content warning: gore, you know how people usually have faces? not here, vent art
i'm just really tired, honestly. real or acting to hide the "worse" parts, i just feel so lonely - for two years i've just wanted to stop being, and that's a long time for me for reasons
it's like i'm always dying but never enough to actually die. it hurts a lot but no one's there to here, and i end up believing things that aren't realistic - maybe i'm invisible, a ghost, a glitch in reality - and it's not that people don't want to talk to me. i don't really know, but whatever it is, it's like the only way "i" am liked is if i'm not me at all, and i get why but it hurts
i'm not usually posting like this, i'm sorry if you don't like it. you can unfollow me if you want because i know it's uncomfortable ^^;
reblog if you believe fanfics are as valid as books that were published and sold by authors who write as their main careers. I'm trying to prove a point
WAIT I WAS JOKING AROUND HAHA
i'm one of the
lesbians
now, woohoo!
by request:
hello lesbians + nick :3 (honorary lesbian)
reblog if you nick is cool
@nykenima
WAIT THIS IS FIRE???
i know someone would like this hehehe
What's your fav Hole song? :3
teenage wh0re and plump
a siren sounds like the goddess who promises endless apologies of paradise...
i'm not following the themes very strictly haha, it isn't obvious except for to me XD
you're getting more lore! in religions around the world, ascension to a higher consciousness is a common theme. and some people think, those who are smarter, who are able, have the right to rule and say what can and can't be. are we out of line? are people inherently sinful?
but when you wish to chase the very top, you'll never be happy - when you're already doing your best...the only way you go higher is by bringing the people around you down
guess who i saw at prrriiiiideee
bonus: guess who i saw at DARK EVIL pride
I mean, fuck, I like bed. I like sleep. I like cozy blankies I like napping, I like to eep. I like Z catching and wink catching and counting sheep. I like doing beddie bye shit. Snooze it? Honk mimi
hey so i’m braindumping but has anyone ever thought abt the transgender potential of like. a member of the fey clan. probably but im gonna talk abt it anyway.
you are small. and the women of your village loom over you in more ways than one. they are different in a way that is unlike you. maybe you are born to one of the powerful ones, a strong bloodline, your ability all but guaranteed. you are fussed over, coddled, the legacy of your mother and her mother and her mother’s mother. you will be powerful one day. but as time passes, you are not. you cannot change your body, cannot change your mind, cannot force yourself into the corners to make room for a new conciousness, be someone you are not. you are different in a way that is unlike them. maybe you wish you could. maybe this shows you something about yourself. maybe all it shows you is that those who coddled you only did so for the power they assumed you would bring them. maybe you are alone. maybe you were only ever meant to be yourself.
ALTERNATIVELY.
you are small. from a young age you know that you are not special. you envy the other girls around you, their community, the hushed whispers you can’t quite hear, the spaces that feel like home but deny you entry. they are a part of something large. you are a fragment, something small, built to support their weight. and yet you grow. there is power in you that people are convinced is wrong. it doesn’t belong to you, they are sure, but it is so familiar. it is you. you find yourself in others. not just the ones you can be, now, the ones whose voices you can return from the dark. the ones who always cared for you, loved you despite and because of whatever you felt had fragmented within you. the ones who knew you were something bigger, something familiar. there is power in finding yourself. there is power in finding home.
RYU CAN DO AN OLLIE?!??!?! DEMONSTRATION PERHAPS pretty please???!??! 🙏🙏🙏
HI SO I AM NOTTTT. an animation whiz so sorry if this is kinda lame LOL. i tried
(btw, the text reads: “pst. are you filming? …ok lock in.” at the end he says “done” :3)
this was also too big to put in gif format so. ryu vid!!
(my fav frames btw… wheee)