Kpop Fans And Morality Is An Interesting Combo. People Actively S*xualize People Who At Times Debut Looking

I never ship real people

and I advise to don't do that. But a few years ago people kept talking about jenkai and my brain is like not normal so I took that and was like wait, what is Kai and Jennie did a steven universe style fusion

this was so funny to me. Cause I was thinking wait, but what if it was like ouran host club and he's like with a group of girls dressed up as one and then poof. It was giving selena, hailey and Kimberly.

like first I was like wait? huh? but then it was so funny cause he could actually be a member.

this is why I need a bedtime, my brain...I will stop now. sigh

Adult Swim Analysis. Kai; Fallen Angel, Messiah and Cult Leader?

So I decided to analyze this music video since nobody does that now and days.

But first the lyrics.

24 year old me pretending I don't know what this is about

but yeah this is one of his only songs where there is no other meaning it's just as dirty as you think it is even though it's the name of a beloved cartoon network.

this is ...

Basically it's a clever and innocent way of referring to s.xual activity. Something younger people are restricted from.

But honestly literally all of his albums are about the same thing. S.x. Well all his title tracks refer to s.x the songs tend to be about either s.x or a relationship.

In the end of rover which is really chronologically the second album, we find him locked away in a cave and calling himself a sinner.

Now in this more modern music video we find he is in the present day with a new more ethnic group of young folks where he is teaching them the art of adult swimming.

He is the only one dancing in the music video other than the girl.

In the first scene we see a melting popsicle. Popsicles are made out of fruit. But it is cold and condensed and you must lick and consume it to get the flavor. So yeah. I mean I don't really expect deeper meanings from his work at this point but like it wouldn't hurt.

Anyway

I don't believe it's a coincidence that the woman is holding the popsicle. Her shirt says forever. If you are going off the metaphor that the forbidden fruit is the anatomy of a woman this is a direct continuation of peaches where not only has nothing about his behavior changed he is also more brazen about it. He is able to openly do this instead of being in a castle, a mountainside or some post apocolyptic temple. He's out in public living freely. As a fallen angel partaking in unheavenly delights.

We also see a bird in a cage so it's possible that these people are trapped and he is feeding off of them.

In peaches and mhmm we met his followers in white and gray garbs that served him in temples and palaces

He is dancing with her and he has an angel wings necklace on and she has a angel wing tattoo on his back. This is super old symbolism with him

In peaches he said it feels good to be the bad guy, so basically he is a vampire and he feeds off his cult members. How interesting. This cult is young and most likely unaware of anything he is or does because they are not worshipping him they are all just hanging out and partying at this sort of group home.

The nice young lady also has a skull and crossbone necklace symbolizing these cult members may have recently been reborn or he is easing them into his lifestyle. Albeit slowly.

Another skull and crossbones just so you know these people are marked for death.

The place is full of meaningful posters and graffiti in english that I believe is trying to communicate to the audience something about what we are seeing, it is a short music video after all.

Right here says "This moment is more precious than you all think" To me this looks like the typical cult phrase. This is not just a group of friends these people all are living together and partying together in this abandoned pool zone.

The angel wings necklace serve to symbolize that although his wings are hidden he still caries them with him in some way shape or form or basically he is still an angel even if he doesn't have his wings. And more than likely he still wants to be worshipped or in charge or a group of people just like he was in mhmm and Peaches. He still craves some type of power and control over others.

Lmao life imitating art or the other way around you never know.

he is also wearing the spiral necklace that was seen in rover.

The spirals symbolize hypnosis.

Implying that he is now exercising this control over his cult members now.

Kai unlike the others is ascended and he has been that way for some time. The others perhaps are newly ascended but under his own direction so he can be seen walking around checking on everything. It is similar to the seen in mhmm when he is looking over the city on the roof, except now there are people instead of an empty technowasteland.

he is almost acting like the lifegaurd of the place

Eventually after looking around he spots a girl with a angel wing tattoo on her back. This sets her apart from the others and is likely symbolic to her being awakened as well.

