I think when you grow up lacking material things, lacking affection or any form of stability, you end up saving everything for later in a constant fear of running out or you end up being so ashamed of asking people for help, for a job, for any kindness and then ending up being denied, that you don’t dare asking, even if you have financial stability and good relationships in the present as an adult. You end up self-sabotaging in fear of what it might mean to desire something and not have it. The more you want, the more you abstain and the bigger that sort of empty craving gets. Don’t feel guilty for the seemingly enormity of your own needs, because the more you abstain from them, the bigger they get. Don’t let your soul starve. Don’t let yourself run on empty. Don’t let the emptiness grow into a pit. Don’t save happiness for later or for when you “become” a worthy person - you don’t need to earn every little thing, you don’t have to hurt yourself to be worthy of some soothing or any help.
This drawing every day shit is east. #MyCircle
cannot relate to people who don't feel trapped in their own brain we are simply too different. "your brain is you" ummm no it's not? my brain is a warden enforcing my punishment for a crime i never committed and it keeps slamming its baton against the bars of my enclosure to rattle me
a good way to inspire yourself to do more is to see yourself as the wacky sitcom B plot character in your friends lives, "wouldnt it be funny to tell the friends in my phone about it." has gotten me to do anything from going to a festival (excelent) to wild camping (it went badly) (coastguard called) to trying to get the train to stonehenge (stonehenge costs money so i ended up just getting lunch in sailsbury, it was okay.) i bought a bicycle today and 20% of my reasoning was "itd be funny to surprise my roommate by coming home with a whole bike." . life is for living. and baby i live for the bit.
Anarchist bird posters by Halsey Berryman
#voices of the void
openin’ the door to the microwave one second early because you don’t need all the hootin’ and hollerin’
get this to 1 million notes and I'll reveal what uzi is saying !
from another room i heard the voice of peppa pig ponder the question "daddy. where has the sky gone" and for one brief moment, before her father could reassure her that it was simply fog, i felt afraid