Welp

FUCK i love mcyt

brain this is a terrible time to say that in light of recent events that Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths is a c!Owen but you're awfully correct

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Philza is cursed, and has been cursed for far too long.

The details are too blurry to remember, but it was old enough to be a myth long forgotten-- a mistake in a one-life world that itched into his blood and left him to wander eternally, looking for the grind and feeling of what might have been the thrill of expendable time. He walks with accumulating numbers of crows coming and going to keep him company with wings strapped to their black backs like he--they were born with it, he was not.

But not all of them always stay. They are smart, they are kind and close-knit, but they are not immortal. That is a consequence to him as well.

No one can stay forever, he learns. His blood will keep going down roads unfathomable, but not him. He knows his love, his goddess of death will watch them for him, but he?

He's cursed until he dies

And he still will be even after so.

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Context: Philza's curse involves the following:

- Conditional immortality, one life, we all know this

- His curse is non-hereditary, he thinks

- If he dies and becomes Ghostza, his curse isn't done

- He won't enter hell or the afterlife. He will no longer be tangible after so, and

- Because he would be stuck outside of death and life, a different realm in the curse, (most of? not sure?) his crows and Kirstin will no longer be able to interact with him.

- Might make his curse involve the end!

Going with the "Grian is the one who designed this game as opposed to the others" headcanon, it makes you think about the superpowers he gave his friends, how they were all laughing and having fun in the beginning, and that was intentional. It goes to show that even when forced to design the death game his friends are put through (a punishment for trying to usurp the Watchers time and time again), he still cares. They all know he's the one who designed this game, and he hopes they realize the little mercies he's giving them.

He gives Cleo the power to bring people back from the dead, just so he can have a chance to see his best friend again.

He gives Pearl the power to fly, and hopes she appreciates having her wings back, if only for a short time.

Jimmy gets to go invisible because Grian knows the Watchers aren't happy with the curse being broken. He wants to protect him.

As for Martyn? Grian doesn't really know a lot about what's going on with him and the Listeners, but he might as well try to strengthen that connection in the little ways he can without arising suspicion.

He says it himself in the beginning, "let's not forget this is a PVP series," but it sounds hollow even to his own ears. It's pandering to the watching eyes, making them think the lighthearted fun is all unintentional.

He falls out of the sky with the wings he gave to Pearl, and he wonders if the Watchers are starting to catch on.

seems legit

Re-blog this if:

- you’re gay - can read - support gay people - want to hold a match between your fingers as you wander the halls of an ancient castle because it’s your only source of light amidst the ghosts of people long past - are an antelope - or want a chocolate bar.

No one will know which applies.

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DESPITE IT ALL, WE HAVE EACH OTHER

no matter how much hopelessness they corner us into, they cannot stop us from taking care of each other.

somewhere to start today is by helping nada, who is less than 40% of the way towards her goal.

https://gofund.me/e06f31d3

please continue to share mutual aid, whether its in your own neighborhood or across the sea. please continue to find both what's urgent and what's beautiful in the world.

thank you always, take care.

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