Thinking About How When You Experience A Lot Of Shame In Your Formative Years (indirectly, Directly,

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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1 month ago

like if there's an addon or an app that would be better for me, I wish I could more easily understand that stuff though

is there any way to download or mass reblog all of the posts I've liked or save them or search through them easily?

1 month ago

@ Canadians

I think we have a solid factual basis and enough supporting evidence that (provided that the conservatives lose the election) we may have a case to have Canada alter or withdraw from its safe third country agreement with the United States and begin to accept trans refugees from there.

But this is not going to happen if we don't demand it and present information that should lead to an update to the law.

So in addition to voting in the next election, please try to get in contact with local immigrant and LGBTQ advocacy groups and organize to bring this information before those who could act on it, including phone calls to members of parliament.

It is time to take action. We can't just assume someone else will do it in our place.

As a refugee myself, I am already gathering allies and information to coordinate actions from the shadows. I am hopeful that this can be done.

2 months ago

I hate that the combination of adhd, cfs, and anxiety takes me forever to do anything I desperately need to get done.

1 month ago

its been 17 days since i posted my crowd funding post and so far only one person donated $20 anonymously (thank you to that person) but I'm not getting what i need in time (apartments get taken fast) and i don't know where i should turn for help for donations and signal boosting

1 month ago

Abled Person: Hey man, can you hold this wad of $2,000 and this one penny for me while I open my wallet?

Disabled Person: YOU COMPLETE AND UTTER FOOL!

The United States Government:

Abled Person: Hey Man, Can You Hold This Wad Of $2,000 And This One Penny For Me While I Open My Wallet?

(Watch how many people don’t get this.)


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5 months ago

I'm on social security, disability, snap, medicare/medicaid and am in the process of having those benefits expanded and also receive rental assistance and was planning to hopefully live on that but I'm not sure what the near future of those services will be or how long they will last also the state of the economy in the near future and if I need to I have never set up a gofundme or anything like that

I need to start asking for help and advice but I don't know where to start or how to go about it

1 month ago

I’ve edited my goal down to $3600 for a studio apartment witch are around $1800 a month + one-time cost

Help me pay first months rent and move-in-fee

Hello everyone, My name is Tiffany I'm trans, autistic, disabled and cant work with chronic fatigue syndrome, executive dysfunction and I have avoidant personality disorder/high anxiety and don't have a social support network that is supportive of me being transgender I've never been employed and am basically unemployable I'm in the process of getting benefits like ssi, snap, medicare, and medicaid but in order to receive rental assistance I need to be able to pay first months rent and a move in fee but I'm practically unable to because of how little I'm getting right now and how fast the money goes due to things like food, my phone bill, some goes to my uncle's rent and bills, and I would just want some support temporarily until all these government assistance processes are completed witch would take long because first I need to find one available and the cheapest apartments I can apply for in my area are $1800 to $2300 plus security deposit then it would need to be inspected for approval and then hopefully I can finally live on my own planning to hopefully live on all that but its taking longer then expected and i would love to move out sooner then later so I can begin to live the way I want to live away from bigoted and abusive members of my family

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4 months ago

so I never got any paper work done like birth certificate or Id or anything else nobody in my direct life like family members would have been willing to help me and callen-lorde hasn't been as helpful and really difficult to contact/get in touch with along with all my other problems mental and physical that prevent me from helping myself so I don't know what will happen now or what else can be done.

I need to start asking for help and advice but I don't know where to start or how to go about it

5 months ago

thank you I already DMed her to ask a few things a while back and she was very good even though now I'm looking for other types of help I guess, but I don't think I even was aware of gaycenter

I need to start asking for help and advice but I don't know where to start or how to go about it

5 months ago
National Trans Bans? Both Trump And DeSantis Advocate Anti-Trans Policies On Same Day
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On January 31st, Ron DeSantis in a press conference signaled his desire to end gender affirming care for trans youth. Trump then released an

The above list of policies is essentially a list of things that several states in the United States are doing. Tennessee, for instance, is pushing a policy right now that would make gender affirming care child abuse and would target parents for allowing them to get that care. Attorney General Ken Paxton of Texas has already begun investigations on the companies that make the drugs used for gender affirming care. Forced outing provisions, sports bans, and the threatening of funds are all being pushed in bills that have been passed or are moving across the country. Although the impact of these bills and laws are high, there are still many states which protect their transgender citizens. You can see my legislative risk assessment map where I detail that landscape. Should Trump become president again and enact these policies, even those people may not be safe. ... Could they ban gender affirming care nationwide for trans youth or even some trans adults? There are many ways that this could be pushed both legislatively and with executive orders. Legislatively, it is possible for congress to pass laws that regulate all aspects of gender affirming care. We have already seen such legislation promoted by Marjorie Taylor Greene, who announced a national bill to criminalize gender affirming care. Hopefully, legislation like that would be filibustered in the Senate, but this relies on the filibuster continuing to be preserved. An anti-trans president might direct the FDA to take unprecedented actions against the use of puberty blockers and hormone therapy in trans youth and may go after the companies that make them with regulatory actions. In his speech, Trump also pointed at using the office of Civil Rights to go after “civil rights violations” of allowing transition. We also know that Trump has been more than willing to withhold federal funding. The weaponization of federal agency regulations against transgender people is something that I have personally kept my eye on since Ron DeSantis began using those agency mechanisms in Florida.

Article from last year highlighting some of the paths they could take to attack trans rights on a national level, potentially affecting those in blue states as well. Be prepared, try to stockpile HRT, have DIY resources on hand, and also see about preparing an escape plan.

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