It Didn’t Take Long For The NYPost To Go Negative. What’s Wrong With The Aussies?!

#shadows RIP, Kobe

a rainbow over the magic kingdom, may 31st 2018

My mixes represent how I feel during a period of time. It’s been helpful during cancer treatment because the medicines make me moody and I can sort of flesh it out through mixing different types of movies. (And if it’s a really hard day, I dip back into more old school or find some tearjerker that can make me cry any remaining crap out.) It’s difficult to make definitive steps when most of the day is spent dreaming of things you don’t have the energy for yet.

Battling nausea at every turn

Someone asked me -- or maybe I posed the question myself -- which is worse: nausea or a migraine? Well, I’ve had both, sometimes at the same time, and after thinking about it awhile (and trying to eat a few times, only to throw it up), I’d say that it must be a rhetorical question, because dark thoughts like that lead you down a path away from recovery. Look at the brightness ahead, not the darkness left behind.

Cancer is exhausting. I refuse to quit trying to improve, but I often feel like I’m trying to defy everything. My life has become such a blur, and now (one good thing) is that I’m hungry until I can eat no more and then get nauseous and it becomes one evil loop. 

I’m one of those stubborn people who at least like to fool myself into thinking I can do everything by myself, but I know that’s not true. There is no game when you’re alone. It’s just you (me) and my lonely thoughts. I often keep the TV on for background noise (and then I find myself passionately agreeing or disagreeing about whatever they’re saying).  And for the record, I refuse to watch Fox News because they’re usually so out there, but I do find myself watching Fox Business at night. How I digressed from cancer to loud TV only the good Lord knows. (There are some things I just don’t want to know!)

Cupid’s arrow

I’m missing my grandfather this morning, so I’m watching “Sanford and Son.” That show and “The Jeffersons” (and any old western) were his favorite shows.

I’m ahead of schedule for once, so I’m posting this extra mix. We’re all in need of a boost these days.

i’m following the footsteps of queen meredith

Coming tonight (or tomorrow, depending on where you’re at) ...

Posting Friday night, this one is dedicated to all those who seek peace.