Sometimes I Forget We Have Cult Trauma

MEET NEOGLOWRATZ

•21

•he/they/it/rat/ze

•DID, NPD, ADHD, ASD, OCD, Bipolar, GERD, EDS, Gastroparesis, POTS, MCAS, Scoliosis

•This is my chaos blog, kinda just post whatever on here

•We have a seperate blog for our littles and a few other specific alter blogs (not willing to share them on this account)

Our ao3 account is A2idB1u3

Fandoms we write for:

•Marauders

•Spiderman/MCU/Team Red

•Batfam

•Creepypasta/Slendervers

•Teenwolf

•Six of Crows/Shadow and Bone

•The Pitt

It’s like talking about alters as “whole people” makes DID more palatable for others somehow.  If they can view us as just this quirky cast of characters who happen to share a body then it’s less sad, or maybe even less disturbing. They can reframe it into something that might even sound fun or beneficial to them, like “3 friends for the price of 1!” 

I’m starting to think that viewing us as one whole traumatized person with many dissociated parts is just too depressing and too “weird” for a lot of people. It’s harder for them to wrap their heads around. They can’t grasp the way we are both disconnected from each other and still a part of each other. They can’t make sense of the way we overlap and blend together. We don’t fit into neat little boxes. We aren’t a straight forward cast of characters. 

Day three and the drowsiness has hit us hard. Literally spent most of the past fourty eight hours asleep.

Also extremely apathetic rn. Like legit unable to feel emotions and its kinda overwhelming me but at the same time im not able to emotionally react to being overwhelmed so maybe its more like underwhelming me. I hate feeling like this sm but also its kinda better than how i normally feel so its kinda like damn tf do i do

Night One of being on lamotrigine for my bipolar

tried latuda back in november/december and had some bad physical reactions so heres to hoping this time goes better

will say i was hoping to get the drowsy side effect tonight like i normally get from new psych meds but thats not happening at all which kinda sucks ass, was hoping to be able to sleep lol

I'm hoping no one here still sees Legion (legion.sys on TikTok) as a legitimate source of information, but just in case you do, you should probably know that they have recently:

Gone 100% down the radfem/TERF pipeline

Made fun of the male suicide rate and complained about Men's Mental Health Month (their excuse is that they don't want it to be during Pride Month, but considering they openly call themselves a "proud misandrist", I don't think it matters to them whether or not Men's Mental Health Month is in June)

Derailed conversations about the genocide in Gaza in order to rant and make bizarre accusations about Israel running a "multinational trafficking ring" in the United States and United Kingdom, decentering actual victims of genocide in order to talk about RAMCOA instead and imply that there are people in the US and UK who are "directly affected" by the genocide instead of, you know, the actual Palestinians being murdered; said that the genocide itself is RAMCOA

Said that surrogacy and adoption are both forms of human trafficking, referred to adoptive parents as "PIEs" or "parent-identified exploiters"

Posted islamophobic and anti-religious content; saying that "islam supports pedophilia" and that "all abrahamic religions" are misogynistic and that you cannot be feminist and religious simultaneously, and

Spread egregious misinformation about ME/CFS, its symptoms and its diagnostic criteria that is easily disproved with basic Google searches; specifically coming up with non-existent "levels" of ME/CFS and stating that ME/CFS results in the growth of white matter in the brain when it's actually associated with the opposite

struggling so hard with whats real and whats not rn

we keep having super vivid dreams that are definitely reflecting some personal experiences and fears but they just are set in like our day to day life situations and its terrifying waking up and not knowing if it really happened or not

heres my wacky opinion of the day:

DBT is useless for people with dissociative disorders and i think it needs to be talked more about how and why

JUST WATCHED THE NEW EPISODE OF DAREDEVIL BORNA AGAIN

AT THE THAT IS NOT MY SHAYLA HE WOULD NEVER

CANT WAIT FOR HIM TO COME BEAT ALL THE COPS ASSES

sidenote i am also most definitely waiting for matt to crash tf out, its gonna happen, man is going to lose his marbles

when you probably have POTS and then develop heartbreak syndrome on top of that like damn our heart is trying to kill us

fucking homosexual

are you gay

Absolutely not. You may be my fiance but no I am extremely homophobic /j

- Punz

Yes, he is

- Dream

I am not

- Punz