Fighting The Occasional Urge To Scream, Because Being Chronically Ill Feels Unfair And It Really Is All

being told you look like shit is weirdly validating. like at first it’s a bit hurtful but then i’m like…you can see it??? YOU CAN SEE IT????

love the random wave of nausea that hits me multiple times a day /s

gonna start answering "i hope you get better" with "thanks, i probably won't"

like i hope so too it's just not realistic rn

it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here

sometimes i forget you can actually just pass out from pain

my body just said "nope"

this is why i always have headphones in

"it's not polite" well neither is my pain so fuck off

"Stop looking at your phone"

No. I need a constant distraction from the pain I am in. I promise you, you'd rather see me play solitaire on my phone for 45 mins than deal with me while being fully aware of my body. I PROMISE YOU I am listening better if i'm fiddling on my phone than if I'm sitting and being aware of my agony.

Also to everyone who has ever called me an iPad kid, die in a hole.

i really respect people that say "oh i wouldn't wish this on anyone else" about their chronic illness because I WOULD

(unfortunately i might have become a little bitter, but i'm working on it)

i feel like i wasted all my healthy years with being sad

i wish stores would have more places to sit and rest for a little

like pleaseee i don't wanna pass out on your floor

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