I Am Not Kidding When I Say I Want To Run Away Into The Woods To Live Amongst The Moss And All The Woodland

I am perpetually stuck between the desire to connect deeply with those I love and the desire to live in utter solitude. I fear equally, being disconnected from myself as much as I fear being disconnected from others.

The more time I spend alone, I feel the tug from two directions: the need to step outside my isolation and encounter the world outside of myself…and the desire to protect the world within from the unsolicited disturbances from the world without.

I am:

⬜ male

⬜ female

☑️ very tired can someone please tuck me in

kitty! <3

identity

Hey, so I want to preface this by saying that I’m supportive of everyone, however they identify. 

It seems like my fellow multisexuals haven’t created clear definitions of words, and it annoys me sometimes. I’m attracted to men, women, and all sorts of non-binary people, and depending on who I ask this would make me either bi or pansexual. At this point, I don’t know which label I should use. 

A lot of people I know, who identify as bi, are attracted to (and have dated) nonbinary people, but, a lot of pansexuals distinguish themselves from bisexuals by saying that bisexuals are only attracted to binary genders, so according to them those bi people would be pansexual. I feel like people who are attracted to all genders identifying as bi is valid. Because of that, I don’t want to say I'm pansexual and not bi BECAUSE of my attraction to nonbinary folks, because I feel like that would invalidate bisexuals who date nonbinary people. Either way, I fit under the multisexual umbrella, so I’ve been using that label for now, or just switching between the three terms. Which leads me to my next point;

Why does no one use the term multisexual as an umbrella term? Whenever people talk about the multisexual umbrella, people just say bi, whether the person is Omni, pan, bi, or otherwise. What's up with that? Is bi the umbrella term?

At this point, I'm beginning to hate labels, which sucks bc my lizard brain really likes to put labels on everything, especially me... maybe I should work on that.

They know my desires 🥺

The basic, biological ingredients for well-being that our ancestors built into their lifestyles are missing from modern life. Strong relationships, sense of community and purpose, sunlight, exercise, diet, and balanced thinking patterns must be taken seriously.

Aspects of our culture/modern life furthermore set us up for sacrificing these in favour of patterns that facilitate consumerism (staying inside and watching netflix, eating processed foods, isolating ourselves, forming a worldview through social media, anxiously comparing ourselves to others).

a very polite gentleman if you ask me

𝒂 𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 🌱

I’m going to start keeping a journal again while I’m stuck alone ☺️🌿🍃