I Would Love A No Symptoms Day

i hate when i, a completely healthy person (very chronically ill), get sick (flare up) for no reason at all (i exerted myself way past my limit just cuz i didn’t wanna be “annoying”)

navigating doctors visits and applying for university in the same week while going to school should be a valid answer if asked what exercises i do

i once asked a teacher to leave the room cause i was feeling like i was about to pass out so i wanted to lay down, he said yes, but after class came up to me telling me i should see a therapist because this seems like a serious mental problem.

SIR i am chronically ill...

i told him this is a physical condition and he said he doesn't believe me and doesn't wanna hear excuses

teaching people that were curiously asking about my cane how to walk with it because i refuse to make mobility aids a topic that isn't spoken about

had to cancel so many plans with my friends recently...

do they seem mad? -nope

did they say that they are mad? -nope

do i still think that they are mad? -absolutely

fighting the occasional urge to scream, because being chronically ill feels unfair and it really is all too much sometimes

having to wait a long time for a doctors appointment sucks, because until i got proof i am not getting any accomodations from my school and it's affecting my health even more

i wish stores would have more places to sit and rest for a little

like pleaseee i don't wanna pass out on your floor

some guy invited me to go clubbing with him and his friends... i tell him i would go, even though it's not something i usually do, but i couldn't drink because of the medication i'm taking/health issues

he looked at me and just went "oh maybe some other time then"

and my question is why? WHY am i required to drink to hang out with people? and if that's just a rule then there won't be some other time, because i got a chronic illness and not just a cold

i'd love some audiobook recommendations, thank you!

i'm mostly trying to not spend the whole day even if it means just sitting on the couch instead when i'm not feeling well. otherwise i always felt like i wouldn't get tired in bed at all.

any tips for what helps with insomnia?