuri doesnt have anyone outside of Yor he is going to be confused on what his love means.

Loid has mentioned how he is jealous of Yors and Yuris relationship because its so close, and they have eachother to rely on, something Loid didnt get as a child. Loid doesnt see Yuri as a threat to him and Yor.

You can see how he grows through the story and accepts that Yor has found another person to trust and rely on and he doesnt have to carry that burden alone. He has slowly been letting go and giving Loid a chance to be there for Yor and Loid has proven he can and will be there for her, and yuri is grateful and even takes up tutoring Anya, it doesnt work out but he still tries to be supportive to his sister.

In conclusion Yuri briar did not ruin the plot of spy x family with a weird incest trope, if you look at the dialoge and think deeper in on the story, you can observe Yuris growth as a person.

apologies if this doesnt make sense i just hate people who missread the story of Yuris character

getting back to hetalia after years. i can relate.

I am obsessed with Switzerland. I only focus on Switzerland. I don't think about other Western nations and their relationships. I only think about Switzerland. I read the Hetalia manga but my focus is in Switzerland. I feel like my brain cells are getting eaten by Switzerland. Switzerland is nearly half of my daily thoughts. I think of him when I'm doing important things. I WANT SWITZERLAND. I NEED SWITZERLAND. HELP ME. S W I T Z E R L A N D

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i think i'm gonna write stuff from hetalia, of course i won't stop writing for Yuri, buuut i started enjoying hetalia again, so...

(people who are here for Tom Riddle: YOU WILL GET HIM. I PROMISE YOU WILL ONE DAY.)

cats being capable of understanding accidents and even giving you a little head bonk to let you know you're still cool makes it infinitely funnier that they don't understand when you're trying to help them

cats when you step on their tail: i'll admit that was rather ouchie, but given the lifetime of goodwill and trust between us, one must conclude this booboo is but a fluke.

cats when you try to get their claws unstuck from the couch covering: this nefarious bitch has never had a single honorable intention in their dishonest and shameful life, this must be one of their sinister plots or perhaps even an attempt on my life,

i cannot--

Squidward clocking out of the Krusty Krab and heading to the nearest gay after hours event 

𝐘𝐮𝐫𝐢 𝐁𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐫 nsfw alphabet

— mdni!

❝ i wanna fuck, government hooker. ❞

a = aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

· Yuri have a dirty mouth during sex, but after it he gets so, so clingy! he hugs you, kisses you and doesn't even let you go take a bath alone – you have to share it!

b = body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

· he likes his eyes, the red color always attracted attention... besides, he likes his hands, he's very skilled with them and they're very helpful in many ways.

he adores your whole body, everything about you is so gorgeous to him, although during that, he mostly takes care of your breasts and thighs.

c = cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

· it's a normal sperm, nothing unusual about it. he's getting quite embarrassed when you swallow it, i mean, it's hot as fuck, but he gets all red when it happens, but besides it - he prefers to do it inside, he feels like he's claiming you and that you're completely his.

d = dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

· he totally stalked you before you got together, his work made it very easy, he also stole your lingerie... of course you'll never know that, never ever.

e = experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

· Yuri's not that experienced, he already had a few girlfriends, those were short term relationships and not much happened besides a few... well, things, at the beginning he was just doing what he wanted and was quite embarrassed, then he started being more confident, and after a while he finally learned what you like, and he was gladly not only having pleasure, but also giving it to you.

f = favorite position (this goes without saying)

· he likes anything, but usually goes for a classic missionary, sometimes a doggy style when he's back from work and needs to have some stress relief.

g = goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

· he's not really funny during that, Yuri treats pleasing your needs very seriously, but would sometimes tease you and laugh at your pouts.

h = hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

· he doesn't really care about it, he shaves just a little, his body hair color is black and that's all i can say.

i = intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

· usually Yuri gets all sweet and romantic after sex, during it he's rough and authoritative, making sure you'll be a wreck in the morning.

j = jack off (masturbation headcanon)

· since you're together, he does it rarely, only when you're not here to take care of him, but each time he thinks of you, you can take it as a compliment if you want.

k = kink (one or more of their kinks)

· breeding kink — it's not like he tries to actually impregnate you (even though the thought of you having his children makes him feel things), but saying it makes him feel like you're his, and he could do it if he wanted.

