What’s This? A New Chapter Of BRTC???

remus lupin is wild unkept curls, crooked diy hair cuts, chapped teeth, a big hooked nose, picked at finger nails, freckles and exzema, acne scars, deep cuts, big brown eyes with long lashes, an almost too big mouth, constant pout, furrowed bushy brows, pale on naturally tan skin, visible bones and too long limbs, stretched out and tall, bumping his head on door frames, ink spills on his lips from biting his pen, scoliosis, loose belts with diy holes, leather books bags that cut into his shoulders and make him walk askew, hoarse voice and a sputtering laugh, bad hearing because he puts his music on too high volume, picks at his scabs and scars, mismatched socks, falling apart trainers, wide shoulders but skinny arms and torso, hunched posture and walk, resting bitch/disinterested face, low appetite but extremely sweet tooth, manual labor skills, book worm and reading glasses, annotated books with broken spines, rjl written into the covers.

Little moony doodle for the soul <33

disabled remus and reformed dickhead sirius.

sirius who has to LEARN to take care of remus, to not rush off, to not assume he can physically keep up. remus who uses a cane and sirius who at first is kind of embarrassed to be seen with him in public (because of his “never show weakness” upbringing), but who also immediately glares at anyone who looks funny at remus. sirius whose boundless energy both enchants and exhausts remus, who has to learn how to take care of his boyfriend when fatigue catches up with him. sirius who is forced to learn to be comfortable with the quiet (which is actually good for him). sirius who researches remus’ conditions (chronic fatigue, arthritis, problems that the doctors still can’t diagnose) to better learn how to help him. sirius who comes with remus to his appointments, or drops him off with a kiss, depending on how he feels.

remus who can sense sirius’ embarrassment, who snaps at him for it more than once. remus who softens when he finds sirius asleep as his laptop, fifty tabs open to different medical websites and forums. remus who can see how much his boyfriend is unlearning his own prejudice, and working to take care of him. remus who has never been taken care of so fiercely and purposefully, and who loves sirius for it.

you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life

hello hello ask game!!! i’m greedily asking for three of them i’m sorry ahdjfndjd

3, 4, & 11 if i may :3

okay hello i am finally answering this! sorry it’s taken me so long, i posted the ask game and then my life immediately fell apart lmao. this ended up being really long so answers below the cut :)

if you’d like to submit an ask i’d still love to answer more! ask list here.

3. What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

Rather predictably, it’s this one: “‘Your gender is about you, not what other people think.’” It’s just…something that I struggle with myself, and that I’ve seen a lot of other trans people talk about struggling with too. Transition is complicated but I think doing it for yourself is so important.

4. What’s your favorite line of narration?

This isn’t a single line (how do people pick out single lines??? Impossible) but! This one: “It’s that Sirius accepts, and loves, the parts of him that make him trans. It’s that he helps remind Remus that […] it’s a part of his identity, one that he’s allowed to be proud of. Sirius loved Remus as a girlfriend and loves him equally as a boyfriend; and he loves Remus now not just as his boyfriend, but as his trans boyfriend.” This sort of gets at the same concept as the one above—I have so many thoughts and feelings about concepts of transition and passing and stealth and they’re all such complicated, nuanced topics that are different for everyone, but something that’s a big deal for me is trans pride and nonconformity. I don’t want to assimilate into cis ideals; I don’t want to pass as cis. Part of this is probably since I’m nonbinary so there aren’t really cis ideals for me, but I know binary trans people who feel similarly.

11. What do you like best about this fic?

The truth is the trans rep. You know this since I talked to you about it but I was really, really nervous about the trans rep in this fic. It feels the most truthful to my own experience, but it doesn’t fit with the popular cookie cutter narrative, the narrative that’s most easily digestible and understandable to cis people. And of course there’s nothing wrong with that experience but it’s not the only one. And it’s been so lovely to get comments from other trans/non-cis people saying that they relate to the rep in this fic too.

Aside from that, because I feel like I’ve talked an awful lot about the trans rep in this post, it’s just the way they love each other. It’s so soft and gentle and it was lovely to write and fun to revisit to pick out my favorite lines.

I don't like this notif 🥲

also something i will say but obviously i am one voice here and i am one person and you do not need to take anything i say into consideration if you do not want to but,,, wait with your initiatives in this space.

i know i'm a massive hypocrite, i am in this space. i write for this space. i've also lost many trans friends for being in this space.

and i get the sentiments, i get that these come from a good place. but right now, Harry Potter fandom initiatives aren't what we need.

we don't need a fundraiser where people pay for a prompt and the money is donated - share the donation link on your fandom accounts and pray that, if this fandom is as inclusive and supportive as it claims to be, people will donate anyway.

i'm one person you do NOT have to listen to me, but there is a Pit in my Stomach at the idea of trying to combat this ruling by producing more art for this space.

what we need right now is discussions about reach. what we need right now is discussions about tiktok. what we need right now are big, heavy, uncomfortable discussions about what we are doing within this space, if we are going to keep doing it, and what we need to do to reduce further harm if we decide to stay.

the wounds from this ruling and so raw and even as someone in this space, seeing initiatives designed to help raise money for trans charities being rooted in the creation of fics and art? something that gives her even more traction? salt salt salt.

and i cannot imagine how heartbreaking it would feel to be a trans person NOT in this space and see that this is how people decided to combat it.

people are allowed to hate us for being here. we can't argue against the fact we keep her relevant or give her traction. we can do the best we possibly can, but people can still hate us for being here. they are completely within their right to. and trans people outside of this space? they will not feel supported by this. not at all. heck, even i don't.

i just,,, again. one person's opinion. but,, share donation links absolutely! but right now my efforts are entirely focused on formulating and eventually having discussion about what we do from here on out, and not on the creation of a wide-spreading initiative in which people need to receive Harry Potter art to donate.

donate anyway:

switchboard donation

amnesty international donation

trevor project donation

gendered intelligence donation

all out donation

people who think rjl would have really good grades have never been chronically ill and had to miss school consistently because of it. I'm sure he was smart! I'm sure he did really well on tests! but there has never been a character I'm more sure struggled to achieve the academic success that he was capable of.

If you want a new marauders movie/show/reboot then you are supporting jkr and also not appreciating the already beautiful fandom created by queer people for your entertainment for free. Pls leave.