To The Version Of Myself Who Got Me This Far,
to the version of myself who got me this far,
you weren't supposed to die this way. despite the circumstances in which you had to go, i wanted to let you go with grace, for you gave me what i needed, when i needed it the most.
you didn't deserve the pain they put you through, or the pain i put you through. you deserved to receive the same love that you brought to other people.
at first i wanted to save you, i wanted to retrieve the memory of what it was like to be you. at least hold on a little bit longer. i didn't want to let you go, but i had to.
i take the goodness you left, and i carry it with me in my new shell. just know, i won't ever forget what you had to go through to become me.
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my two cents on the desire unleash tracklist...i want to know why we need multiple english/korean versions of a song on an album. i really don't like that kpop does this bc then u have like (in this case) 2x2 versions of the same song on the album. i'd rather have a shorter mini album and a single album for the english versions of the songs bc it messes with cohesion. they already put so much effort into building up the aesthetics and tone of the album and the tracklisting kinda just puts a dent in that. like ik kpop is not the place to look for cohesion in album tracklisting but they did it with dark blood so why not here?? i had the same pet peeve with orange blood, which has such good tracks but the tracklisting takes me out of the immersion cause it has 3 (3!!!) versions of sweet venom on it lol
anyway i'm still super excited for the new songs!
i'm not a human i'm a magical goblin!! i cook soup with vegetables from my backyard garden and hang out in the woods. this is also entirely true and not a form of escaping reality.
Moonlit mountain scenery with people standing at a river by Georg Emil Libert (Danish, 1820–1908)
my thought of the day is the trees are so lush so green in early spring it heals my soul
wearing this and standing in the middle of a field on a foggy early may morning
EVENING DRESS DESIGNED BY YOSHIKI HISHINUMA .
i'm starting to accept that romantic love is not for me. i was never supposed to have it. maybe because i yearn for it so badly, it is not for me. because if life ever taught me anything, it's the more you want something, the less likely you are to get it. it's how that one saying goes: everything i cried and begged for never ended up serving me. and it's true, it never did. not even once. i always walk away with damage more than anything else. and i'm tired of it.
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