Muahahahahah - Muah-Ha-Ha

If you don’t experience the pain that I do every day, you don’t get to judge me.

Not my food habits.

Not my hygiene.

Not my productivity.

Not the clothes I wear.

Not my outlook on life.

Not my goals.

Not my medications.

Not my weight.

Not your body!

You don’t get to decide if I have a moral failing because you think you’re better than me and you could handle it better. Please, try to experience one day of pain like mine. Try to experience one week.

When you’re faced with the choice of not eating and ordering fast food, it’s an easy choice. You choose to eat.

When you’re faced with passing out or wiping yourself down with baby wipes, it’s an easy choice. You choose to be safe.

I am sick of the lectures about what’s good for me, the dangers of seed oils, how medication is propaganda from big pharma, how I’m just lazy and I can take a damn shower.

IT’S NOT YOUR BODY, so get out of my business.

I hate to sound like one of those guys but I honestly think a lot of people are now using the terms executive dysfunction, dissociation, and intrusive thoughts either incorrectly or to excuse particular behaviors otherwise not caused by mental illness but by a lack of desire to do things.

Executive dysfunction isn’t just limited to not having the desire/energy to do things. It also involves impulsivity, mood swings, memory problems, and troubles with social interaction.

Dissociation isn’t just spacing out. It’s a disruption in your consciousness, your memory, and your perception on the world.

Intrusive thoughts are not harmless, quirky commands made by your brain. They are scary and often involve terrible acts of violence.

People throwing around these terms with incorrect or oversimplified definitions is harmful. You get a lot of people going “oh that’s me!” and thinking whenever they daydream in class they’re actually dissociating and call it that, not stopping to think that it’s actually a symptom developed from severe PTSD. Or how executive function primarily effects those with ADHD or brain injury and yet people who take a bit to do their homework or anything involving a bit of effort cite it as their reason for doing it so late rather than a simple lack of desire to do so. Or how intrusive thoughts can make someone so shaken and anxious that they become terrified of themselves but thoughts like “eat a leaf off the ground” somehow fall under this classification.

If you are experiencing these debilitating symptoms, get help if you can. Go to a psych, a therapist, counselor, anyone. If you don’t have the means to, find online support communities. Don’t spread misinformation and cheapen how terrifying and debilitating these symptoms really can be

... Pls cute girls and boys... Tag your cuteness right with #cute rather than #cut...

SzPD: OVERT vs. COVERT

Salman Akhtar (a psychiatrist) provided a comprehensive phenomenological profile of Schizoid Personality Disorder in which classic and contemporary descriptive views are synthesized with psychoanalytic observations. This profile is summarized below and lists clinical features that involve six areas of psychosocial functioning and are organized by “overt” and “covert” manifestations. “Overt” and “covert” are not meant as different subtypes but as traits that may be present simultaneously within one single individual.

Self-concept - OVERT

compliant

stoic

noncompetitive

self-sufficient

lacking assertiveness

feeling inferior and an outsider in life

Self-concept – COVERT

cynical

inauthentic

depersonalized

alternately feeling empty, robot-like, and full of omnipotent, vengeful fantasies

hidden grandiosity

Interpersonal relations – OVERT

withdrawn

aloof

have few close friends

impervious to others’ emotions

afraid of intimacy

Interpersonal relations – COVERT

exquisitely sensitive [disambiguation needed]

deeply curious about others

hungry for love

envious of others’ spontaneity

intensely needy of involvement with others

capable of excitement with carefully selected intimates

Social adaptation – OVERT

prefer solitary occupational and recreational activities

marginal or eclectically sociable in groups

vulnerable to esoteric movements owing to a strong need to belong

tend to be lazy and indolent

Social adaptation – COVERT

lack clarity of goals

weak ethnic affiliation

usually capable of steady work

quite creative and may make unique and original contributions

capable of passionate endurance in certain spheres of interest

Love and sexuality – OVERT

asexual, sometimes celibate

free of romantic interests

averse to sexual gossip and innuendo

Love and sexuality – COVERT

secret voyeuristic interests

vulnerable to erotomania

tendency towards compulsive perversions

Ethics, standards and ideals – OVERT

idiosyncratic moral and political beliefs

tendency towards spiritual, mystical and para-psychological interests

Ethics, standards and ideals – COVERT

moral unevenness

occasionally strikingly amoral and vulnerable to odd crimes, at other times altruistically self-sacrificing

Cognitive style – OVERT

absent-minded

engrossed in fantasy

vague and stilted speech

alternations between eloquence and inarticulateness

Cognitive style – COVERT

autistic thinking

fluctuations between sharp contact with external reality and hyperreflectiveness about the self

autocentric use of language

yo if anyone’s interested in psychology:

here’s a free copy of the DSM V! it’s p expensive and if you’re anything like me, it can be easier to read from a computer screen instead of a book. i also have a physical copy but even then it’s rly helpful to have a quick ref if i’m doing research on my laptop.

enjoy! :)

This scene really struck me, and ever since I saw the movie I’ve been trying to figure out why.

And now that I’ve had a while to think on it, I believe I know.

Here we have Wanda:

Wanda, who has just shown herself to be incredibly, dangerously powerful, to the point that she not only destroyed an infinity stone single-handed (a feat that was supposed to be impossible) but also managed to hold off Thanos and his entire array of infinity stones at the same time.

