When The DID Be DID-ing

fuck it, you know what? i want to be stuck in the middle of a love triangle right now

Can we talk about this possible parallel??

When Osiris died, Isis never stopped looking for his body or loving him after Set had killed him. And then, Layla going on her own mission to avenge her dead husband after Harrow killed him. Or the fact that Marc gave up paradise - the quietness he has always wanted - to be with Steven.

I get it's implied Osiris opened the gate because he knew Marc needed to return to defeat Ammit, but I like one of those ideas being the reason. Especially since Taweret called Osiris an old sofie.

ROBBY AND FRANK'S DYNAMIC ON THE PITT IS SO SIMILAR TO FRANK AND BILLY'S DYNAMIC IN THE PUNISHER TV SERIES

i was wondering why i like them so much and now i have my answer

Day three and the drowsiness has hit us hard. Literally spent most of the past fourty eight hours asleep.

Also extremely apathetic rn. Like legit unable to feel emotions and its kinda overwhelming me but at the same time im not able to emotionally react to being overwhelmed so maybe its more like underwhelming me. I hate feeling like this sm but also its kinda better than how i normally feel so its kinda like damn tf do i do

Night One of being on lamotrigine for my bipolar

tried latuda back in november/december and had some bad physical reactions so heres to hoping this time goes better

will say i was hoping to get the drowsy side effect tonight like i normally get from new psych meds but thats not happening at all which kinda sucks ass, was hoping to be able to sleep lol

Alright! So now that Moon Knight episode one is out I’d like to talk about it!

So first off! I thought that it was actually incredibly well written and portrayed D.I.D. almost perfectly. It showcased a lot of the issues most of us deal with (the waking up somewhere else, the sleep issues in general, the paranoia, the awkwardness of not knowing whats going on so you cant tell people whats wrong and such, and the just general questioning of reality). It was honestly extremely similar for us when we first started discovering the system and stuff.

So yea! I definitely liked it and am really excited to see where the rest of it goes!

But! I’ve already seen some posts and stuff about Steven and I want you all to remember that Steven is a grown man. While yes he may be confused and not know what’s going on do not treat him like some poor thing that needs to be protected at all costs. He’s just trying to live his life while slowly discovering the other alters in the system!

I would also like to mention please please please don’t refer to the alters as personalities! Personalities is a term originating from when D.I.D. used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder. The name for the disorder was changed because of new research and the fact that we are not personalities!!! Alters are their own people and you should not refer to them as personalities!!!

you 🤝 us

having gishaverse introjects

our jesper age slides like its a slip n slide and our kaz takes care of him most of the time when hes not regressed, and our inej and aleksander are caretakers too

AGE REGRESSOR KAZ PART TWO

If Jesper and Inej are in the know:

-jesper would play with him (hc jes regresses to ~10-12)

-inej would be extra protective of her boys

-inej and jesper would absolutely dote on their boy like he needs a snack? jesper's on it. a drink? inej is already holding it

-they would take turns covering for kaz when it comes to work stuff

-jesper likes to tell him stories his mom used to tell him and inej likes to tell him the stories of her saints

-they sit right next to him so he can feel their body heats and know that theyre there even tho he cant deal with touch

-if theyre gone for too long he starts slipping younger and crying

-eventually they work up to being able to scratch his head (kaz deserves head scratches gosh darn it) and he absolutely melts into them

-jesper gets kaz a soft and warm blanket made out of a patchwork of brightly colored fabrics that match some of his outfits so that he always has a part of him with him

-jesper also makes little metal toys for kaz to enjoy

-inej tracks down sweets and

more stuffed animals for kaz to enjoy

-JESPER ABSOLUTELY GETS HIM A STUFFED GOAT NAMED MILO

part one

It's insane when RAMCOA deniers will say "mind control and brainwashing doesn't exist", "this specific type of organized abuse doesn't exist", and "nobody will ever believe your absurd story" when there are documentaries of stories of this stuff that also doesn't feed into the Satanic Panic y'all cry about RAMCOA spreading. Please watch Jan Broberg's documentary "Abducted In Plain Sight". Please watch the 90s documentary about The Children Of God organization. Look at the COUNTLESS Epstein documentaries. It exists and us victims are not making up "absurd stories". Ffs this shit is STILL going on, look at the shit going on in the Catholic church and many other churches. Look at the fucking P-Diddy case. RAMCOA, especially RA and MC, exists and is still going on.

And fuck off with the "the abuse exists, RAMCOA doesn't" because that makes no sense and you sound like a fucking dumbass. This type of abuse exists but at the same time it doesn't?? Fuck off. "Noooo the conspiracies don't exist" then say the conspiracies ABOUT RAMCOA doesn't exist not that RAMCOA is one in itself. Because it's not, there's just conspiracies ABOUT it that definitely don't exist and absolutely need to be called out. But RAMCOA being a conspiracy in itself?? It's not it's just a term for a specific type of abuse. Calling a term for a specific type of abuse a conspiracy is basically saying the abuse itself doesn't exist and is a conspiracy. Which is fucked because the topics in the documentaries and ongoing cases I mentioned counts as RAMCOA.

sometimes we want to find sourcemates for no other reason than to send memes to

like me (stiles), jason (todd) and tim (drake) really be out here like gimme someone to send fuckin memes to and laugh about source jokes

i think youre last sentence sort of summed up how we think about being plural and thats why we struggle with the idea of it being an identity on its own instead of being something that contributes to your identities.

like being multiple parts contributes to our gender identity 100% but its not its own identity seperate from that.

it also feels like saying it is is more of a way to describe it to singlets which would make sense. but i dont really enjoy having specific words and such that put us all into smaller categories so singlets can understand. its why we avoid using specific parts language outside of some of the therapy specific words.

why tf do endos treat being a system like its an identity that you can pick and choose to label? why do they constantly push the transphobic rhetoric of using "traumascum" to refer to traumatized individuals that just dont want people to treat their symptoms like its fun?

being plural/being a system is nothing like being lgbtq+ and i really think we need to stop treating it as such

yes we are a community, but this community is one formed on the basis of being traumatized as kids, its not based on something we choose to refer to ourselves as

we need to be there to support each other but not blindly. we need to help spread information to others with the symptoms so they can receive help.

you wouldnt treat people with personality disorders the way you treat systems so why is it acceptable to treat systems this way?

KAZ AS AN AGE REGRESSOR

-when hes having a bad pain day he slips younger easier

-flashbacks happen more easily when hes regressed

-emotional quiet (and clingy) little

-hides away when he regresses but it makes him sad that he doesnt have jesper and inej around him

-has a stuffed animal his brother gave him

-curls up in his comfiest clothes and plays with his stuffie when small

-talks outloud to himself for comfort

-gets upset with himself for regressing when he stops being small

-naps so much, always so eepy

part two