She notices him looking at her and turnsto him somehow making eye contact even though he's 25 feet in the air. But I suppose it's similar to him being high up like an angel even though he doesn't have wings. Maybe they are saying like his rank and status as an angel is above hers. I don't know for sure.

then he begins dancing by the pool and draws attention to himself

Then later we see a split screen of Kai watching the woman dance, we don't see the shot of him directly watching her but the screen is split in half to show us her dancing and attracting his attention.

It's almost surreal.

We are seeing from his perspective.

Oddly oddly enough we get a close up and see that she is actually nowhere near him so he must be watching her from a long distance

On a yellow bin we see the graffiti words in english titled "Make More."

make more of what exactly?

The girl seems uncomfortable for a split second and seemingly out of nowhere Kai is suddenly right behind her, almost like he spawned randomly.

This music video is so elaborate and subtle it's amazing right after they began dancing this scene with a boy holding a lolipop that says I love you and he is wearing an anhnk

An anhnk in ancient kemet was basically a symbol for the reunification of the masculine and feminine principles. Them being in front of a yellow bin that says make more, wow.

It does make sense because with Kai's last few albums the angel symbology was heavy. She has a pair of inked wings on her back. They are both ascended so to speak, which makes sense why they are the only ones dancing together. Which I thought was odd, there are no other dancers. Which is definitely purposeful. In other music videos he may single out one female dancer but the dance usually contains 5 to 10 people in it. This music video only contains a solo and duet despite having a large amount of people in it.

after the little dance number we see a poster that says

"are you up or what?" Up referring to awakened or higher. In peaches he ascended out of a cave a went to the astral realm where he was able to dream walk.

We also see gender which only points to more questions with what is going on with the characters that we see in this. Are they all friends, are they even all human we don't know.

After this frame we get a scene with two people staring at one another. It seems to be either it's supposed to be representing what is happening between the two main dancers or they are influencing the behavior or the people at the pool.

We also get someone eating a peach which is again a reference to copulation

After this frame they continue their duet in the center of the room

and then they move onto the now empty pool

After they begin dancing the "pool' is now dry having been drained.

Which kind of ties into the he is feeding off of his members. Dancing could be a metaphor for an energetic exchange.

Even when he is shining in the later scenes where his shirt is sparkling

She is actually still behind him dancing in the dark, which is so symbolic. Like what are they doing? I mean I know it's symbolic he's feeding off her energy which is why his shirt is shining even though she is in the dark.

End of part one.

Twin theory part uno

(Long introduction for context)

This one is so old. I did research on this, like, around the time peaches came out. I have way too many notes; some I deleted, and only God knows where they are now. I’m not spending a whole day looking for them, and I need something to focus my attention on that makes my brain cells work. So I’m going off the dome. It’s actually better when I do that because I do active research instead of looking at old notes, and I can find new info. 

So what is the theory? Well, long story short, I had a theory that Kai of EXO was actually a character, which he is technically; all celebs are. They are named by their company, given a backstory, a personality, and Exo even had ‘powers.’. Like, babe, that’s a character, obvi. In this train of thought, a character has to be played by a real person. We are given that much information by the company. The actor playing the character Kai of Exo is Kim Jongin. Story over... right? Well, maybe so, but that’s not how my brain works.

Backstory to this. I actually wasn’t always an inquisitive person. I years ago was actually pretty dull. I spent most of my time worrying about grades, being a good kid, and, I don't know, iCarly, Victorious, and memes. But then I found K-pop; I was super curious about everything because it was so new to me. I had to learn everything I could. This was easy because I liked world history and learning about different cultures and stuff. I think Growl was the first mv I saw. I wasn’t too familiar with K-pop, but I did know it existed, vaguely. To be honest, it was just something taking up my time. I was just monitoring it and watching, learning names. It was during the One Direction era.

