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“Are you happy here?" I said at last. He considered this for a moment. "Not particularly," he said. "But you're not very happy where you are, either.” ― Donna Tartt, The Secret History
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“It's a very Greek idea, and a very profound one. Beauty is terror. Whatever we call beautiful, we quiver before it. And what could be more terrifying and beautiful, to souls like the Greeks or our own, than to lose control completely? To throw off the chains of being for an instant, to shatter the accident of our mortal selves? Euripides speaks of the Maenads: head thrown I back, throat to the stars, "more like deer than human being." To be absolutely free! One is quite capable, of course, of working out these destructive passions in more vulgar and less efficient ways. But how glorious to release them in a single burst! To sing, to scream, to dance barefoot in the woods in the dead of night, with no more awareness of mortality than an animal! These are powerful mysteries. The bellowing of bulls. Springs of honey bubbling from the ground. If we are strong enough in our souls we can rip away the veil and look that naked, terrible beauty right in the face; let God consume us, devour us, unstring our bones. Then spit us out reborn.” ― Donna Tartt, The Secret History
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thinking about how richard papen was so desperate to find somewhere to belong because of the broken family he came from and he was obsessed with the exclusive class and after joining them he started resembling them, picking up their habits and their attitude, all because he wanted a family, to be included, and yet even after he joined them he still remained an outsider up until the very end. “your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing” is so richard papen
Tsh fandom has many many faults but by far the most irritating is when they decide to nitpick which actions are justifiable or even non-existant and which are disproportionately vile and irredeemable just so they can place some characters (francis, camilla) on a higher moral plane than others (bunny, charles) like they weren't all equally awful people and the point wasnt that they were all batshit crazy
The Greek Class didn't destroy Richard, he brought that on himself.
He chose to be destroyed and I am sure a part of him wanted to be.
He's the type of person who wants to be different, to be admired, to be apart from normal people.
That's why he tried to get in the Greek class in the first place even when Julian rejected him ounce, he wanted to be with the elites, to be exclusive.
Richard does show remorse for his actions at times but that doesn't mean he didn't find it thrilling.
He wanted an adventure, to see a tragedy, to be part of something dramatic and exciting. He was bored in his little town, around distant parents and normal friends.
He has always felt like he was above other people and he does look down on others who don't understand or follow his ideals.
His idolization of the Greek class is the reason he got destroyed, he was blinded by the opportunity to be included and accepted by them that he didn't look back at the mistakes he made for them.
Richard's story is a cautionary tale about foregoing your sanity and ethics for a broken, one sided friendship. They used him again and again, he did everything for them. Never questioning what he was really doing.
In the end, he was never a part of their group.
He was just there.
#isurvivedshifttok
Shut out everyone else. Stop replaying other peoples opinions in your head. What do YOU want to do? How do you WANT to do it?
Why the fuck are you doing something you don't like
rip bunny corcoran you would've hated rick riordan's interpretation of dyslexia in demigods as meaning their brain was hardwired for ancient greek
TSH spoilers:
I feel like we as a fandom do not talk about Henry’s symbolism in TSH enough. Like, that dude is the literal embodiment of death, and I just think it’s so damn cool. I mean, his whole obsession with language and literature stemmed from the fact that he almost died in a car accident. And then every death we see in the book (the farmer’s, Bunny’s, and his very own) is directly at his hands. The others were accomplices, sure, but Henry’s the one who takes action every time. And in Francis’s failed suicide and Richard’s near death in the epilogue, they both see Henry, not Bunny or Charles or what have you.
Henry is not only obsessed with death, he IS death. He’s the reaper who’s friends toy with their mortality all the time through drugs and booze. The reason they all admire him is not only because of his size and stature and brilliance; it’s because he’s dangerous. If beauty is indeed terror, than he’s the most beautiful of them all. They all have the life preservation skills of a fly, so of course they love Henry. And of course his actions constantly bring them closer to danger and death.
from my instagram lol at a goodwill
i would have included dead poets society but i haven’t watched it yet
Bunny Corcoran, an empath, sensing that they are not looking for new ferns.
somebody had probably done this before but
need… henry winter… fanfiction…. so baddd….
The Secret History (1992)
“Is somebody gonna match my freak?” Is basically the dynamic of the Greek class, no?
‼️THIS IS NOT A TWINK IN THE LATE 90s, THIS IS DONNA TARTT IN THE 80s. DO NAWT BE FOOLED‼️
RIP Judy Poovey, you would have loved "brat" by Charli xcx.
rip bunny corcoran you would’ve loved tiktok brain rot humor.
