Moth-feeet - K

i never talk about this but i’m feeling especially sad about it cause i’m on my period so i’m gonna rant to you all!

i have several physical disabilities and recently my neurologist presented the possibility of seizures being the culprit causing my fainting spells. i took the last year of school (10th/sophomore) off and resting and healing, so i left public school and started online. obviously that sucked cause i didn’t get to see my tc who for now i’ll call W. it was hard, he is one of the greatest people i’ve ever known and after a year in his class we became close so i continued to email him throughout my past school year away.

this year the plan was to return to school, i would be at a private religious school (im not religious but it is just one of the better schools in my area) and i would most likely be placed back into W’s class given how small of a school it is.

that whole plan might be thrown out the window. my mother is considering the idea of “home bound” it’s a government thing that is free schooling where a teacher would come to my home three days a week to teach. i, under no circumstance, would be able to work along side W ever again. which is devastating.

in all honesty i hated school, i was bullied, i was severely su!cid!al, and it worsened my health, leaving last year was a great idea. but i’ve been entirely alone most days all year, given my family works and i do not. i don’t have a car or license and if i have a seizure disorder i never will. again devastating.

basically this is all to say i won’t get to see W, he and i used to have what he called our “book club” every lunch. he’d sit at his desk and id usually pull a chair near his desk and he’d read while we ate. he read me great gatsby, he read a few nonfiction books, he read poetry, he read so many beautiful books and i would sit and listen and it was truly the most amazing experience i’ve had at a school.

i want to go back and be in his class and see my friends, but i also hated the school, the nurse and several teachers tried to force me into confessing i was lying and never passed out and was just trying to leave school. i had many fainting spells, migraines, i have ehlers danlos syndrome (eds), so on multiple occasions i had dislocated joints in pe. but through all the awful shit that school put me through, W was there.

he would have days in class where he’d put on an educational film, he taught geography and history so usually something along those lines, and we’d all lay on the soft carpet in his room and he’d sit down on the floor with us.

he was so sweet and always so worried about me, i’d come in and he’d ask if i was dizzy or felt bad and always let me lay in the couch in his room if i wasn’t feeling well.

he was such a safe place. and now i might never been in his class again.

ig all i’m saying is it sucks losing my life to stupid shit like my disabilities. i was so happy at the idea of seeing W every day again and now i’m not sure i’ll be able to leave my home again.

it all sucks.

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please i need opinions or thoughts or hc’s about the newest schlagg vlog!!!! his giggle when he was waving at all the kids 🤭🤭

hello moth feet! thank you for your ask <3

first of all i LOVE vlogger!schlatt. there's something so nice and mundane about these videos, especially ones like this where he's communicating exclusively through captions. did he go there by himself? bc he mentioned the old guy taking pics for him. either way i'm so happy he got to take a break and enjoy himself in japan. it made me a little sad when he talks poorly about himself ("hideous glut") and i just want to hold him and tell him how much people love him :( he also has this wonderful balance between humorous and respectful. i love how he has captions in japanese in english :] him meeting that fan and mentioning him in his video was super cool too. i tried really hard to hear his giggle but i couldn't </33

i'm thinking about him going on this trip with you as a way to unplug and get away from everything in the states. he'd record a few things here and there, but he primarily would want this to be about you two getting a break and spending time together.

schlatt clearly has talent with videography and even photography, so i imagine him taking pictures of you during some of y'all's activities without any intent to share them. both of you would enjoy taking pics for memories rather than content. he wouldn't do it too often though. maybe just one or two and then putting the camera away so you guys can live and enjoy the moment.

i also thought it was cute when he talked about being nervous around heavy machinery. he'd hold your hand the before, during, and after the cable car ride. he'd squeeze your hand when you guys got on and off and if the car shook during the ride.

seeing him wave at children would definitely activate the baby fever just a bit. he likes to act like he's this big tough guy, but it's clearly at least mostly an act. seeing this kinder, gentler, and more quiet version of him was extremely refreshing and maybe even surprising considering the persona he portrays online.

he'd hold your hand every step of the way in the city. he'd just want to make sure you're safe and secure next to him, not wanting you to get lost or bothered by anyone.

he'd want to be as lowkey as possible during the trip. i'm not sure how much of his fanbase is in japan, but you guys are there to get away from everything and just enjoy the country and each other. he'd say hello to fans if they approached him (if they did it respectfully), and kindly asking them not to take or post any pictures of or with him.

i'm just so glad he got to have some time to be a human.

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