[Text: This System Is Open To Non-invasive Questions.]

HEY THAT WAS ME OMG

Somebody hacked my brain and wrote a Batfamily x Pitt AU because they’re BRILLIANT and want me to keel over

https://archiveofourown.org/chapters/165662770?show_comments=true&view_full_work=false#comment_898555285

yea exactly its shaped your identity. its a defining characteristic of your identity but ptsd is not just an identity like being trans or gay is.

why tf do endos treat being a system like its an identity that you can pick and choose to label? why do they constantly push the transphobic rhetoric of using "traumascum" to refer to traumatized individuals that just dont want people to treat their symptoms like its fun?

being plural/being a system is nothing like being lgbtq+ and i really think we need to stop treating it as such

yes we are a community, but this community is one formed on the basis of being traumatized as kids, its not based on something we choose to refer to ourselves as

we need to be there to support each other but not blindly. we need to help spread information to others with the symptoms so they can receive help.

you wouldnt treat people with personality disorders the way you treat systems so why is it acceptable to treat systems this way?

moon knight fulfills my childhood obsession with ancient egypt and my adult obsession with oscar isaac

NPD crash + BPD splitting culture is Turbulent by Waterparks

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ok ok so this might sound a bit gross so like if you arent prepared please keep scrolling

to my fellow gastroparesis havers, how do you manage the taste in your mouth? like the disgusting taste of rancid food thats sitting in your stomach? because thats all ive been tasting for days (and its definitely my fault cause i ate a whole bunch of ice cream and junk food) but i cant get it to go away at all and the last time this happened to this extent i ended up throwing it all up

so please give me tips if you have them

it impacts it in the same way bipolar or ptsd does. that doesnt make bipolar or ptsd an identity.

why tf do endos treat being a system like its an identity that you can pick and choose to label? why do they constantly push the transphobic rhetoric of using "traumascum" to refer to traumatized individuals that just dont want people to treat their symptoms like its fun?

being plural/being a system is nothing like being lgbtq+ and i really think we need to stop treating it as such

yes we are a community, but this community is one formed on the basis of being traumatized as kids, its not based on something we choose to refer to ourselves as

we need to be there to support each other but not blindly. we need to help spread information to others with the symptoms so they can receive help.

you wouldnt treat people with personality disorders the way you treat systems so why is it acceptable to treat systems this way?

this year was just nto the year for love for us i dont think.

we started off by getting broken up with by our longterm (four year) partner

then ghosted by our other partner

then was pulled along by a friend who almost seemed to like us

and now weve been broken up with by our year long partner

im kind of just unfeeling about it now, like ive gone through so much outside the realm of love recently and this breakup is just sort of an addition to the growing pile of things i have to eventually deal with. it does help a bit that we have so many friends that we just didnt really talk to much anymore because we didnt see the need to. we saw our future in black and white. wed get through college, get married, move in together, and grow old. i didnt see the need to have any friends included in that outside of my partner’s friends. but now im kind of realizing that that was just the black and white thinking of my autism, i still am human, i still need friends, and now that im losing several because its very likely they wont talk to me anymore now that our fiancé broke it off, i need them more than ever. and so i messaged a few of my older ones, ones that i havent talked to in months, ones that before my fiancé i thought of as my closest most reliable friends and it really cheered me up. hearing them call me bestie and go crazy as i told them whats happened, about me graduating, about me getting a job, about me going to college, and about me getting my diagnosises. and it really made me realize that if someone isnt willing to put in effort to help a relationship grow properly then i shouldnt be expected to either. i guess my fiancé was right about that part, i did put a lot of effort into our relationship and they didnt. i wish they had so we couldve avoided this mess but truly im almost glad now because i would have missed out on realizing that so many people care about me and really would hate it if i just disappeared off the earth. like all these people would miss me so dearly and thats helping me really think through so many of my issues right not. a lot of my stress related to thinking i wasnt good enough or that i wasnt trying to be what they wanted me to be is just sort of gone because these people are my people and they know me for me. these people ive started talking to again have known me for almost as long as the system was known. and im glad to see that i dont have to hide certain parts of myself or pretend to be someone else around them. -sully

{disclaimer: if my ex sees this, this isnt meant as something negative towards you, you tried your hardest and well always love you for that, im sorry it came to this and we really would love to at elast still be friends. this post is just us having the realization that we arent alone and were allowed to have friends outside of you and your friends}

Narcissistic culture is not understanding why people care that a celebrity died. Bitch, that’s a stranger, how are you so upset right now?

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maybe some npd positivity or rescources on how someone with npd can recover?

hey! i hope you're well <3

here are some articles i found:

narcissism self help website

how to stop being a narcissist

14 tips on how to not be a narcissist

how to stop being a narcissist: 8 key steps

yes, narcissists can change (here's how)

what it's like to be a diagnosed narcissist

how to stop being a narcissist according to 11 experts

the arduous work of treating narcissism: a therapist's guide

self-help for narcissists

7 steps to changing your narcissistic responses

10 stages in the treatment of narcissistic disorders

how to treat narcissistic personality disorder

3 strategies for recovering narcissists

9 types of entitlement tendencies and how to overcome them

i do want to say that some of these articles have negative language. to be honest i don't know all that much about npd specifically, so i did a lot of research. i was so shocked at how little i could find, and how much is straight up vilifying or about victims of narcissistic abuse and not people with npd. im sure you know this already, but im still horrified. i will be making an effort to post more npd positivity, as recovering is possible and there should be a lot of it.

also, knowing that you are struggling with a personality disorder and wanting to improve is a great first step. im proud of you!

you are worthy of recovery, and you deserve it. i promise

love, emma <3

ugggg im falling in lvoe againngnnnnn