FRIDOLIN

Pusteblumen daran erinnerst du mich

Idk

Sunshine dandelions the sea,,,, Kastanienbäume,,, sea shells!!!

summer but not like beach tropical moreso those quiet warm evenings when the sun is going down and it tints the sky golden the months july and august

Very pretty you don't see it but I do,,,,, I have to violently stop myself from looking at you (mission failed miserably) I like the way you sound especially when you laugh it makes me very happy

You're kind, you may be anxious and get jittery in public but you're a very kind and usually gentle person (at least with me) and I like the way your brain works,,,, I also find your attempts of joke-violence funny, the jabs you make at others and the way you talk about the things you love makes me shiver (in a good way)

you're very creative and also very *very* goofy... Lovably so,,,, you live rentfree in my head especially in my dreams,,, every time you apologize for not being good at reciprocating I die internally you DON'T NEED TO DO THAT!!!! I'm okay with what we have more than that I'm gonna explode the love you give me is more than enough You already have me giggling kicking my feet and shit I would probably turn into a puddle

I ALREADY TURN INTO A PUDDLE!!! my favorite things are when you pat my head or just play around with my fingers (very pain relieving too)

You soothe and dull my body-wide pain immensely just by existing next to me (apparently that's a science backed up thing) which really just tells me how much I love you,,,, also you make me really sleepy and calm suddenly my violent urges are dead and gone and that's really nice,,,, I'm always aching for days on end just from being gently poked/touched or simply wearing clothes but the aches you leave on my body whether from hugging or whatever else actually feel pleasant, like something I can cherish,,,,,,

I would go to say you've reclaimed my body from the abuse I've suffered to a point where I can associate it with us rather than my aggressors but I don't know if that sounds weird,,,,,

but that's not you attributes more me attributes sifbdkfbf I'm getting gayly off track,,, how could I not??? I've been a fool for you for nearly 9 years,,,, foolmaxxing or something,,, you've saved my life on so many different occasions and you probably don't even know

Overall you're very dear to me I love you so much and I'm gonna kiss you (gently,,,, lovingly and on the cheek,,,,,)

Yap yap yap ..

Really thinking about how people who know me all have different perceptions of me is very funny to me

Like what

Especially when it's people I don't know irl the idea is very silly to me

Mini yap of active brain decay

My artblock is horrendously picky

Tyrant ... as the wisteria maiden ..??

I wanted to work on lore related stuff

But my weird artblock only let me draw this..... I like it tho 🎉

The baby

The tiny

The creature

Arceus' unfortunate son

What's it with family and buying bootlegs

My dad bought me a bootleg sakura miku noodle stopper once lmao

HELP MY AUNT ACCIDENTALLY BOUGHT ONE OF THOSE BOOTLEG CHANCE PLUSHIES (added, after I already bought the official one) AFTER I TOLD HER ABOUT MY FORSAKEN ADDICTION AND I AM LOSING IT

I keep getting spam messages so I gotta tell them I have a beautiful husband (boyfriend) at home (near me by online standards but bro still lives 45 minutes away by car) ⋌༼ •̀ ⌂ •́ ༽⋋

Hey look, me mentioned!!!!!!!! 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ Giggles

Except I have no clue who to tag either and I don’t wanna double tag someone who’s been tagged before errrrrrrr

@itzmintyleafx @coqui-studios

Be doomed with @ notif

 A friend threatened me to repost so I will!

Basically, there r tons of fake asses on tumblr who just want comments and followers, so someone started this to see who's actually a good friend. Everyone I tag better repost (and tag other people and preferably threaten them in a creative way as well) bc I'm high on caffeine and newfound lesbianism and will resort to violence.

@ey-theys-was-coronas

@fangirlhehe

I would tag more people but they're the only ones I've really interacted with-

Mmmm more Ryver stuff

Named Ryver, he's Bede's personal problem. He's notoriously bad at catching pokemon, you could give him a master ball and even if he tried catching a common pokemon it'd probably still get away....

Him in the game, since his joyous details aren't as possible... (￣∇￣’)

Here's his ref-sheet!