Wanda, who has just been forced to watch yet another person she deeply loves get slaughtered in front of her - this time by her own hand, for the sake of the universe - and who has at this point simply given up on her will to live.

And then we have Thanos:

Thanos, who has just seen firsthand the power of someone who could potentially take him out (and, if it weren’t for the time stone, would have succeeded) whether he holds five infinity stones or not.

Thanos, who has just watched her make the ultimate sacrifice to keep him from succeeding, and in doing so has proven to him that she will do anything to stop him.

Thanos, who has just had what was supposed to be an easy victory suddenly snatched from his hands by the exhausted girl on the ground in front of him - a girl who is a fraction of his size and laughably weaker than him physically. (He was throwing Cap and Thor and Hulk around like they were nothing.)

And right now, they’re the only two left standing.

Wanda just waits there, lying in the dirt, for him to kill her.

She doesn’t fight, or shield herself, or try to run when Thanos starts walking toward her. She has nobody to step in and save her, because everyone else is trapped or unconscious.

Wanda doesn’t even try to get up.

She doesn’t want to live anymore. She has nothing to live for.

She wants to die, and at this point is more than willing to let Thanos be the one to strike that blow.

Even when he physically puts his hand on her head, all she does is flinch.

Thanos, on the other hand, is unscathed.

He’s standing - towering - over the one person who poses an actual, legitimate threat to him. She’s down for the count, hurt and exhausted and with no will to live, waiting for him to finish the fight.

He’s got her at her absolute most vulnerable, and probably the most vulnerable he will EVER have her - this chance isn’t going to come again.

But he doesn’t kill her.

He reaches down, gently strokes her hair, and walks past her to finish what he came here to do.

Even when he brings Vision back and she stands to fight him once more, he still doesn’t kill her.

He strikes her away, and does so gently enough that she manages to recover and crawl over to Vision’s side before she’s taken by the stone.

Given every opportunity and every reason to end her, he doesn’t do it.

Why?

Now it could be argued that Thanos figured there was no point in wasting the effort because he was going to wipe half of all life from the universe as soon as he got the last stone anyway, but as it was mentioned earlier in the film - the selection of who died would be random.

The stone would not pick and choose - it would take rich and poor, passionate and dispassionate, strong and weak, etc. - completely at random.

There was no guarantee that Wanda would be among those that were taken.

So knowing that she is a legitimate threat to him, and that there’s a 50/50 shot of her surviving that final finger snap…

Why would he let her live?

The second thing that strikes me is how gentle he is.

We’ve seen him order half of a world’s population slaughtered for the sake of his goal.

We’ve seen him torture multiple characters without batting an eye.

We’ve seen him crush skulls and snap necks with his bare hands.

But we’ve also seen this.

And this.

And again, the clip with Wanda.

Thanos has instances where he is incredibly gentle.

And it’s honestly a bit unsettling to watch.

He’s so convinced of the true morality of his own objective - so blinded by the end goal - that the means to reach it no longer matter.

Thanos believes himself to be good and kind, and that he is simply making the tough call that nobody else was strong enough to make for the good of the universe in centuries to come.

He’s culling the herd so the rest don’t starve.

Now I’ve seen the comparison made a few times to seeing pictures of Hitler playing with children (and I’ll admit that’s what came to mind for me as well) - it’s disturbing because we don’t want to humanize someone who has committed genocide, and sympathizing is exactly what our brain tries to do when we see someone being gentle and kind to another creature.

We see Thanos not only being kind to a young Gamora, but being surprisingly good at it, and our brains sort of short circuit for a second because we think that he’s not supposed to be CAPABLE of that.

And yet somehow, to an extent, he is.

Hell, even when he’s about to kill half the universe, he doesn’t cause death wantonly.

He traps Bruce in the cliff, but lets him live.

He catches T’Challa by his throat and punches him into the ground but doesn’t break his neck. 

He shorts out Sam’s wings to drop him out of the sky but doesn’t finish him off.

He destroys the suit around Rhody, but doesn’t crush him.

He throws Bucky aside but doesn’t kill him.

He tosses Okoye aside but doesn’t kill her.

He pins Natasha with a bunch of rocks, but doesn’t crush her.

He rips Groot’s vines away but doesn’t go after him.

He punches Steve out, but doesn’t continue once he’s down.

Hell, when Thanos goes after Wanda his gauntlet lights up blue with the teleportation power of the tesseract. He’s planning to move her - not fight her.

And even when that fails, he doesn’t grant Wanda’s silent wish for death.

He lets her live.

Thanos is not crazed, or high off his own power, or running on blood lust - he’s doing what he thinks is truly the right thing, and going about accomplishing it in a cold and calculated manner. When he’s not trying to accomplish his goal, he acts in a way that might even be described as good.

I believe that Thanos is truly Lawful Evil.

And that’s what makes him so scary.

asking for reassurance is so embarrassing 😭

true.

Rest in peace, Billy Drago (1945-2019) 

Thank you for bringing the biggest, baddest villain, the Demon of Fear (and Hope), to life for Charmed fans. 

it would've been better for everyone if I had stopped having a heartbeat years ago