(historical context)

One direction the boys that walked so boybands could rise again. People talk bad about them but forget they single-handedly made boybands cool again. There were others, but the impact wasn’t the same. 1D was the blueprint of the up-and-coming boy bands that would later try and break into the American market. They cracked the code. They were parent-friendly but sensual enough to keep the tweens/teens/young adults crushing on them. Fanfiction culture was also impacted. Many forget it was a Harry Styles fanfic that made fanfic normal and somehow socially acceptable enough to come out of the shadows of fandom and be something talked about in media/out in the open. (moral of the story: don’t do them—slander won’t be tolerated)

Anyway, I was familiar with boy band fandom, the shipping, fan service, the weird pandering, etc. The only differences for me were the dancing, the odd music style, and the language. It took some time getting used to. It was so hard getting used to the cultural differences and the style of talking. The odd monologuing/sarcastic banter that’s borderline rude. It was hard to tell when people were being funny or cruel. I still have trouble with that, but years later I realize it’s cultural, but you can tell where people are coming from by their tone.

I say all this to say it was difficult adjusting. I was interested in the group and wanted to know as much about them as possible, BUT I spent so much time trying to learn everything I could, and by the time I became completely accustomed to the behavior and culture and language, I realized I didn’t even like the group that much. The music was good; at the time, the members were okay; sometimes they were funny—but not all the time. Overall, by the 2nd year of being into K-pop, I was like 

IDK—it’s probably just me, but all the drama, gossip, and people caring that grown adults were dating... Like it was so odd because I grew up on J-14.

Going from everybody being super chill about their fave dating, getting married, or having babies to this

Grown adults getting in trouble with their fans... for what? Like it was just weird, and due to hive mentality, I was like coming into agreement with it and thinking, Oh, that’s just how things are over there... like, no." It’s not right. Just so many things were weird, but I said nothing because I didn’t want to be the odd one out.

Cause don’t get me wrong, everybody watches E! news and celeb gossip, and that’s not our business either, but that’s out in the open; that that’s people telling you this is my person, and I am dating them. Yeah, sure, some of it is fake, but it’s openly fake. This is odd because even though these dispatch couples were revealed, they don’t go places together or do interviews talking about one another. There’s a layer of shame because idols are dolls who are ‘dating’ their fans. 

Now I won’t judge; all I’ll say is I got a lot of evidence suggesting this is gonna lead to an AI pixel perfect. 

turned horror movie;

(mobile boyfriend 2009)

where there are apps where you can see, talk to, and text an AI version of your favorite idol 

where you can have a fake version of your idol in your phone, but plot twist: it's a demon... Anyway, I’m getting off track; that’s another thread. The point is stuff was getting weird; I was slowly backing away and just distancing myself, but a few things were keeping me from dropping K-pop and just focusing on school and other stuff. One, like many women, once you invest emotionally into something, it’s hard to leave; two, I was a tad bit concerned about Kai; he was injured around that time.

 and I felt bad about dropping the group because usually when I drop something, it’s for good. I may check up on it out of curiosity, but I will never care (like really care) ever again. So I was teetering.

Eventually I just gave up and decided my mental health and having my head on straight was better than being in a cult.

Long story short, around 2021ish I was like, What’s been going on?" I just went on a journey and became more aware, so somehow I came back to K-pop. To make a long story short.

So when I saw Kai’s face for the first time in a long time, I didn’t really notice anything too different. Slightly, but I thought maybe it was just aging, plastic surgery, fillers; I really didn’t know, but something was off.

So I started looking at his photos, and at this point he had released a lot of his old childhood photos. And again it wasn’t too drastic, but I’m not normal; I was looking hard. 

Now, a disclaimer: this isn’t proof of anything; it’s just stuff I notice. I talk a lot, but it’s just brain ideas coming out to breathe. It’s more so just to make people see a different perspective. Use your creativity. Life is as interesting as you make it.

So when I started looking at the photos, I first paid attention to the thing that, if different, couldn’t be a coincidence; there’s no way these body parts can just change over time or with p.s. That means the face can be used but only sort of. Plastic surgery can change a lot, but upkeep changes more than the initial surgery. No surgery equals perfection, and after the surgery, minor surgeries afterwards are necessary. So it’s necessary to look at childhood photos to understand the initial facial structure (which can change but only so much); they more so develop or morph, elongate, etc., but only so much. I’d say like 90 percent of the time, most people can recognize someone from child to adult by the small features: the way they smile, or the way their teeth look, or their ears, or their eye shape. Plastic surgery is... it’s a thing, but as long as it’s not total facial reconstruction, it’s a nonfactor. You can usually tell what’s unnatural by looking at childhood photos.