... As well as his dynamax ref-sheet ˙˚ʚ(´◡`)ɞ˚˙

Small lore summary:

He's part pokemon (Zoroark), his mother was half, so he's 1/4th technically. Since he has a human body, even if part pokemon, his dynamax works differently; it's based on his emotions! If he feels something very strongly, like anger or sadness, he may dynamax (ˊ˘ˋ)

In that state he's basically in a frenzy of sorts.. He also grows a mere centimeter (he's 5'2/ 159cm!) and will (try to) destroy opponents/objects he doesn't like or are in his path. Staying too long in dynamax will affect him mentally and breaks his bones! Σ(゜゜) the only one who knows about this is Bede (and post-game Author knows too), because when Ryver was brought to the orphanage (in a cardboard box full of clothing donations) Bede snatched the letter attached to the half suffocated boy and read it, promptly regretting it upon finding out Ryver's origins. Now Bede feels sort of responsible for the “timid idiot”, making sure he *doesn't* dynamax in front of others or anything of the sort..

If there's Bede, Ryver will be somewhere nearby, though probably hiding. Most of his team was gifted to him by Chairman Rose or Bede

His Hatterene works similarly to a service animal! Bede trained it so when he's not there, Hatterene will watch over Ryver (which is why he often walks so slow, to let Hatterene catch up). His Hatterene does not fight unless absolutely necessary. When it realizes Ryver is stressed or about to dynamax, it will knock him out! Then likely drag him off to Bede (or Author..) He avoids pokemon battles (because of his dynamax-ing; this is unconsciously though as he isn't told about this thing of his until after the Bede kidnapping Opal did...)

After said confession Ryver dynamaxed out of stress he received from being told the truth ∑(๑ºº๑)!!

Fruitbowl's shingi mention ...

More unsolicited trivia !

A lot less than what I have for Fruitbowl BUT

On his own Kogitsune's physical form is o l d, when 'merged' with Fruitbowl he temporarily turns young again. But that's not usually visible since he's wearing a mask 90% of the time.

Fruitbowl has ... only the name Fruitbowl. He introduces himself either literally as Fruitbowl, or simply as 'a medicine seller'. His shingi gets the name Lǚ, but he's given the nickname Kogitsune by Fruitbowl as a reference to the play from which basically his entire appearance comes from. Lǚ himself feels conflicted about this nickname.

My sillies 🩷 They get along well on occasion !!

I forgot to post this even though I wanted to........... Thank you sm @williceunleashed for drawing Korelin (again) this is my whole personality rn

Prepare for me to return next month /hj

Intro post that is overdue

Hi, I'm NURSEFAILURE!!! Except that is nawt my name obviously that's just my branding (???)

I'm Ryver!! I am a queer (fuck labels) west-german (MINOR) dude who spends too much time nitpicking at his own code and contemplating whether to actually do something or just procrastinate and scroll on tumblr/twitter/tiktok for hours...

I go exclusively by He/Him and masc/neutral terms, though I AM Agender!!! Except that's just what I paste for clarity because the concept of gender doesn't make sense to me lmao I'm just me bro

My interests lie in a variety of things, such as coding, writing, playing games (like NIKKE, lots of Visual novels, cookie run, pokemon...) And more. One of my biggest current interests is SW and the nightlife industry, but not from an angle of appeal and moreso the topic as a whole! It's insanely interesting to me and my sona is based on kyabakura hostesses for that same reason RAHH

I am taken!! I have been for about 2.9 years (as of 14.05.25) and that by my absolute godsend sunshine of a partner ( @certifiedsungod ) , talking about him is a big chunk of my personality so like beware /silly

I am a(n aspiring) game dev, specifically the founder of LUMAR EXPRESS ENTERTAINMENT 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ .... Which consists of exactly three depressed homos (me, the coder and writer, Phrog the artist #1 and musician and Liv the artist #2 and emotional support) but that's besides the point LOL

I love thinking about my projects, specifically PROJECT LUMAR.... huge ginormous projects that I want to make my career (hopefully)

PROJECT LUMAR is a category of projects I have crammed into the same overall world,, LUMAR!! Wow you couldn't have guessed that huh /j anyhow..

