I Need To Start Asking For Help And Advice But I Don't Know Where To Start Or How To Go About It

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

I haven't even started hrt yet and have had no surgeries and I didn't want to start to change all of the paperwork stuff until I was sometime into transition

I need to start asking for help and advice but I don't know where to start or how to go about it

its been 17 days since i posted my crowd funding post and so far only one person donated $20 anonymously (thank you to that person) but I'm not getting what i need in time (apartments get taken fast) and i don't know where i should turn for help for donations and signal boosting

I really don't know how to do that type of thing

is there any way to download or mass reblog all of the posts I've liked or save them or search through them easily?

You've gotta love Jews more than you hate Nazis.

You've gotta love trans folks more than you hate TERFs.

You've gotta love your unhoused neighbors more than you hate the billionaires.

You've gotta love immigrants more than you hate ICE.

You've gotta love queer kids more than you hate christian fundamentalists.

You've gotta love fat people more than you hate the diet industry.

You've gotta love disabled people more than you hate the insurance companies.

You've gotta love your fellow humans more than you hate the worst that humanity has to offer. You don't have to like every person you're fighting for, and you sure as hell don't have to give up your righteous anger, but hate is ultimately corrosive.

You've gotta love.

now that people are really getting scared about this site can anyone help me out with this or give me any advice?

is there any way to download or mass reblog all of the posts I've liked or save them or search through them easily?

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Trump Picks Chloe Cole's Anti-Trans Lawyer Harmeet Dhillon To Lead DOJ Civil Rights Post

The attorney represents one of the most aggressive anti-trans picks yet from the Trump administration. Her history includes targeting safe r

Dhillon, known for her staunch opposition to LGBTQ+ rights, has represented Chloe Cole, a prominent anti-trans detransitioner who has called puberty blockers a “gateway drug” and testified in favor of numerous state-level trans bans. Cole’s lawsuit against Kaiser Permanente is just one example of Dhillon’s alignment with far-right anti-trans movement. With the Department of Justice’s Civil Rights Division at her disposal, Dhillon’s appointment signals an alarming shift that could make life increasingly difficult for transgender people nationwide, including those who have sought refuge in blue states to escape anti-trans legislation. Harmeet Dhillon's most prominent work includes founding the Center for American Liberty, a legal organization that focuses heavily on anti-transgender cases in blue states. The organization's "featured cases" section highlights several lawsuits, such as Chloe Cole's case against Kaiser Permanente; a lawsuit challenging a Colorado school's use of a transgender student's preferred name; a case against a California school district seeking to implement policies that would forcibly out transgender students; and a lawsuit against Vermont for denying a foster care license to a family unwilling to comply with nondiscrimination policies regarding transgender youth. With Dhillon's potential new role at the Department of Justice, these cases may gain renewed significance, as she is given the ability to leverage the department's power against states that protect their transgender residents. The attorney herself has openly advocated for overturning blue-state laws that protect transgender individuals. For instance, in response to Maine’s designation as a refuge for trans people fleeing anti-trans crackdowns in red states, Dhillon claimed such a law would be unconstitutional. Safe-state laws like Maine’s have grown increasingly common, explicitly preventing care provided within the state from being subpoenaed by out-of-state actors seeking to prosecute individuals under laws that do not apply in blue states. These laws safeguard residents from interstate legal attacks over actions such as traveling to access gender-affirming care, abortions, or other reproductive healthcare. As of December, 17 states have enacted “shield laws” designed to protect their transgender residents from these efforts to eliminate access to care, even in jurisdictions where bans do not exist. Such laws have taken on heightened importance this year as officials like Texas Attorney General Ken Paxton attempt to access medical records of transgender individuals across state lines. Paxton issued subpoenas to healthcare providers in states as far away as Georgia and Washington, seeking information on transgender patients from Texas who received gender-affirming care. In Washington, a robust shield law effectively blocked his out-of-state legal efforts. Dhillon has repeatedly expressed extreme anti-transgender views on social media, often engaging with and praising the Libs of TikTok account—an account whose posts frequently precede bomb threats targeting schools and hospitals. In one such post, Dhillon commented on a school in Idaho respecting a transgender student, stating, “We are talking IDAHO, folks. Not coastal California. I’m telling you this predatory gender madness is everywhere!” In another post, she responded to Glenn Beck by calling gender transition a lie, writing, “Make it unsafe for American doctors to destroy young American lives through the lie of sex change aka ‘gender transition.’ Expand the statutes of limitation. Make insurance paying for these procedures also pay for detransition. Make it stop.” In that interview, Dhillon doubled down, declaring that hospitals providing gender-affirming care must be “made unsafe” to do so.

I've edited my goal down to $3600 for a studio apartment witch are around $1800 a month + one-time cost

its been 17 days since i posted my crowd funding post and so far only one person donated $20 anonymously (thank you to that person) but I'm not getting what i need in time (apartments get taken fast) and i don't know where i should turn for help for donations and signal boosting

Help me pay first months rent and move-in-fee

Hello everyone, My name is Tiffany I'm trans, autistic, disabled and cant work with chronic fatigue syndrome, executive dysfunction and I have avoidant personality disorder/high anxiety and don't have a social support network that is supportive of me being transgender I've never been employed and am basically unemployable I'm in the process of getting benefits like ssi, snap, medicare, and medicaid but in order to receive rental assistance I need to be able to pay first months rent and a move in fee but I'm practically unable to because of how little I'm getting right now and how fast the money goes due to things like food, my phone bill, some goes to my uncle's rent and bills, and I would just want some support temporarily until all these government assistance processes are completed witch would take long because first I need to find one available and the cheapest apartments I can apply for in my area are $1800 to $2300 plus security deposit then it would need to be inspected for approval and then hopefully I can finally live on my own planning to hopefully live on all that but its taking longer then expected and i would love to move out sooner then later so I can begin to live the way I want to live away from bigoted and abusive members of my family

I dont know how much longer I can live in this situation before I have a similar episode that got me kicked out in the first place and got me sent to this place Im really feeling like im losing it and cant take it anymore I dont know whats going to happen