Anyway, I looked and looked and looked, and I don’t know for sure now because it’s been a while since I’ve even considered this, but I trust my notes, and I remember I took a lot of notes, and it is one of the only theories I’ve given my golden stamp of approval. This is why I’m talking so much in the buildup. This isn’t some joke. I’m not saying it’s true, but I did work hard on it. If I could find my old notes, I’d copy and paste it, but it’d take me all day to look for it.

Okay. The theory. Twins.

Ahh, okay, I’m kinda excited it’s been so long. Okay. So I think what I thought was that it was a pair of fraternal twins. The reason why I said fraternal and identical is in theory if this is two people pretending to be one person...they don’t even look that much alike. They feature one another a lot but it’s not mirror twins which is odd because you’d think if an entertainment company was to pull one over and have a pair of twins play a single person they’d go for a parent trap deal

Theoretically, I thought maybe it was more of a Mary-kay and Ashley type of situation

who are not identical; they are fraternal. They just look extremely alike. How do people tell them apart? Well, now they look different because of different external stimuli that have an affect on appearance, but back when they used to look more alike, just watching their movies year after year it’s quite clear do to vocal tone, mannerisms, and behavior that they are two different people. It simply takes observation.

I have to sadly make a list because it’ll be too unorganized otherwise.

First I’ll put physical characteristics that are definite and most consistent. Meaning you can see the physical traits in childhood, adolescence, and adulthood.

Uneven ears: 

Baby—toddler

Childhood / adolescence

Adulthood

Now adulthood is very tricky because the adult bone structure set in at around 16-18, and the cheekbone and skull make the ears appear small when really they are probably normal-sized; he just has a big head. So I’m just going to show the ears, both left and right, at an angle because it’s pretty much impossible to see them when he’s staring straight ahead. P.S. I don’t know what’s digitally edited or not, so I prefer candid pics, but it’s not good quality to see the details of the ear, so... it’s so-so. But ear prints, like fingerprints, may be similar for identical twins, but they’re not identical. 

To be continued.

My crashout rambles must mean something

apparently they had black stylists, I may not have been completely right about the album theme but I was close enough.

close enough is good

I kinda felt bad for going on a unhinged rant about the awful s.m entertainment stylists and how they should be barred from doing anyone's hair. Also what I said about their untrained untalented stylists and that baddies and bad girls club had better hairstylists than them. I hate being rude, but if it made them reconsider to be clear I honestly don't care. Man I hope that man never is able to touch anyone's scalp ever again. I actually have a collection of the various scalp burns I've seen on about half a dozen kpop idols. I was this close with filing a report but I don't even know how that would work. But honestly I will say this, social media is observed by teams of people constantly to see how people are feeling about certain things. Apparently they do observe and see what people are loving and hating. I never wanted to spread negativity to those unqualified people and some of my tweets went a little to far and for that I am sorry. But at the same time there are hundreds of very good qualified stylists who take EXTREMELY good care of people edges, scalps and hair. Why not hire them. Especially if it's affordable. No one should have bald spots or scalp burns due to someone's lack of know how.

I've even seen him have bleach almost on people's ears, that can lead to burns. I'm sorry but if my family taught me anything sometimes you HAVE to open your mouth and say something when something wrong is happening. You have to, wrong is wrong even if the person is well beloved and famous. Even if the particular stylists wasn't working on his hair at least they are trying to find qualified people it's a start.

Everytime I feel like this I just make a poster for my book or go on chat gtp to just play around with the story to see if it's something I actually want to write. Then I can see a draft of my work and see if I actually want to waste time and energy on it.

I hate not feeling motivated to write anything.

My mind is just blank. Like the static on a TV. Just...nothing.

I worry I won't be able to tell this story well at all. It's so ambitious, complex....I don't know what to do.

And yet I want to get this story out there. I have faith in its concept and its themes and characters. And still, despite that, I just...can't do it. It's such agony.

20 Years of The Lizzie McGuire Movie (May 2nd, 2003)

meal inspo

When i see this my microbiome screams. In reality this is super overpriced but it makes me see veggies positively and helps me stick to the journey

SHUSH.... he's reading