· bondage — Yuri likes to pin your wrists sometimes, when he feels like it he uses handcuffs, when it's not around he just holds your wrists with his hand or does it with his shirt.

· sex in clothes — he likes to do it with his uniform on, it makes Yuri feel powerful and authoritative.

then there are a few smaller kinks, like this weird mix of a praise kink and degradation kink, he uses both in the same sentence, like "my pretty little slut", "you're taking me so well, experience, huh?", but if you'd try to degradate him, he'd cry.

l = location (favorite places to do the do)

· obviously bed, sometimes kitchen counter, his office (it's closed, but he likes to think that you're going to be caught and everyone will know that you're completely and utterly his.)

m = motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

· if Yuri was asked what turns him on, he'd say just your name, bluntly.

but to be honest, he loves it when you wear his clothes or when you use his perfumes... it gets him going a lot, to Yuri a great motivation is also jealousy and possessiveness that he experiences a lot. when he sees you talking with other men, he instantly starts kissing you, so if he's very, very jealous, he goes further once you get back home.

n = no (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

· anything that would hurt you — both physically, emotionally and mentally — he would never hurt you purposely, damn, he'd execute himself if that happened, how could he sadden his precious love?

apart from that, Yuri won't like it if you're going to say something degradating to him. he'll cry. "Y/N, why are you so so meaaan??? 😭" (he called you a whore a few minutes ago).

o = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

· as mentioned before, he gets quite embarrassed when he's the one receiving, it's such a pleasure, he always ends up in your mouth... but when he's the one giving it's a whole different story, when he eats you up, he devours you and is delighted while doing that.

p = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

· well... for most of the time, he's rough and fast once he's inside you, but occasionally, when you're feeling bad or insecure, he'll worship and adore you fully and slowly - to make sure you know how much you matter to him and how much he loves everything about you.

q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

· it happens rarely, when he's stressed after or before work and needs some relief, he doesn't really have any opinion on that.

r = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

· is making you blow him under the desk in his office a risk? if you say yes, then he takes risks. the thought of anyone seeing that he makes you so needy and desperate definitely gets him going. he also enjoys experiments from time to time, but not too often.

s = stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

· at the beginning he was able to last for two or three rounds, but he learned to do five or six, he totally would be able to do seven, but it'd make him a wreck the next morning.

t = toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

· nuh uh, toys are not his thing... maybe a mask when you experiment with blindfolding, but not much more, he wants to please you himself, not with any weird help.

u = unfair (how much they like to tease)

· you're so cute when you pout, that's what he thinks after being such a meanie towards you, even though he's quite serious, teasing you is always a fun thing to do.

v = volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

· he's loud. damn it, very loud. he doesn't stop his own whimpers and moans, only when you really want him to.

w = wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

· he gets really, really horny when he's drunk. like when he drinks too much and sees you, he nuzzles to you, and ends up falling asleep on your chest... the next day he doesn't remember what happened.

x = x-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

· i can't write it. i really tried, but it turned so badly.

y = yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

· pretty high — of course it's not like he can't stop himself, but not doing it for a long time makes him feel nervous and... just weird.

when you're not around, he misses you terribly and wants to show it to you and thinks about you constantly.

z = zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

· before going to sleep, Yuri has to check on you. he'll not only ask about your well-being, but also pepper you with kisses, cuddles and sweet words, he won't let you go, not even for a moment, so Yuri will fall asleep only in an hour or two, and only with you in his arms.

the end.

god, i feel so dirty after writing that, but well. it had to be done.

canon. i am endo, it's canon.

He loves it, I know.