LUMAR encompasses 355 countries as of present time in lore (yes, I do enjoy torturing myself) and the projects work to bring awareness to a variety of topics while also encouraging proper representation with well-written lore. (No one stays one dimensional in MY household) As of now we're still in the concept stage and will remain buried there for a LONG time,,,

Currently we only have one MC finished and designed and that is coincidentally my sona.... Ryver Miya’moro! Before you ask he literally had the name Ryver first I literally snatched it off of him and it's been my irl and online name since 🙂‍↕️

Now that I have mentioned my shayla I obviously have to talk about him

Art by my beloved, aka certifiedsungod

Ryver Miya’moro

(“Ryver” lumarian for “to be wrathful/wrath-filled + Miya’moro, lumarian for courageous (Miiyaa) and beast (mo’oro) )

Is the #1 hostess of Kiyokami (located within the region TRAP’E MAR KAMIR, lumarian “ki’yyo” defining + “ka’mi” future, a cyberpunk “paradise” known for its nightlife and racing) as well as a champion racer who frequently wins international cups.

He may be a trans man, but he uses the fact of being afab to his advantage to garner fame and love from people in Kiyokami and even internationally. He works at IIKO++, a popular hostess club known for its bunny (suit) theme owned by his adoptive mother with his adoptive siblings.

Logo of IIKO++ in lumarian, designed by me!

Outside of work Ryver is way more timid, preferring to be cooped up in his penthouse apartment that is part of a complex belonging to his racing team. He spends his time collecting figures of his favorite queer pairings, being especially picky about food, buying all sorts of things with his boundless amounts of money (and overspending on charities), coding, posting freaky stuff on social media for his fans or working on androids. Yes, robots! He loved building those and will fight tooth and nail to build you a functional prosthetic if you even *dare* to exist next to him with an old looking one.

When not in his half-bubbly half-freakish-dominatrix hostess sona he's generally a MEANIE. In the sense he'll gladly tell you to fuck off if you get an inch too close to him. He has mood swings and anger issues (which shine when he's on the race track, he's Kiyokami's very own Max Verstappen) but he's mostly angry due to unexplained pain in his whole body.. (Wow I wonder who that is based on!! Haha...) He prefers being on his own but usually doesn't mind company unless said company is annoying.

He owns a pet bunny called Cookie, a white fur ball with black and brown spots. A feral creature. She bites. She will bite you in the ass. Watch out.

Errr I can't say too much I'll be spoiling future games so you get basic information yay!!

Back to ME over my sona uehehe...

I have a spending problem I love commissioning artists UAUAUAJAJAUUA

“nursefailure” aka my whole branding comes from my trauma regarding hospitals, I use hospital related stuff to expose myself to it and cope with what happened there. It is really really dear to me because it keeps me from TWEAKING OUT /j

I also go by “hostessfailure” for similar reasons. I don't like unhealthy coping mechanisms (2 years SH clean, baby!) Annnd using my interest in nightlife and hospital stuff to cope with all the SHIT life puts me through really really helps!! So no I will unlikely conform to the idea that teens aren't supposed to talk about sexual shit. I am COPING!!!! I have HORMONES!!!!!! (And hypersexuality) learning and coping using this stuff is keeping me healthy and as close to happy as I can get in my current environment

Before you come with internet safety; yes, I know. But I also have a group of friends I can unleash on any hoe trying any funny shit + it's an integral part of interacting with me so it IS kinda important because I tend to ramble about it.

That out of the way I WILL massively try to befriend you! social interaction is scared of me!!! Jokes aside I am social. When I want to be. 90% of the time I just don't want to.

I don't have a strict dni (they don't make sense to me) but I WILL block freely. Also if you don't like my partner for any ungodly reason I will bite you and I will not wanna conform to your shit nonsense!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also don't stalk me that's fucking weird

Uhh BYI I swear a lot!!! I make sexual jokes, not about people but just in general!!!!! I have strict opinions, especially politically and I will loudly voice them!!! I can be self-deprecating without realizing it. I joke about a lot of my trauma to cope. I am prone to talking about my partner a TON so if you don't like that get out. I have a problem of trying to correct people (trying to be helpful) but I understand if you don't enjoy that.

I talk about the stupid unexplained pain I have, bodywide pain that sometimes is near immobilizing for me!!!!!! Yes I'm getting test after test rn,,,,, doctor stop snatching my blood I'm gonna go dryyyyyy /silly

Oh yeah also if your ass is friends with the groomer (floof18 / lucindaraptor) and won't let me educate you on WHY they're a pedophile and a creep I don't wanna talk to you!!!

Some of the tags I use frequently!!

#nursefailure posting — everything me

#ryver shitposts — reposts and other bs

#returninglotus — me && beloveds gayass pokemon bw ocs!!

Anyways that's it yeay I may punch more stuff in in thefuture