21.03.2023 Iced Mocha Latte + Outfit Check. I Managed To Finished Article Review, A Canvas Discussion

prague, march 2022

this is going to be difficult -> i am capable of doing difficult things -> i have done everything prior to this moment -> this difficulty will soon be proof of capability

Third day of orientation, it was an alright session. I talked with few fellow PhD intake too from different programme. A little nervous about my journey (totally normal on being scared, seriously. It is just my mind deciding to panic and be anxious).

Crying

- A Psalm for the Wild-Built, Becky Chambers // kagonekoshiro

caffeine + finals

We're almost at the end of three straight months of genocide, 30k deaths, nearly two million displaced and starving. If you're still calling the situation "nuanced" and "complicated" I'm going to beat you to death with a shovel.

Yesterday's sunday funday, joined a 2.5 km walk with mum, and treat myself a small sized latte (but it tasted so bland sadly). Didn't do any study since it was my rest day and felt good to not overthink anything even if for a day. Also, look at those shade of blue and indigo 💕

01 • 05 • 2023 Today was so cold and rainy.

there’s a museum next door and they have this coffee shop that sells chocolate and salt cookies, and brownie cookies which i’m obsessed with.

Crying

when georges bataille wrote, “no greater desire exists than a wounded person’s need for another wound” & when gillian flynn wrote, “a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort” & when ocean vuong wrote, “sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined” & when lisa m. basile wrote, “did you inherit a sickness? did you blame god? do you believe in god? do you believe in yourself? are you still on fire? did you ever put out the fire?” & when stephen a. guirgis wrote, “why didn't you make me good enough so that you could’ve loved me?”