8 Months Of Living To Please My Soul

there is something so beautiful about a man that is both transgender and a boy kisser

mlm blogs hitting “post” after typing “boys”

hey (with the intention of sharing a clementine with you) 

suki: *exists*

zuko: *exists*

sokka:

I want to live there

TRANS MAC TRUTHERS YESSSS

woke up thinking about trans mac…

luther let him transition as a child because he wanted a son instead of a daughter anyway, so it benefits him as well as mac, but it’s all under the circumstances that it’s very hush hush and nobody finds out so that “shame” isn’t brought to their family

mac is incredibly performatively hyper-masculine because he feels the need to compensate for being born in a girl’s body

he pretends not to be gay because in his and luther’s mind, being trans is “bad enough” as it is. he was also taught to associate being gay with femininity

gets hormones/surgery with the money he makes dealing weed at high school and whilst working at the ice rink

literally has a therapist tell him he has body dysmorphia, but specifically in the sense that he worries about being too small or frail… i.e, too feminine, not masculine enough. sounds like gender dysphoria to me, pal

“button in a fur coat” = metoidioplasty or clit growth

charlie knows because he’s known charlie for the longest and as a younger kid there’s only so much he could keep secret from his best friend, but charlie forgets that mac was born female by frying his brains with glue and other inhalants

going really hard on the homophobia to compensate for being trans

we only see mac get with one other person in the whole show that lasts more than a hasty hook up… carmen. he sought her out, protested just enough to make him look like he’s weirded out by her being trans, but actually, is the whole reason he sought her out in the first place. if he can’t allow himself to be gay, then then second best option after that is to be with another trans person, somebody who will at the very least understand

the internalised transphobia ends up becoming externalised, ending their relationship. he focuses on the fact that she’s pre-op and doesn’t care to hide it that much, because he’s deep down, envious that she doesn’t hide being trans whilst he’s spent his whole life living in shame and fear that people would find out

when he does come out as gay, it takes a while to breach the topic with luther. before he comes out to him, he spends ages getting absolutely shredded, aka masculine, the most physically masculine he can possibly get himself. only then can he stand in front of his father and say that he’s gay — because he needs to make up for the associated femininity with being gay when it’s in front of him. either way, luther stands up and leaves, so mac stops holding onto the masculine front and allows himself to curl up into a woman’s lap and cry for (i think) the only time on screen

claiming to be a top so valiantly because he associates getting fucked and bottoming with “being the woman”, even if he isn’t a top deep down. he stops pretending to be a top after coming out to and losing luther (the pressure to rid himself of femininity)

also i swear to god. i swear to god he has visible scars in global warming.

what if we sat together on the cool grass and looked up at the sunset i'm wearing your sweater to keep me warm, we both feel alive with the buzz of tension and the heat of something new, our hands edge closer and closer throughout the night but we dare not touch it would be too much

Let me show you how much I love you in every meal I cook for you, every tea I brew for you, every treat I bake for you

Let me show you how much I love you in every daydream I share with you, every idea I show you, every dumb thought I tell you

Let me show you how much I love you in every time I tell you where you left your phone, every time I remind you of something you need to do, every little thing I remember about you

Let me scream my love for you in every little moment and let me be heard because you deserve to hear it

MENS TITS!!!! MEN WITH BOOBS!! MOOBS!!!! I LOVE MAN TIDDIES <33333