I love that the TSH fandom is so small honestly. I see something new on the tag and 8 times out of 10 I recognize the user even if we've never interacted once. We recycle the same 4 jokes all the time (Henry and the Moon landing, Richard is gay, they killed Bunny for eating a sandwich, let's have a bacchanal in the woods) and some questionable takes will come up once in a while but overall the theories and analyses are great, the art is amazing, the fics are masterpieces and everyone's really nice. There's like 23 of us in total here and we all end up reblogging one another's stuff in circle, we're just vibing
SOME OF YOU LIKE THE IDEA OF SHIFTING/LOA INSTEAD OF THE SUCCESS OF IT.
If we’re being completely honest, some of you like the idea that you can live the life you want or shift to where you want but you don’t actually want to see the success of it.
You sit up and make posts about what you want and what dr you’re shifting to but the next following posts are ‘I can’t do it’ or ‘I’m feeling burnt out’ and that’s odd because????
I’m not saying you don’t have a right to feel exhausted upon not seeing any progress or improvement but you’re using the LOA just by saying you can’t do something.
Some of you truly only listen to the negativity because that’s what you’re used too and trust me I’m not judging anyone bc we’re human and I do it too but you cannot keep writing things like ‘I can’t do it’ or ‘it’ll take me years’
Shifting is a practice yes, but how many times are you going to keep saying it’s a practice instead of actually practicing it.
Slow progress ≠ no progress.
(the bitch who recommended that shit to me better count your days)
how i managed to shift 62 times
This is my go to method that I use most times I shift. I shift using sleep paralysis about 4 times a week and successfully. I like this method because it puts me in the thoughtless state which allows me to shift and allows me to focus. You don’t need to focus to shift but when I don’t I tend to just not want to shift anymore because I’m so consumed with other thoughts. This is not the void, however. I first shifted with this about four years ago, and have shifted with this method about 62 times that I consciously remember.
Step one: I can’t focus at all when I close my eyes and even if I do it in the day I take a nap. So for whatever reason I put my feet up on the wall. And I shifted the first time I tried. This helps me because even when I do nod off I wake up not long after. And I can actually focus on where I want to go. So I put my feet up usually with a blanket covering my legs and feet. It doesn’t have to be super high up where you’re uncomfortable. Just something even slightly raised helped me lots. I usually stay still because it puts my body to sleep and calms me. But you don’t have to if it’s too uncomfortable.
Step two: Oh, I’m usually listening to a playlist that reminds me of the place I’m shifting to or a moment or memory from my dr. That way I’m not scared by the silence when the sleep paralysis kicks in. Play it quietly so you don’t get annoyed and pick songs that aren’t too distracting. It should just kind of blend in the background. Then I start thinking about memories of my dr and moments. Usually in first person unless I’m looking at photos in my memories. If I nod off, I usually wake up from the unusual position and begin affirming naturally.
Step three: I usually forget I’m affirming and just shift immediately. I open my eyes and then I’m there. Or I get sleep paralysis where I affirm and think I’m there. And I wake up in my dr pretty soon after.
I’ve never failed with this method because I think it just fits well with me. It’s loosely structured and hits all my strengths in visualization, affirmations and so on. So I’d try this for three nights and if it doesn’t work. Apply what did and drop what didn’t. Anyways I’m so excited to shift for the summer to Okinawa. I think this one is just going to be a solo adventure with me and my five dogs. I might permashift from there but I don’t know yet. Does anyone else like to shift for holidays?
Happy shifting lovelies, you got this!
i feel like Henry Winter wouldn’t fall in love with someone who idolizes him, but quite the contrary; he’d fall for the girl who knows he’s a manipulative shit, too cocky for his own good but still likes him.
therefore, he’s into degradation. in this essay I will…
does anyone have any idea why the greek class actually went to Francis’ lake house or was that just something they did sometimes? Richard mentions them being there when it first snowed, during Henry’s birthday, but he was just randomly invited one weekend? And then him and Charles talked about not wanting to go back to Hampden so I was thinking it was over the span of something like a thanksgiving break but I would think Richard would mention that.
"not to be controversial but bunny didn't deserve to be murdered" that's the point!! murder!! is!! bad!! (like, reblog, & follow to agree 🙏. ignore to condone murder👿)
free my girl she did all that shit but the fandom is mischaracterizing her for it
whhaaaat people actually like bunny corcoran 😳😳😳 that’s so disgusting and horrible…anyways look at my posts about the other awful characters that i love from that book🥺❤️